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Saturday, May 31st, 2014 02:23 pm
verloren1983: (Default)
The promised five questions from [personal profile] chagrined ! If you want questions, let me know and I'll come up with something. Probably. XD

1. What is your favorite baseball moment in Oofuri?
Oh man, I don't even know. I love when Tajima is telling everyone when to steal, does that count? XD

2. What types of porn do you most like to write?
Hmm. I had to think about this one a bit. I think one of the things I most like to write is when there's some kind of back and forth exchange going on- whether it's struggling for control (*cough*HikaruandAkira*cough*) or talking or whatever. Consent is an absolute must for me, which is probably why you often see repeated checking in with my fic, sometimes even to the point of annoying the character being asked. Um...  I like writing blow job fic, for some reason? And I love writing penetrative sex. It's awesome (probably because *cough* that's how I feel about it in general? XD), even though yes, I know that not everyone likes it or does it and I try to represent that as well. I think that sort of answered the question?

3. What's a pairing you ship but have never written a fic for?
Uh..... Ogata/Isumi? I just have a hard time writing Ogata in general, really. It's why I rarely write him, and when I do, it's just a cameo. XD

4. What's the best vacation you've ever gone on?
When I went to go visit my older sister in Texas in... what, 2010? I went with my younger sister, and even though we were kept busy with all sorts of things (museum/beach/concert/etcetcetc), it was a lot of fun. I actually got to swim in the ocean! :D And I discovered the fun of multiplayer Super Mario Wii. :P

5. Do you have any entertaining injury stories?
I wasn't one of those kids that played rough- I was the kid in the corner with a book- so I don't really have many injury stories at all. I've never broken anything. The only thing I can think of is the time I sprained my ankle. This was YEARS ago. My younger sister and I were walking home from someplace, I don't remember where. It was winter. We saw a plow coming up behind us and didn't want to get a bunch of snow shoved on us, as plows tend to do on sidewalks, plus we were dumbasses, so we started rushing to get to a driveway or something to get out of the way. Well, I slipped and fell, and it turned out that I sprained my ankle badly enough that the doctor said it would've been better if I'd just straight up broken it. So yeah, that was fun.

I guess there was also the time that I was ridiculously drunk and went to lean back and accidentally banged my head on a coffee table REALLY hard. I woke up the next morning with the migraine from hell and so many bruises, I didn't even know what the hell had happened. I'm still not sure, and I'm not entirely sure I want to know. O_O

NSFW Tumblr Meme!

Monday, March 10th, 2014 01:31 pm
verloren1983: (Chi)
Just for fun, I'm going to offer up a meme from Tumblr if anyone is interested. Anything I've written before or have at least mentioned in passing in LJ/DW or in conversation is fair game- and even if I haven't, as long as I know the fandom, there's at least a halfway decent chance I'll do it. (Exceptions: Merlin/Arthur, Johnlock, anything from Kuroko no Basket, no Oofuri because I'm not familiar enough with canon yet, whatever I'm not thinking of right now) I'll let you know if I can't do one. If you want a pairing from a specific universe I've written or familiar with, let me know and I can probably accommodate you, otherwise it'll just be general canon.

Oh, and both Mitani/Kaneko and Kaga/Tsutsui have been asked/answered on Tumblr already, everything else is up for grabs. ^_^

- Do they have any “mating rituals”?
- Who is louder?
- Who is more experimental?
- Who takes more risks?
- Do they fuck or make love?
- Lights on or off?
- Who is more likely to be caught masturbating?
- Who is more likely to suggest a threesome?
- Has either stolen the other’s underwear?
- Who comes first?
- Who is better at oral and who prefers it?
- Who is more submissive?
- Who usually initiates things?
- Who is more sensitive?
- Who has the most patience?
- Which kinks do they share?
- What kinks do they have that clash?
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] degrees - I'm almost done with this, I swear, you guys. XD)

Talk about the direction you see fandom going in (livejournal to tumblr, etc) and if it's a good or bad thing!
Oh man, I have so many mixed feelings on this. I think it's both a good thing and a bad thing. Say what you will about Tumblr, but it's a great way to pass things around- whether it be art or links or whatever. That can be really useful, ESPECIALLY for the fanart side of things... as long as people aren't assholes about sourcing stuff. On the other hand, I really don't like the de-centralization of fandom. I hate that everything is so split up now, between the people that are still clinging to LJ, the ones that have moved on to DW or even other sites, the Tumblr people, AO3... it's just too much to keep track of, and I feel like fandom as a whole is suffering for it. We're losing our identity. We're losing our fandom friendships and the bonds that we had- and I mean this as a whole, not one fandom in particular. A lot of fandom has moved to Tumblr, but it's really ridiculously difficult to have a conversation on Tumblr, so things get lost. I probably sound like the old fart wishing for the "good old days," and maybe to a point I am, but while all of these sites have their uses, I can't help but think that fandom is getting splintered because of it. So basically, it's a mixed bag as far as I'm concerned- some gems but mostly coal.
I'm not really sure what this means for the future of fandom. I see it being mostly a sharing culture without the discussion and fandom friends, and with a lot less feedback on work submitted- I'm talking about quantity vs quality here on that last one. Both AO3 and Tumblr encourage this. Unlike LJ or DW, where you HAVE to leave a comment in order to let the author know you liked it, on AO3 and Tumblr you can just leave a kudos or reblog it without any commentary. Now, I'm guilty of doing this myself, I'll admit. And to a point, it allows for more  feedback, which is great. The problem is that it's a much lower quality than before. Okay, you liked it, but why? What worked for you, so I know to keep doing that? Kudos are great, don't think I'm bitching, but it doesn't even COMPARE to a great review in terms of encouragement, you know? It makes me sad. My first friend in fandom was through a comment she'd left on a fic I'd written- we got to talking, and she kind of shoved me into writing for [community profile] blind_go , and that was really the beginning of SO MUCH for me. Literally all my other friends in fandom came through BG. Without her prodding encouragement, I'm not sure I ever would've gathered up the nerve to even do BG. My point here is that at least to my mind, you get into fandom through conversations with people, and I'm just not sure how much that's really happening anymore. :/

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

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Sunday, February 2nd, 2014 01:53 pm
verloren1983: (Default)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] degrees )

Any YouTube recs?
Holy crap, I could put a ton of things in here. Let's see. In no particular order (and not just for Liz, because I know she's seen some of this):

Cut for link heavy, obviously. )

...I feel like I'm missing a whole bunch of stuff, but what I've already linked should keep you guys busy for a while. XD

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
(Kept meaning to post this and then getting distracted by people/assignments/whatever. Oops. Anyway, for the December posting meme- [personal profile] degrees )

Talk about your writing process!
You mean besides that it's a mess? XD It's not so much a process as "Ver makes everything up as she goes along." Alright, well, I'll try and pull something together here.
When I get a bunny, regardless of whether it's something that was brought on by music or something else, usually it's just a small snippet of something. An idea for a part of a scene if I'm lucky, but usually I'm not and it's a line or two of dialogue. Unfortunately, what the bunny started out as gives no indication of how long it's going to end up being- "The Devil You Know," which is somewhere in the ballpark of 10k words and is my longest fic to date by FAR, started off in my head as just a scene of Hikaru and Akira seeing each other at a club. That's IT. Even the simple ones can grow completely out of control.  The bunnies just start multiplying on their own, I don't know how they do that when there's only one of them to begin with. Apparently plot bunnies reproduce asexually? I don't know.
As far as actual writing goes, I tend to write things as they come to me, which is usually not in any coherent order. The initial bunny is somewhere in the middle? Okay fine, I guess I'm writing that first. The next bit is the end? Alrighty then. I don't generally use filler text, either, unless there's something important I'm intending on putting there that I may forget about later. I mostly work in Notepad, so what this means is that if you looked at a story I'm working on, you probably wouldn't know what was happening half the time. It's just a jumble of seemingly random paragraphs, large spaces, and some short dialogue sequences. (The large spaces typically mean that I'm making a separation between what comes before it and after it- there's a scene change, but I'm not done writing the previous scene yet.) It's kind of a mess, to be honest. Sometimes I work in yWriter and that makes it a bit easier as far as keeping the bits separated. I tend to use Notepad because regardless of what kind of machine I'm on, everything can open a txt file. Even my phone. :P I know at this point it's outlived its usefulness, because everything I use will also open ODT/RTF files, but ehhhhhh.

So basically, what ends up happening is I have to figure out how all the pieces I have fit together. This happens along the way, it's not like I write all the pieces and am then staring at it trying to get it to go together like a puzzle. It's like... I'm making a quilt, and I have some of the squares made up already and know where I want them, but I'm also making things as I go. Often, I find that scenes naturally go together without a lot of effort on my part, but every once in a while I have to kind of nudge things along in the right direction. You can usually tell when I do this. XD

Also, I reblogged something on Tumblr yesterday that really applies to this post.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (AkiHika Snow Cuddle)
(At some point, I have to remember to do a real entry, but my brain is kind of mush today, so... not right now. XD For the December posting meme-  [personal profile] hostilecrayon )

People you couldn't or wouldn't want to live without and why!
I don't feel like separating those categories, so I'm not going to. It's probably best if I put this in list form.
Older sister- She's the person in my entire family that I'm closest to, by far, even though there's seven years between us. I can talk to her about anything. I mean, yeah, we have our moments where we don't necessarily like each other very much, but that's going to happen in any relationship. I trust her more than anyone else IRL, which is saying a lot, because I don't trust people easily. That probably comes from the fact that I spent more time with her growing up than I did my parents, at least when I was little, so she's kind of a second mom.
Younger sister- Okay, fine, she drives me crazy, but she's worth keeping around just for the sheer entertainment sometimes. And, you know, she's someone to talk to when we're both around.
Stef- My best friend who's basically like a sister. She's one of those friends who I won't talk to for months at a time, but then we go out to lunch or whatever and pick right back up like we'd just talked the day before. We've been friends since middle school- we not getting rid of each other that easily. ;)
Online friends- I'm putting this as a general category for several reasons, but the bottom line is that even though I'm closer to some of you than others, you're all important to me in some way and I wouldn't want to lose that. You guys support me and encourage me and help keep me sane, or at least something resembling sanity. Would I want to live without that? No way.

...I feel like I'm missing someone in here, but I can't come up with it, so it is what it is. XD

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
(Okay, so my head is freaking killing me, but I already skipped yesterday, so. Since the next two are short, I'm just going to combine them. For the December posting meme- both questions are from [personal profile] hostilecrayon )

Things you've always planned to get to/watch/do/etc but haven't and probably never will.
Lord of the Rings (books). Sherlock Holmes (books). A lot of classic books. XD Go to Ireland. Go to Italy. (Basically, international travel in general, not counting Canada, but Canada barely counts as international to begin with. XD) Half of the stuff on the 1001 movies to watch list. Get a tattoo. Get down to my goal weight and stay there. I'm sure there's more, I'm just not thinking of them right now.
What's your dream job and/or best job you'd like that's realistic considering the degree you're going for?
I feel like I've discussed this at length fairly recently. XD Dream job: whatever pays the bills and doesn't make me want to mass murder everyone. Overly simple, maybe, but it's something I've never had (on either score). Getting paid to write would be awesome. Something in video game journalism would also be awesome. Realistic job considering degree: something involving editing/publishing. ^_^

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

Guilty Pleasures

Tuesday, January 21st, 2014 11:59 am
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] hostilecrayon )

Guiltiest pleasure, be it music, a game, a habit, whatev.
Hmm. You know, I'm not sure I have anything that I would consider a "guilty" pleasure. I generally don't feel guilty for things that I like. Uh, maybe smutty fic (writing and reading)? Or anything to do with sex in general. As much as I am very into the whole sex positive thing in regards to other people, I still have a lot of hangups personally. ^_^;;; Oh, or wait. I'm usually playing some kind of Facebook game at any given time, though I typically don't stay on a game for long. I either hit the point where you have to start shelling out real money to advance and I quit (because I'm SO not doing that), or I get bored and move on. The most recent game is Dragon City, and I've actually stuck with it for longer than I've stuck with most anything on Facebook. Yeah, I know it's a dumb Facebook game, but it's entertaining and DRAGONS, come on. XD Although it's getting to that first point, where it's getting harder to advance without spending money on it, so I'm not sure how long I'll continue to play it.

Editing this to clarify a bit above and to add- I just realized there's another one, and that's m/m fiction (like, actual published stuff). I've talked about this before, but it's just a thing. Kind of like slash/yaoi for me but with original characters, so you guys can probably see the appeal. Most of it is terrible, but I love it anyway.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)
verloren1983: (Kitty Ahhhh!)
(Library!Ver is a go :D   for the December posting meme- [personal profile] hostilecrayon )

JFC, Lish, I hate you. XD I've tried very hard to wipe as much of that as I could out of my memory. I could probably point to my entire retail career for this question, really. As a retail person working on the floor, I was generally the lowest man on the totem pole, so to speak, so I basically got treated like shit all the time. And I worked that retail job for just shy of ten years. And I'm supposed to be able to pick and choose the worst out of that? Pffft.

If I'm going to cheat, I'd say that this video pretty much covers the overall experience. XD

Alright, well, I can try I guess. Among the worst ones were when people acted as if I was stupid and/or made uncomplimentary remarks about me personally. Like the woman who insisted her total was wrong and I was trying to double check by putting everything into the calculator- but she kept yelling random numbers at me, and then when I understandably screwed up what I was punching in because of the unrelated numbers she was spouting at me, she started telling me how stupid I was. Which of course didn't help matters. Or the guy that asked if I'd had gastric bypass. Also it was equally lovely when I was made to feel physically threatened, which did happen. I remember this one guy especially that kept hitting on me and wouldn't leave me alone. He was making me REALLY uncomfortable, but I didn't feel like I could tell him to fuck off (because the company never EVER supported its employees in anything, so I probably would've gotten blamed even though I was the one being harassed). I kept praying that nobody would need help on the floor so I could stay behind the counter and he wouldn't be able to touch me. That was the one time I was actually nervous going home after I got out, because I was afraid he would be waiting for me. :/ (he wasn't, thankfully) It was FABULOUS when you did what you were told to by a manager and then got in trouble for it later. Um... there was the lady that I'll call "Blinky" (fairly obvious, she blinked a lot) who would come in multiple times a day. She was an absolute TERROR- hated everyone, had complained about everyone working there at least once, always had to bitch about something. If we were all so terrible, I really have no idea why she kept coming in, but whatever. One night, I'd had a really bad day and she came in. I was trying to check something for her, but she wouldn't actually give me half a second to do it- she started bitching and just kept harping and harping and harping at me until I finally snapped at her. She complained about me later and I got in trouble, even though management knew that this lady was consistently a problem, and I'd never snapped at this woman in the many years I'd dealt with her. YEARS I'd put up with that crap. NOBODY IS THAT PATIENT, GOD.

And that's just the customers. Co-workers could be just as bad or worse, depending. There were several people that thought that they were too good to ring register, wouldn't give me any help at all and threw a hissy fit anytime I so much as needed a bathroom break. There was the guy that called me a faggot in front of pretty much everybody and no one said a single word. (I later ended up getting drunk with him at a party and he was much nicer to me after that. Go figure. XD) A lot of backstabbing and gossiping and childish behavior.

Retail, man. I think everyone should be required to work a retail job for at least a solid year, so they can understand just what retail entails and how much shit people put you through (and hopefully make people more understanding)... but I really wouldn't wish more than a year on anybody. While I did get a few things out of it and I met some awesome people, it really is a terrible job. Depending on your crew, of course. If you have an awesome crew, it's considerably less terrible. But still. XD I will point to the video again here. I can't even BEGIN to explain how much truth there is in that.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)


Friday, January 17th, 2014 05:09 pm
verloren1983: (Huh)
(Since I'm at the mall stealing their wi-fi... for the December posting meme- [personal profile] hostilecrayon )

I notice 'what the fuck' is one of your most used tags. xD Talk about things that make you say 'WHAT THE FUCK'. :D
Um, a lot of things. A LOT. I literally say/think/write this at least once every single day, usually more. One of the things I love about this expression is that it's so USEFUL in every day life and can mean multiple things. It can express anything from confusion to anger. As far as what provokes this reaction... look at the tag? XD Meh. I guess we'll point out the most common triggers. The biggest one is stupidity. It baffles me. It often leaves me staring at someone with absolutely no idea what to say to the sheer idiocy of whatever just came out of their mouth. I'm sure you guys know what I mean, those moments when you're absolutely stunned silent and you can't think of a single intelligent response beyond- you guessed it- what the FUCK. On a related note, pure confusion often causes this reaction. I'll say WTF when something just doesn't make any sense to me. Another big one is how terrible we can be to each other, which also baffles me and angers me and makes me terribly sad. Homophobia, sexism, racism, and a bunch of other isms make me go "what the fuck." Probably the third most common thing that the tag covers is anger (often caused by one of the things previously mentioned, but never mind). The government shut down bullshit made me go WTF from both the stupidity and anger standpoints. Actually, a lot of government crap makes me WTF. Anyway. Eh, I don't really have anything else to say about this.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

Future Plans

Wednesday, January 1st, 2014 03:13 pm
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] februaryfour )

Future plans post-graduation?
Well, if I'm going to be a smartass, I should point out that I have two graduations planned, so it depends on which one you're talking about. :P There's graduation in May where I'll get my shiny new A.A. in Liberal Arts, after which the plan is to continue on and get my even shinier B.A. in English (hopefully with that Women's Studies/LGBTQ Studies double minor in my pocket, but we'll see). The plan right now is to live on campus from August 2014 to graduation or August 2016, but I don't have to hammer out that detail for another year, so I'm not worried about it right this split second.

I know what you mean, though, and that's for after I'm done collecting degrees. I absolutely do not plan on getting a master's, partially because I feel like there's no point as I have no intention of teaching, partially because I -really- don't have the money. So, obviously, a job will have to be acquired. Something at least sort of related to my field would be great, though yeah, I'm not going to hold my breath. Basically, everything's going to depend on what I find and where I find it. I'd like to move out toward the west coast, but again, it depends on what kinds of jobs I stumble on and what they're offering. For any moves more than a few hours away, I'm going to have to find a company that will pay for my moving expenses (hahaha)... which may prevent me from doing that, at least for the time being.

And assuming that I don't get a completely brain sucking job, hopefully I can start writing more- maybe even sending out short stories to see if I can get stuff published. So there's that.

I know all of this is very vague, but that's just kind of the way it is right now. I kind of don't know until I'm closer to the finish line, unfortunately. As big as I am on needing security, I didn't choose a field that would lend itself to that. Oops? Oh well. We can't all be hotshot accountants. ^_~

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] februaryfour  Also, I'm sorry about the title, I had to. Only I'm not that sorry. XD)

How is it being back in school after a break?

Terrifying? Exhausting? Infuriating? I could come up with more words, but I think you get the point. XD At least once a day I have the thought that I'm too old for this. Spending all day around 18 year olds is tough, man. It makes me feel ancient on a daily basis. Also, THE STUPIDITY. >_< I often have the thought that I could've saved myself the thousands of dollars in debt and just stayed in retail if I was going to still be dealing with this crap five days a week, and then I'd at least be getting paid for it.

However, on the less pessimistic side, I'm working towards a goal now, as opposed to just working aimlessly forever. I'll have an Associates degree in May, and if all goes as planned, a BA two and a half years from now. That's definitely a good thing- if nothing else, it's a piece of paper that says, "hi, I can read and write sufficiently well to finish college, PLEASE HIRE ME FOR MORE THAN MINIMUM WAGE." XD

Basically, I have a love/hate relationship with school. I love learning new things, and being made to think about things in new ways or from a different perspective is great. I love being challenged. At the same time, it stresses me out immensely, I hate the work, and often feel like I'm shoveling shit in a sitting position for a grade. Then again, that's not much different from when I was working. At least a grade is a reflection of my work and not just the minimum some asshole feels like he can get away with giving me. So there's that.

While I think that I shouldn't have waited so long to go to school- what people say is right, the longer the break is, the harder it is to go back- I think it was good that I didn't go to college right after high school, at least as far as certain things go. Retail helped with talking to people. I'm still not great at it and I still won't go up and start talking to people I don't know (hell, I won't call my sister unless I have something specific to discuss), but I can usually have a semi-normal conversation with someone should they talk to me. I'm still shy and introverted, but not cripplingly so like I was coming out of high school. (Seriously, even just going up to a cashier in the grocery store to purchase something freaked me out.) So basically, I'm more open now about meeting people and making friends and stuff and that's good. Besides that, in high school and even for a couple of years after that, I was so deep in the closet that I didn't even know what the hell was going on. I certainly would've been too afraid to join a public LGBTQ group, much less to consider actually minoring in LGBTQ studies. At this point in my life, I've had quite a while to come to terms with things and deal with that aspect of myself. It's okay now. I didn't have that then, not even close. And I don't think being in college would've helped things happen any faster, either- I probably would've just retreated inward into my turtle shell for four years. Obviously there's no way to know for sure, but knowing me, I feel like that's a pretty accurate guess. So... sometimes things work out.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

Writing Habits

Saturday, December 28th, 2013 11:14 pm
verloren1983: (Cute)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] februaryfour )

Writing habits, do you have them?
I have to admit, not-writing is more of a habit than writing, these days. XD Hmm, let's see. While I will still write on whatever's convenient at the time, these days it's almost exclusively on the computer. Which is both a good thing (no re-writing into notepad necessary, plus not losing the paper) and a bad thing? I find that switching it up usually has a good effect on ideas, so I should probably do that more. I'm trying to think of things here that won't trample on a later question about my writing process. XD I absolutely CAN NOT write porn if there's someone else in the room. Procrastination is a huge writing habit. Um... I like to have music on when I write. It inspires me, sets a mood... however, this also can be bad, because if a song comes on that brings on a completely different mood than before, it can inspire a new bunny/direction for the fic. That happened to me just recently, actually. BE CAREFUL WITH MUSIC. That being said, I do tend to have particular songs permanently connected in my mind with particular fics. Not all of them, mind, but some. It's usually the song or songs that helped inspire/shape the bunny to begin with, but not always. Some fics even have multiple songs- there's a fic in my bunny folder that has Happy by Saving Jane, Mr. Know It All by Kelly Clarkson, and Dirty Little Secret by All American Rejects- yes, it's a very happy fic, how could you tell? XD. There's another one that comes directly from It Gets Better by Tondrick Hall and can't POSSIBLY end well. Oops.

Speaking of oops, this whole thing basically ended up being about music. Heh. ^_^;;;

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (Chi)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] qem_chibati - thought I posted this yesterday, sorry!)

Are there any types of plants/flowers that you enjoy?
I do like plants and flowers in general, though I uh, kind of suck at keeping them alive? ^_^;;; I have actually managed to kill two succulents and a cactus in recent memory, so. XD (They weren't in the best shape when I bought them, but I think maybe they weren't getting enough sun where they were, but I'm not really sure. I might've accidentally cut too many of the roots when I was repotting them.) Anyway. I will forever have a fondness for purple lilacs, lily of the valley (inside family joke from when I was a kid XD), tulips, and lilies in general, which all grew by my house when I was growing up.  As far as being given flowers, nothing beats dark red roses- the darker, the better. (google image search "black magic rose" and you'll see the kind of thing I mean) Especially if they haven't completely bloomed, because for some reason, I feel like the shape they take when they've only opened a little bit is a lot prettier and more appealing. I'm a pain in the ass, I know. XD For non-flowering plants, I like those too, especially the leafy ones. I had a spider plant when I was a kid, and there was a set of super cute plants I used for a biology experiment in high school. I kept the one singular plant that survived the project (XD) until my cat killed it a few months later.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (Cookies)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] qem_chibati )

Are there any types of questions that you wish you'd get asked on these things?
You know, I've been thinking about this question since Qem posted it, and I still don't have a clue. I'm basically an open book online anyway, so it's not like I've been consciously hiding anything that I'd like to get out in the open. I've gotten some really good questions from people on the meme already. I guess... if we're not being specific, I like questions that make me think, especially if it forces me to think about something in a new way. Maybe even something that makes me a bit uncomfortable. That being said, what I definitely don't want? I really hate getting the third degree about school, particularly questions about my degree path, because it tends to be really patronizing and people tend to use the opportunity to tell you that you're an idiot. Not that I think you guys would do that, it just makes that line of questioning something I dread. My defenses go up as soon as someone goes, "so what's your major?" (As a side note, I've heard that things are starting to open up for English majors- because employers are realizing that they have all these employees that can't even write a fucking professional email, so they're beginning to appreciate the communication aspect of an English major. Don't know how true that is, but there you go.)

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

By the way, if I don't get to a real entry later, Merry Christmas to everyone that celebrates it! And Happy Holidays to everyone all around. ^_^

OTP Types

Monday, December 23rd, 2013 09:39 am
verloren1983: (AkiHika Snow Cuddle)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] mmmdraco )

Do you have a particular type of relationship you gravitate toward with your OTPs?
Absolutely. At the basic level, I need for there to be a connection and sexual tension/romance between two characters to ship them in the first place (I don't typically ship stuff just because it's pretty). Without that, it just doesn't make sense to me. With that in mind, I tend to fall especially hard for rival pairings and/or best friend pairings- between those two, most of my favorites are covered- but rivals are the big one. I can't explain it, there's just... so much sexual tension in it sometimes, you know? (For reference, see Hikaru/Akira.) I would prefer that they didn't completely hate each other, but that's not a hard and fast rule- that does have some merit in the possibility of hate sex, or actual character development where each realizes that the other isn't what they always thought and/or the "bad" one is redeemed or whatever (see: Harry/Draco). I think with rival pairings, my favorite thing is the dynamics between the two characters. Their interactions are interesting and fun and there's not that sense you get with some pairings that it's a little too easy. With rivals there's ALWAYS some kind of push and pull going on, some argument that's waiting to happen. There's always a source of conflict. And, again, there tends to be a lot of UST there, which just makes me want to resolve it. :3

Best friend pairings... I'm not sure I can explain that one terribly well either. It's a completely different dynamic. They know each other, they're comfortable with each other, and they trust each other, which isn't always something you get with the rival type pairings. Under this umbrella I would put things like Waya/Isumi, Oishi/Eiji, Axel/Roxas... it's like a warm, fuzzy blanket. Any angst is likely to come from outside of the relationship itself, with the exceptions of gay angst or "I don't want to lose my best friend" angst. Them being together is just kind of inevitable, but in a different kind of way than the rivals. It's interesting in a different way and fluffy and adorable. ^_^

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

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(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] mmmdraco )

What kinds of weather do you love?
Fall is my favorite season by far, so mainly it's that kind of weather. When it gets cooler so I'm not dying of heat stroke but it's not freezing yet, before the snow and ice starts. Sun is also an important factor. I have a little bit of seasonal affective disorder that runs in my family, which basically means that I tend to get depressed in the winter when there's not much sun. (It's one of the reasons that while a part of me would love to live someplace like Alaska- so pretty, and not hot- I would probably kill myself after six months of darkness. No way, dude.) So It makes me feel better when the sun is out, even if my eyes are really oversensitive to light so I always keep a hat and/or sunglass clippies with me. The first really nice day of spring always makes me really happy. :) Temperature-wise, 60 to low 70's is just about perfect. Light sweater to t-shirt weather. :D

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

verloren1983: (AkiHika Snow Cuddle)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] degrees )

I'm actually skipping to this one, mainly because it would be well into January before I got to it otherwise and that just feels wrong, so I'm doing it now before I forget. :P Also, this one's going to be link-heavy. Fair warning.

Favorite Christmas traditions!

The thing about this question is that there isn't a lot that's survived childhood. After my grandparents died when I was a teenager, everything basically fell apart and there's really nothing that's done consistently as a family anymore. Plus I worked Christmas every year for nearly ten years, unless I just happened to have the day off normally anyway... so basically what I'm left with are a bunch of personal things that I'm not sure I'd call "traditions," but we'll go with it for the sake of the question:

⛄ (the one thing that I -have- retained) HAM DINNER! :D I usually just buy a package of ham steaks, though last year I cooked a half of a boneless ham with pineapple and cloves. I probably won't do that again, it's WAY too much for just me. It was delicious, but I was eating ham till I was sick of it. XD But yeah, ham with pineapple slices, mashed potatoes, broccoli, rolls, and maybe pecan pie if I can find it. Done.

⛄ As far as gift exchange, things usually go like this: Kelly and I will go out for a nice dinner or something in lieu of gifts, not ON Christmas but sometime after, usually. Also sometime after Christmas, Stef and I give each other gift cards and proceed to go shopping, though these days the gift cards tend to be via Amazon (after this Christmas, I should have enough to almost pay for a basic Kindle without the special offers. :D)- so we go to Walmart or Barnes and Noble or wherever else we might need, and go to lunch and generally just spend time.

⛄ Christmas required reading: The 12 Steps of Christmas (note: Original, not fanfic- also NSFW!) and Toys in Boyland (note: Hikago fic, NSFW)

⛄ I pull out one of two trees, depending on how lazy I'm feeling. One is a two foot thing that's completely made of white wires and lights (think like this, except not as tall because it doesn't have all that "trunk", and not as pretty because I can't shape a tree for shit and it always looks lopsided XD), and I have decorations and a star for it and everything. If I don't have the energy to deal with that, I have a little plastic tree that plugs into my usb and changes colors that's basically this except it doesn't light up quite as high on the tree. It's cute. :D I would actually prefer a fiber optic one, but it was what was available at the time- and considering that it probably would've gotten crushed by now, it's just as well. XD

⛄ Christmas music! Now... thanks to working in retail for so long, I've heard most Christmas music enough for about five lifetimes, but there's some of it I can still stand. The versions of Silent Night by Enya and Boys II Men. Anything Chipmunk. At Christmas by Hanson is a longtime favorite (IT'S PRETTY, DON'T JUDGE ME), and I love Christmas Eve Sarajevo by Trans Siberian Orchestra (even though it makes me tear up if I think about it for too long) and We Three Kings by Kamelot. There are others, but those are the essentials for more "traditional" music. 

Many of my favorites, however, fall under the heading of parody, and the number one on this list is Ho Ho Fucking Ho by Kevin Bloody Wilson (obviously NSFW XD). Other favorites in this vein mostly come from Bob Rivers and include The 12 Pains of Christmas, The Chimney Song, The Twisted Chipmunk Song (not really SFW either- and yeah, I know, the video is dumb, but it's the only one I found that didn't have sound issues), and the best follow-up to that song ever: Chipmunks Roasting On An Open Fire. :P

⛄ Christmas movies! I don't really have a "set" tradition here, but typically I'll watch at least one Christmas movie during the season. It's usually something like Charlie Brown, Frosty, The Santa Clause, Muppet's Christmas Carol, The Little Drummer Boy, Rudolph, that sort of thing. Between stuff I've bought and stuff I've downloaded, I actually have a TON of Christmas themed movies. One of my favorites too that I actually found again semi-recently is a little short Disney did in the 50's called "Pluto's Christmas Tree."

And that's about all I can think of, though I think this entry is already quite long enough anyway. :P

Best food ever

Friday, December 20th, 2013 08:46 am
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(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] mmmdraco )

What's the best food you've ever eaten and what made it so good?
Hmmmm. When I think about this question, I think about this place in Pacific Mall in Toronto. Pacific Mall, if you've never been, is the biggest Asian mall in North America, at least last I knew. It's freaking huge. Good place to find cheap bootlegged anime. ;) So anyway, they have a food court of sorts, but they have one general menu for everything and I didn't know what most of it was. The ONE thing that I actually recognized and would actually eat was the General Tso's chicken. It's still to this day the best General Tso's I've ever had in my life. I can't really tell you exactly what made it so good- I'm not adept enough in the kitchen to be able to tell what they did to it or anything, plus it's been a really long time and the details are lost to me now- but it was a little sweet and A LOT spicy. Like after a few bites, my mouth was on fire. XD Which is usually a deterrent for me, but this time it wasn't. What I also remember about that meal was that they gave us chopsticks to eat our meal with and nothing else. I'm a little better now, but then I couldn't eat with chopsticks to save my life, so for a while I was kind of spearing everything with one of the chopsticks, one piece at a time. (I didn't know then that this was a bad thing to do, and that I should've just made myself look like an ignorant American and asked for a fork right from the getgo. XD) Finally one of the girls I was with took pity on me and got me a fork. XDDD Well, she's also Korean I believe, so it's also possible that she'd had about enough of my terrible ignorant white person manners. XD

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)

Favorite of 2013

Wednesday, December 18th, 2013 11:29 pm
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] jet )

What's your favorite thing you've read/watched/etc in 2013?
Oh maaaaaaaaan, this is a hard one, partially because I have a terrible memory. XD I'm trying to think. Leisure reading has been kind of... er... non-existent this year, so I'm going to throw the "read" right out the window. As far as things watched... the first thing that comes to mind is The Secret of Kells. I absolutely LOVED that. Beyond that... (I'll admit that I'm looking at my Netflix right now because I'm a cheater XD) I really liked United States of Tara.

I'll take "etc" as games, and there's really only one answer to this: The Walking Dead. Hands down, absolutely no contest. I do love that the put out a new Phoenix Wright this year, but... yeah, TWD still wins. XD

Favorite Genre

Saturday, December 14th, 2013 10:26 am
verloren1983: (Smile)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] jet )

Favorite genre in any medium?

Pffft, you say that like I can pick one. XD You will get two, so THERE. :P Anyway, one of the many things I grew up reading was the Nancy Drew Files (not so much the originals, this was a spin-off series they published in the 80's and 90's), and that pretty much set me up for my eternal love of the mystery/suspense genre. I'm not a fan of horror or gore, so once it crosses over into that I'm not into it, but give me a fun mystery novel/movie/whatever and I will consume it happily. (And no, I actually have never gotten around to reading Sherlock Holmes, which is a cardinal sin I know, but... it's just one of those things. XD) The only thing, though, is that I find that I don't enjoy it as much if the main character's life isn't at risk at SOME point in the story, usually the climax. Again, I blame Nancy Drew for this. The ending just sort of falls flat to me otherwise. It's kind of like, oh, well, that was easy. :/ I also haaaaate when the culprit is too obvious. Surprise me, I can take it! As long as it makes sense, I love love love surprises in mysteries. :D

My other favorite genre is fantasy, which is something that I actually picked up in my early teens even though I've always had a fascination with dragons and magic. Sleeping Beauty was always my favorite Disney movie as a kid just because Maleficent turns into an awesome dragon. :P Anyway. I was in the bookstore looking for a book on my summer reading list called Dealing With Dragons by Patricia Wrede. (Since I lived in a small town with one tiny library, it was often difficult to get summer reading books from there. It was usually easier to just buy them.) I didn't find it and these were the days before online ordering or anything like that, so instead, we decided that I would try the library again and in the meantime, I could pick out a different book to take home. I decided to get something in the same genre, and without actually knowing anything about fantasy, I somehow managed to pick a classic- Dragons of Autumn Twilight by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman. I quickly insisted on getting the rest of the books to continue the story and have been a huge fan of the Dragonlance series ever since. (Oh, and by the way, I did eventually get my hands on Dealing With Dragons, though I accidentally read the last book first and I was so confused for a while. Oops. It's fabulous and if you haven't read it, you really, really should.)

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(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] jet )

What is the best pairing of all time?
Oh man, this could be such a complicated question, but I'm going to answer it in two primary ways. First, I assume that when you say this, you mean "OTP of all OTP's"- I don't think it'll surprise anyone when I say that there's no contest on this one- Hikaru/Akira, hands down. Period. I seriously didn't even have to think about it. If some awful, evil person said I could only read or write one pairing ever ever again, I would choose them. Of course I would miss the others terribly, but that's why these questions are hard. The bottom line for me is that they are my favorite and they're the ones that I always go back to, over and over again.

The other way I can read this question has to deal with firsts, which brings us to Harry/Draco. Harry Potter was my first fandom, and they were my first OTP. It was them that led me (eventually) to anime- more specifically, Hikago- and it was a downhill slope from there. So you could possibly argue that Harry/Draco should be at the top of this list, since it's what started everything, if you really wanted to. 
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
I owe you guys at least one update post, but realistically, that's probably not going to happen for a while. So. I keep seeing this December posting meme going around, and even though I'm really kind of super late, I figure why not. Might get me to post more than once every two or three months. XD I'm stealing [personal profile] chagrined 's version in which you don't tell me specific days, I'll just do questions as I get to them, and it may or may not run off into January, depending on how much response I get. And I'm lazy, so I'm just going to (mostly) copypasta right from Krim's post:

So if there's anything you'd like to see me ramble on about, could be about anime, manga, other media, fandoms, fanworks, school, life, non-fannish stuff, whatever! It can be specific or general. It can be something I already talk about a fair amount or something you wish I'd talk about more. It can even be something you've never seen me express an opinion on but you're curious about my thoughts!

If you have something you'd like to see me talk about, just comment here and I will post about it at some point. There's no time limit to leaving comments, so if you see this post a few days or even a few weeks late, you can still ask! I'm not even going to put a limit of December on this. If you see this post in June and want to put up a question, that's totally cool.

I'm also not going to put a limit on number of questions, so if you want to know about A, B, and C, that's fine, post 'em! I do reserve the right to plead the fifth if it's TOO crazy/embarrassing/would implicate me in a crime, but I probably won't do that. XD

Questions already asked:
(note: I started out crossing these off as I addressed them, but since there's so many, I decided to start putting up the DW links to responses, in the interest of people actually finding the answers to their questions. XD Just so you guys know.)

What is the best pairing of all time?
Favorite genre in any medium?
What's your favorite thing you've read/watched/etc in 2013?
What's the best food you've ever eaten and what made it so good?
What kinds of weather do you love?
Do you have a particular type of relationship you gravitate toward with your OTPs?
Are there any types of questions that you wish you'd get asked on these things? ^__^ (because Qem is a dirty cheater. :P)
Are there any type of plants/flowers that you enjoy?
Writing habits, do you have them?
How is it being back in school after a break?
Future plans post-graduation?
'What the fuck' is one of your most used tags. xD Talk about things that make you say 'WHAT THE FUCK'. :D
Guiltiest pleasure, be it music, a game, a habit, whatev.
Things you've always planned to get to/watch/do/etc but haven't and probably never will.
What's your dream job and/or best job you'd like that's realistic considering the degree you're going for?
People you couldn't or wouldn't want to live without and why!
Talk about your writing process!
Favorite Christmas traditions!
Any YouTube recs?
Talk about the direction you see fandom going in (livejournal to tumblr, etc) and if it's a good or bad thing!
☁ Top five favorite fics! Standard edition, hard mode: above 50k, and vanity rec mode! (that's 15 recs in all XD)
☁ Places you would like to travel to someday

verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
Internet is back- turns out that there were technical issues on the ISP's end- so I really have no excuse, I just haven't done the meme. I can't really say I'm surprised, though. Whoops. XD Anyway, here's the rest! (Luckily they're all pretty short)

28. What are you looking forward to?
Right now, today? Cooler/less humid weather. XD

29. Where have you traveled?
Uh, not very many places. I grew up in upstate New York, and live in the same general area now. I've been to further north in New York, Massachusetts, Indiana (not that I remember much of it, I was a kid), lived in a couple of different places in Wisconsin for a year, and Toronto area. That's it. XD

30. What's in your makeup bag?
...what makeup bag? I do have makeup that I never wear, it's in a bin on my desk. It includes foundation in various forms, lipgloss/lipstick, eyeshadow, mascara, and there might even be a blush in there I think. I dunno, every once in a while I'll try something, thinking it might be the one thing I don't hate, and it never is. Especially with foundation. Yeesh, that stuff sucks.

31. Why do you blog?
For my own sanity, mostly. In part it's to communicate with my friends, but really, I'd be doing this even if no one read what I put in this thing, and I can honestly say it wouldn't really change that much. I've written in a journal in some form or other since I was about 10, so. It's a cathartic thing for me, really, not to mention a record of things that happen that I can sort through when I need them, which is handy.

And we're DONE! Oh man, this is the first time I've finished one of these memes. I failed at doing it every day, but I've finished it nonetheless. Yay~!

verloren1983: (Chi)
27. Post your favorite recipe
Oh man. I love food, so this is hard. Which favorite? I ended up picking four, which you will see below the cut.

Cut for recipes! :D )

verloren1983: (Chi)
25. Your 5 favorite blogs
I'm doing non-personal blogs because... yeah, not getting into that mess. Also all of these are on tumblr. Heh. ^_^;
- Unfuck Your Habitat
- Everyone is Gay
- Boggle
- Chibird
- I Love Reading and Writing

(And yes, I'm going to bed soonish, I just wanted to make sure I got this up. School in the morning, eeeeeeeeeep.)

31 Days Meme, Day 24

Saturday, August 24th, 2013 07:36 pm
verloren1983: (Smile)
24. Your favorite childhood book
One? Are you serious? XD These days I unfortunately don't read enough, but when I was a kid, I constantly had a book in hand. My mom would yell at me to go outside (I still don't get why- I was always sensitive to light, she was never big on fitness, and yeah you could argue that she wanted alone time, but I was sitting there quietly with a book and not bothering anybody. She could've more or less pretended I was an extension of the furniture for a little while. XD ANYWAY.) So she'd yell at me to go outside and play. I'd bring my book. XD Eventually she caught onto that and started making me leave the book inside. XD I'm reminded of a thing I saw with Neil Gaiman where he was talking about how all this attention goes to promoting literacy for kids, which is all fine and good, but nobody talks about the kids from whom you have to pry the book so that they can, you know, talk to people and sleep and stuff. XD (I'm paraphrasing, but you guys get the point.)

Anyway, on to the question. I loved Roald Dahl as a kid- that was way before I knew that he was an asshole. LOVED Choose Your Own Adventure books. I'm pretty sure I read every single one my library had at least once. There was also Nancy Drew and Babysitter's Club, you know, typical kid stuff. It was always a bit of a struggle between what I wanted and was able to read and what adults seemed to think I should have been reading, because there was often a big difference between the two. So most of what I read as a kid was fun, but not challenging at all, you know?

31 Days Meme, Day 22

Thursday, August 22nd, 2013 03:37 pm
verloren1983: (Cookies)
22. The best thing to happen this year
First place for a story I wrote at the last freaking minute. I still don't actually believe that one.

More random... )

31 Days Meme, Day 21

Wednesday, August 21st, 2013 11:43 pm
verloren1983: (Default)
21. Your 10 favorite foods
This was actually really hard because... well, I'm fat because I like food, okay? I like food A LOT. XD
- Bread/rice/pasta (CARBS)
- Cheese (except blue, cream, cottage, and swiss, ew)
- Broccoli
- Chicken
- Basil, I put it on freaking everything
- Popcorn (especially the white cheddar kind, or with lots of melted butter and salt :3 )
- White potatoes- particularly in mashed or french fry form
- Strawberries
- Almonds/Pecans
- Sometimes you just need chocolate XD

31 Days Meme, Day 20

Wednesday, August 21st, 2013 11:55 am
verloren1983: (Default)
20. A difficult time in your life
(I skipped yesterday because my internet was being weird and then I fell asleep earlier than planned, see note later. Whoops. XD) Um, most of it, to be totally honest? XD But probably my most difficult was when I was15. My dad was gone, my grandparents died that year, my mom was constantly talking about moving somewhere new (I know it was Oklahoma at one point, and I think Florida was talked about, and there may have been others before it went to Wisconsin and stayed there), I was dealing with questions of sexuality, my grades had been going down the drain for a while, I was seriously depressed... yeah. That was a really rough year.

- They've started building a Starbucks in the plaza near my house. I haven't decided whether this is a bad thing or a downright terrible thing. XD

- I was done messing with the sleep thing- I've been TRYING, and it's just not working- so I picked up some melatonin. I read a thing that said to take it about 3 hours before you want to go to bed. Um. A word of advice, don't do that. <_< It was about a half hour later that I got kicked in the face with sleepy. Slept about 4 1/2 hours, was up for a while, felt sick so I lied down again, woke up a bit before 10:30. Whoops. Well, still not as bad as the 1pm bullshit that's been happening, so. I was hoping to not have to take it again, but CLEARLY I do. XD Maybe for the rest of the week, and hopefully that will straighten me out for Monday. I know it's non-addictive, but it's still a hormone and I'd rather not mess with my hormones any more than absolutely necessary, you know?

- Speaking of being sick... I've ALWAYS had a sensitive stomach, but I'm really starting to think I have IBS, because of reasons I'm not getting too into. Let's just say that for the last month or so I've been feeling bloated all the time and most times getting sick after I eat anything, and there's no rhyme or reason to it, so it's not like I know a particular type of food to avoid. (Okay, seriously, as an example- Kelly and I got an early dinner last night. Stomach was FINE, and I brought the leftovers (chicken) home. I had some of the leftovers for breakfast this morning- stomach raised perfect holy hell. Same EXACT thing, two different reactions. I never know what's going to happen when I eat.) Unfortunately, with no insurance and no money to go to the doctor (especially since an IBS diagnosis is an elimination game, so a lot of tests and shit), well.... I don't know. Maybe I'll try probiotics. I've read that can help. Although those are kind of expensive too. :/

Alright. I'll do today's rightful meme later. For now I need to try to pull my shit together and go get my books for school, because FUCK it's Wednesday already, bleh. Maaaaaybe get a haircut because it's driving me nuts, I don't know yet.

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19. What do you collect?
Uh, DVD's, books, games, stuff like that. Nothing terribly interesting there.

- May or may not be considering signing up for a gym near my house. It's right there, and there's no contract, it's a month to month thing, and it's $10 a month. I don't know if I'll actually go, though? But I need to do SOMETHING, and it's seriously right there, and the hours are very accommodating. Hmm. :/

- Couldn't sleep last night until way late (believe me, I tried)... but I woke up at 10, which is a vast improvement from what it's been lately. Tomorrow's goal is 8! :D

- Watched "Mirror, Mirror" today. I'd heard it was awful, but I thought it was fun. Some interesting twists, and they made it clear that you weren't supposed to take it seriously. My biggest complaint would actually be Julia Roberts, who half the time tried to affect a terrible British accent and half the time slipped, which brought it right out of character for me. Bleh. If she couldn't pull off a decent accent at least most of the time, she should've just stuck with the regular one, jeez. But anyway. It was pretty decent anyway.

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18. The meaning behind your blog name
I have this as a line in the sticky note on both journals, but whatever. So. This was around... senior year of high school or maybe the year after that? So I was 18 or 19, and trying to figure out a new username that my family didn't know. I know this is going to shock you all, but when I was a teenager I was an angst bunny. XD And being the angst bunny that I was, I took one of my most prominent feelings at the time- that I was lost- and put it into a translator to see what came up. I decided that the Dutch "verloren" sounded the coolest, so that was my new username (I discovered later that it also means the same in German). I've often had to add some version of my birth year to it because usually just verloren is taken.

Honestly? I've thought about changing it. I really have. But for one thing, it's too much work to change my username or get a new account EVERYWHERE, and also... this is the name everyone knows. I half suspect that even if I changed it, everyone would still call me "Ver" anyway. So then the point is what, exactly? XD

☁ Watched ParaNorman today. I wasn't really expecting to like it, but it was cute. ^_^

☁ The 1am thing yesterday didn't happen- I'm hoping for today- but it was in the interest of a good cause, hopefully. I uh, kind of realized yesterday that I have NO online presence as a writer, at least nothing that's semi-professional (and by semi-professional, I mean not fanfic or a personal journal like this, at least. My standards are not terribly high for "semi-professional." XD). So. I figured that I should probably work on that. It can't HURT, at any rate. I apparently made a Wordpress account at some point, so I used that to make a new blog and put up a post on it. Here we go. Mainly it's going to be video game reviews, I think, and gaming topics in general, because that's a pretty reliable source of material. And because my dream job basically involves me wearing jeans and a t-shirt to work and getting paid to play games and write about them. XD Not that there aren't a million gaming blogs already, BUT this will be a kind of online sample that I can use. Probably. If I don't stop poking at the writing, anyway. I'm hoping for a once a week schedule, but we'll see. I think by now we all know how things with me and planning go. XD

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15. Timeline of your day
I actually waited to do this on purpose so I could do a full list. :P It's pretty boring since I don't have classes yet, but whatever. I can't be bothered to do an exact timeline, so here's a general list of what I did yesterday:
-Played on Steam for ENTIRELY too long. Like, seriously, it's kind of sick.
-Went out for dinner with my mother because she insisted, which took AGES because she got crabs legs and yeah. That was a good 3 hours out of my day.
-Tried to watch the new Silver Spoon ep- it kept crashing the video player, so I gave up. (Krim did give me a link to version 2, before anybody says anything, I just haven't watched it yet.)
-Organized things for a bit. All of the cassette tapes I've found so far are in a box, kitchen stuff is going in the basket next to my bed (read- pots/pans/dishes I've bought plus dry foods- basically so I'll have easier access to it), and all the scrapbooking stuff I've found so far is in the bin underneath the kitchen bin. I don't actually know what I'm going to do with the REST of the stuff that I pulled out of the bin/basket that doesn't belong, so the room is still definitely worse than it had been because of that, buuuuuuuut it's part of cleaning and that'll be taken care of as this goes along, I guess. Either way, I have a dedicated spot for dry groceries when I get them instead of just throwing the bags on the floor, so THAT'S really nice.
-Got talked into watching the first ep of Orange is the New Black because reasons. Also activated a month free trial of Netflix to do this. I'm not entirely sure that Netflix is actually worth it for me, since I don't watch a lot of movies or whatever, but I do also see a lot of stuff on even just the main page that I've been meaning to watch, so who knows.

16. What's at the top of your bucket list?

This assumes I have a bucket list. XD Um, get my BA, I guess.

verloren1983: (*Blush*)
(You get a two for one here, because I missed yesterday since I was all zombie-fied. A little better today. XD)

13. What is your earliest memory?
I feel like I've probably talked about this before, but whatever. I told my mom this once: I was in the hospital. I was little, and in a bed that seemed HUGE to me. There was a window on my right that had light coming in, some kind of cabinet on the left next to the bed, and there was a chair in the corner where someone was sitting. I think it was one of my parents, but I couldn't tell you which one. There was a nurse on the side of the cabinet, but I wasn't paying any attention to her because I had an Etch A Sketch that I was trying to make work and the lines weren't going where I wanted them to. The biggest impression I have about the room, which is probably why I remember it, was that it was very white. Like blinding almost, between the white of the actual room and the brightness from the window. So yeah. I explained this to my mom once, when I was a teenager, and she just gaped at me for a minute before telling me that I was about one and a half, and I'd been in the hospital with strep-pneumonia. Obviously my memory was when I was feeling better, but I'd been very very sick and almost died. ^_^;;; I'm also told that the strep-pneumonia is the reason why even now, I have a permanent bronchial cough. So basically, even if I just have a minor cold, when I cough I sound (and feel) like I have a bad case of bronchitis. Fun stuff.

14. If you won the lottery...

-Immediate- pay off school loans, rent a nice apartment
-Long-term- Finish school, maybe travel a bit, move somewhere I don't hate, rent/buy and furnish a nice 3 bedroom place there (one for sleeping, one as a library/office, one as a guest/craft room), POSSIBLY driving lessons/license/car, but I'm not sold on that. Save the rest, maybe invest a little, but I don't really know anything about investing so it's probably better if I don't. XD

I know, I'm not very interesting on this score, but unless the money I got was a pretty low amount, we're probably talking about more money than I would even know what to do with. Beyond smaller stuff (buying gadgets/books/anime/whatever and donating to causes/organizations that are important to me, like Planned Parenthood and HRC), I can't even think of anything else I would do with the money if I had it, once basic needs and debts were taken care of. And I assume that after I was done with school I would still work- though having the money there would ensure that I wouldn't be stuck at a job I loathed, which would be nice.
verloren1983: (Kitty Ahhhh!)
12. What's inside your fridge?
I honestly have no clue for the most part, since 99% of it isn't mine. I know I have some lunch meat, cheese, and a carton of almond milk. Beyond that? A bunch of crap, as far as I'm concerned. XD

☁ So in the end, the guy didn't text me back until after 10pm, telling me that the landlord would be free from 5-7 today if I wanted to come. I'm just like. ajdsklajdsla. You couldn't have told me that, oh I don't know, yesterday morning/afternoon when I was waiting for a text? So yes, I'm going, but I'm getting really irritated with this guy and it's probably a good thing that it's not him I'm moving in with. My stress levels are already through the fucking roof and this stuff is NOT helping.

☁ Also not helping: I had very little sleep Saturday night because I was too nervous, and last night wasn't really any better because there's not really any space on my bed right now (I'm working on clearing out a bin next to my bed that hasn't been touched in years, so all the stuff I'm keeping is on my bed for the moment, with a teeny space for me and my laptop. Yeah. XD So I'm very, VERY tired, and my stomach seems angry with me for some reason, I don't even know, but I hope it stops before I leave because that will suck.

☁ Also not helping part 2: Turns out that Kelly's pissed at me for moving out, because as much as I'm trying to do this in a semi-organized fashion, I'm still apparently "leaving her with everything." She was planning on moving up with her boyfriend at around the same time I moved out, so I'm not sure what happened to that, but I guess it's not happening.

☁ Also not helping part 3: Found a big pocket of water in the wall between the kitchen and living room, so Kelly and I ran around the kitchen/living room in a panicked frenzy for an hour trying to make it look semi-habitable before she called maintenance. Luckily, he came over basically right away and everything should be fine now. Still, I don't need that kind of bullshit on top of what''s already going on.

☁ On the upside, I finally wrangled out the best days to move out of Stef- the 24th/25th. Which is the weekend before classes start, which is what I was thinking ANYWAY, so that worked out. And now I have a date to tell the landlord when he asks. ^_^

I have to get ready to leave in about a half hour, and I wanted to try and work on clearing out this tote (holy crap, there's SO much in here, it's completely ridiculous), plus I need some kind of food before I leave, so I'll go. I know I've been annoying with all of this lately, but with any luck at all, it'll be over in the next few weeks. (And then I'll be whining about school stuff, heh. So I won't swear up and down that it's almost over, but I'm really hoping it is and you guys won't have to deal with this anymore.

verloren1983: (Cute)
11. List 15 of your favorite things
- Internet
- Friends
- Reading
- Anime
- Manga
- Video games
- Writing
- Scrapbooking
- Taking pictures
- Movies
- Season: fall
- Cats >^_^<
- Things that are funny. See: George Carlin
- Food
- (15 things really are a lot of things) Computer
Cut for anxious rambling. XD )

31 Day Meme, Day 10

Saturday, August 10th, 2013 08:33 pm
verloren1983: (AkiHika Snow Cuddle)
10. What's your best physical feature?
*snort* Um... eyes? Certain people would probably say my boobs, so it depends on who you ask. XD I dunno. I hate questions like this. MOVING ON.

I don't really have much to say today, except that I randomly decided that I was going to try and work on my left-handed writing. So I picked three word lists, with 10 words each, and wrote them out in both print and cursive with both hands alternately. My left hand really hurts. XD But it's a start! (For the curious, I took a picture with my phone which is here. I won't bother telling you which lines are which because it's pretty obvious. XD In all fairness, my left-handed writing never progressed past first or second grade, so that's about what it looks like. Okay, fine, a first or second grader with messy handwriting. XDDD) I'm hoping it progresses relatively quickly, or that at least it won't take long before I get tired so quickly, because this is kind of obnoxious. But I think it'll be worth it. :D

31 Day Meme, Day 9

Friday, August 9th, 2013 11:28 pm
verloren1983: (Cute)
9. What are your worst habits?
Not putting things away, ungh. Causes so many other problems down the road. Linked to this is procrastination, which I am a master of, unfortunately. Sigh. Also linked to this is my inability to finish stuff. I get all bored/ADD and I wander off before finishing anything. I'm actually REALLY surprised at myself that I'm still doing this meme. Normally I would've quit WAY before now. XD


☁ Still no word on places. Ungh. I hate people.
☁ Since I've been letting my bed dry and I've been sitting in a corner by my bookcase all day, I figured it was as good a time as any to finally scan all the stuff on that. Recorded book collection is at 298 at the moment, not including what I've purchased for school in the last year and still have, a shelf in the closet I've been using for books, and whatever else I find buried in my room somewhere and haven't found yet. Yeah. It's getting a little scary.
☁ I've also gotten some cleaning done today, which is good, especially considering how much I've been slacking lately. It doesn't feel like I've done much, but the section I've been working on looks significantly better, so there's that? I think I'm thankfully at a point now where working on the room actually produces a VISIBLE result, which makes me feel good. :)

Aaaaand that's all I've got for right now. Until tomorrow~

31 Days Meme, Day 8

Thursday, August 8th, 2013 09:27 pm
verloren1983: (Sigh)
8. What's in your handbag?
Right this split second? Wallet, random receipts, about 5 tubes of chapstick because I keep losing them, sunglass clippies, a pen and notepad, some bus schedules, body spray (sea island cotton), an index card with directions on it, tic tacs (strawberry), a few small OTC medicine bottles (the essentials- pamprin, excedrin, and pepto XD), and god knows what else. My bag isn't even that big and it's like a freaking black hole. It has no pockets, so it's impossible to find anything in a timely manner. I've actually been looking for another one that's cheap (read: preferably less than $10, DEFINITELY less than $15) with no luck. Meh. Once school starts I won't be carrying it that much anyway, so I'm not that worried about it. XD

In other news:
☁ School bill is paid, so that's one thing off my chest. I can go get my books after financial aid kicks in on the 17th. Couldn't really test how getting across campus in 10 minutes is going to go because they're apparently doing work in a bunch of different places so a lot is cut off. Ungh. Hopefully they'll be done when I go get my books.
☁ I texted the guy about the apartment, but haven't heard anything back, so I'm assuming it's a bust. Which sucks because that not only means I have to keep looking, but I also kind of loved that kitten, so. Bleeeeeeh. I sent an e-mail today- yay, somebody that didn't specifically ask for a phone call- and I'm still looking at recent posts, so we'll see. Have I mentioned that I hate this? I hate this. -_-
☁ Also a full cup randomly fell for no apparent reason and now my bed is all wet. ;~;
☁ I'm working on episode 26 of Naruto at this point. It's... okay, I -almost- ragequit at one point, because seriously nothing was happening and they were on the same fucking stupid mission FOREVER, but it seems a bit better now? I'm told that it's the worst arc in the series, so we'll see what happens. XD

31 Days Meme, Day 7

Wednesday, August 7th, 2013 11:07 pm
verloren1983: (Kitty Ahhhh!)
7. Your pet hates
My pet hates... people, having to get off her furry butt to do anything, and waiting for food. :P

Okay, seriously... uh, too many to think of at the moment. A lot of them lie in rudeness. People listening to their music super loudly on the bus, talking on the phone at the register, butting in line, that sort of thing. Also stupidity is a big one. Just. RAWR. That's really all I can think of at the moment.

31 Day Meme, Day 5

Tuesday, August 6th, 2013 04:41 pm
verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
(I missed this yesterday, so you'll be getting two today. Whoops. ^_^;;; )

5. 10 songs you love right now
Oh man, I haven't even been listening to a lot of music lately because of other things going on. Uh. How about instead of RIGHT NOW, 10 favorite songs overall? It's worth noting that what I'm putting here is not representative of everything I listen to- obviously with only 10, I'm leaving out SO MUCH good stuff. Also, I put in youtube links to songs- I tried to get official videos where available, but in some cases I had to post a lyric video. In no particular order beyond alphabetical:
1. From Yesterday- 30 Seconds to Mars (this is the whole video, mainly because I like it. XD)
2. Jaded- Aerosmith
3. Prelude to La Fille Aux Cheveaux de Lin- Debussy (not really 100% thrilled with the versions I was finding on youtube- it's slower in parts than I'm used to, with longer stops- but you get the point.)
4. Missing- Evanescence
5. Father of Mine- Everclear
6. Everything- Lifehouse (yes, okay, I know, I'm atheist and this has religious tones, but I choose not to see the song that way, okay? XD In the HIGHLY unlikely event that I ever got married- *pause for hysterical laughter here*- I would want this song played at some point. I guess I'm secretly a romantic or something.)
7. Second Chance- Shinedown
8. Nice and Slow- Usher
9. Final Distance- Utada Hikaru
10. Everything You Want- Vertical Horizon (this is still one of my favorite albums in the history of EVER)

31 Day Meme, Day 4

Sunday, August 4th, 2013 07:07 pm
verloren1983: (Aww Crap)
4. What are you afraid of?
My absolute, number one fear? Failure. Which encompasses a lot of things and has been known to paralyze me before. Heights is another big one. I'm short because I'm supposed to stay low to the ground, dammit! XD The loss of any kind of security scares the hell out of me. I need stability, at least in a few key areas of my life. I have a dental phobia that is just... not good. And of course, as I've mentioned, anxiety in general that makes me a wreck anytime I have to make a phone call or do something new or whatever. XD It HAS gotten better. I still hate phones, though. I even hate texting people unless I have something specific to say. Even if I have your number, rest assured that I will NEVER call/text you just to be like, hey, what's up?

31 Days Meme, Day 3

Saturday, August 3rd, 2013 07:58 pm
verloren1983: (Chi)
3. Your favorite quote
Oh man, I have a lot of these. I used to collect favorite quotations, okay? So I will post several. :D

"Be who you are and say what you feel... because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." ~Dr. Seuss

"Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former." ~Albert Einstein

"If a man loses pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away." ~Henry David Thoreau

"There are three rules for writing a novel. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are." ~ Unknown

"Nothing ever happens by chance. Everything happens for a reason. Your brain may not know the reason. Your brain may never figure it out. But your heart knows. Your heart always knows." ~Margaret Weis

"Madness does not always howl. Sometimes, it is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'Hey, is there room in your head for one more?'" ~Despair.com

"You are still lost in the forest. But lonely, lost girls like us can rescue themselves. You are standing on the edge of greatness." ~The 10th Kingdom

verloren1983: (Default)
2. 20 facts about you
(Apologies in advance for people who have probably heard most of these about 20 billion times. XD Sorry, it's hard to come up with 20 things.)
This got long. XD )

Aaaaand now I need to stop procrastinating on a phone call I need to make. Eeeeeeep. /o\

verloren1983: (*Blush*)
First things first- yes, I'm still alive, in case anyone was wondering. I kept meaning to post and I just... didn't. And then I was sick for about a week (still fighting the tail end of it, but at least I can breathe now) and basically lost that entire week. So! Another long collection of random updates and things that have amused me lately, in no particular order. Ready?

☁ (Leaving this one uncut for importance) Figured I'd pass this on just in case- I got a phishing scam in my email the other day, pretending to be paypal. Something about my account being limited and they needed me to open an attachment and send it back to them with the info they needed. Pffft. Yeah, right. I checked paypal just in case I was being overly cynical and of course everything was fine with my account, so the email got reported. Thought I'd put it out there that this is making the rounds. I think everyone on my flist is intelligent enough to not fall for it, buuuuuuuut it did look fairly official and everyone has off days, sooo better safe than sorry. ^_^;

Epic length and also a video embed. You've been warned. :P )

Soooooo hopefully it won't be another month plus before another entry. Independence Day falls on a Wednesday this year, so I actually have it off- probably going to spend it with Stef's family. Should be interesting.

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Friday, February 10th, 2012 02:17 am
verloren1983: (Smile)
Real entry coming eventually, but in the meantime, I have seven topics from [personal profile] troisroyaumes  to talk about, so here we go!

Seven Topics Meme! )

Comment if you want topics and I'll try to come up with things that aren't totally stupid. :D

verloren1983: (Default)
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
As far as religion itself: I think at the core, it's innocent enough- it's just people wanting to believe that there's something greater than themselves, trying to explain what's out there. I don't think that's a bad thing. The problem is that religion, particularly Christianity, has become so corrupt over the centuries. Religion isn't about spirituality, it's about money and power. I'm reminded of a Ghandi quote here that goes, "I like your Christ. I do not like your Christians. They are so unlike your Christ." I have to say that individually, it's a case- by- case thing, but overall as a group I agree wholeheartedly.

My beliefs: Well, we've gone through this recently, haven't we? I'm an Atheist and have been since I was 11. I don't believe in any sort of god or higher being, though I'm not claiming that I know everything or anything ridiculous like that. I honestly don't think there's any way for us to know for sure. (On a side note, if there IS a "higher power", it's probably aliens and we probably exist as an amusing toy.) I don't have any problems with other religions as long as it's not being shoved on me. Religion fascinates me, honestly. I've had open and intelligent conversations with people about religion (though if I'm completely honest, all of those were either with other Atheists, Agnostics, or Pagans. XD)- I'm not closed to the topic at all.

I do, however, get angry quickly when someone starts preaching to me or tries to convert me. When I went to Pride this summer, there was a group of bible thumpers on the corner protesting. I'm sure I don't need to tell you the kinds of signs they had- I couldn't tell you what they were saying, because I went out of my way to not go near them. Mary and I spent a good long time ranting about it between the two of us afterward. It all comes back to what I said about the drugs and alcohol: do whatever you want, but be safe and don't hurt anybody else. It's the last part of that which applies here. DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE. Just because you can try to shove your beliefs down our throats, that doesn't mean it's the right thing to do.

And again I've gone off on a rant. ^_^;;;

The Whole Meme~ )

30 Days Meme Day 3

Saturday, September 3rd, 2011 11:50 pm
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
Day 03- Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Overall, I feel like there isn't a problem with them as long as they're used responsibly and by people who are old enough to fully understand the consequences of what they're doing, and as long as their behavior isn't hurting anyone else. Addictions are bad, but occasional recreational use is okay. Pot really isn't any worse than tobacco and I don't understand why it's not legal within reason, ESPECIALLY for medicinal purposes. I mean hell, if someone is terminally ill and smoking a joint is the only thing that makes it hurt a little less, let them have it, jeez. It's cruel to deny pain management to someone who's dying. It's really beyond me why some people don't get that. Besides- make pot legal for the 18+ or maybe 21+ crowd, regulate it, tax the shit out of it like they do with alcohol and tobacco- and look at that, college kids aren't dying because of something nasty that was put into the pot that they didn't know about, and the tax revenue would pay off SO MUCH of our debt. Seriously. I'm not the only one who thinks that, check this out. Better in some states than others, but even if you take the lowest, which is 1.2 million... that's still 1.2 MILLION DOLLARS. Also that chart is from 2005. I'm sure it's higher now. Just saying.

I kind of got off on a tangent there, but yeah. Be safe and don't hurt others. That really applies to life in general and not just drugs/alcohol, but it's a summary that works for those, too.

The whole meme~ )


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