Fighting and Randomness

I've re-fallen in love with the song "Again" by Lenny Kravitz... it's a few years old, but it's still a great song. Unlike a few that I could mention that suck after a while (the one I'm listening to right now, for example: "Love Don't Cost A Thing" by Jennifer Lopez. I seem to remember that song being better than it actually is.).

More randomness: Mom has finally caved and turned the air conditioning on. This... is after several days of Kelly and I dying from heat and turning the air on as soon as she left for work (and if Kelly's hot, that's definitely saying something!), only to have to turn it back off shortly thereafter. Which sucked.

In other news, I got into a bit of a fight with Mom today. Fight, of course, meaning mostly her yelling and me practically biting my tongue off to make myself not say all the smart ass comments going through my head. It started off pretty stupid- she was getting on my case about something, and it just sort of escalated from there. Did you know that no one will ever be with me because I'm so disgusting? (okay, I know that it'll never happen for me, but to have her actually say that to me... she may as well have punched me in the face.)... to which I barely controlled the urge to say "Hey, if you can get some, there's hope for anybody". And so it continued. I did pretty well, though, in that I only let one comment slip. She'd been screaming about how I needed to grow up, and I yelled back "Yeah, you might want to try that." He he. She effectively said that she wanted me out... several times... and then in the next breath she was going, "Not that I'm kicking you out or want you out..." Um... yeah, I'm pretty sure you just fucking did. Bitch. And the other thing that killed me: "I didn't raise a daughter to walk all over me, and it's going to end NOW." Excuse me? Okay, FIRST of all- you didn't raise me, Erin did, and then after she moved out I raised my goddamn self. SECOND- I walk all over you? Let's see, I pay half the rent in order to share a room with Kelly and get bitched at 24/7. I'm doing YOU a god damn favor by being here because we both know that you can't afford this apartment without me (yeah, that was another thing, she was going "You'd be living on the streets if it weren't for me!"- as if I couldn't figure SOMETHING out if it really came down to that). I work my ass off for shit pay and give you nearly half of my god damn paycheck every month, not to mention support your youngest daughter because you can't be bothered. So tell me again who's walking all over who here? Who exactly is getting taken advantage of in this fucked up situation of ours, because it sure as hell isn't you. Evil bitch. I really, really need to get out of here... I'm just too frustrated with this whole situation and I've been fighting back more and more, which is definitely not good for the most part. Either I'm going to end up killing her, or she's going to throw me out of the house. Whichever comes first. And I've got to be honest... it could be either one at this point.

After the fight, I got myself pulled together and snuck out of the house when mom wasn't looking... ended up buying 3 movies (Crash, White Noise, and Rent)... then met up with Erin, and we met Stef and Kelly at Red Robin for dinner (yum). Then we headed off to mini-golf... we're all horrible, but it was fun in an embarrassing sort of way. Eh. I won, so I guess I suck just a little less than they do :P. Erin wanted ice cream, so we stopped for that (which was okay, because between it being muggy as all hell and being outside for all that time golfing, it was needed), and then everybody went home. I still have yet to talk to mom... which is fine by me. The only thing that really sucked about today was that Erin had no money, so I ended up paying for Erin and I on EVERYTHING, plus Kelly's dinner... so I spent half a fortune. :( No more stupid shit the rest of this week, seriously. I don't want to be spending my entire refund on stupid crap... though I suppose that's already started... meh.

Alright, I guess I should get going, as I have to be up at a decent hour... Stef's coming over around 2, and then I have to do laundry and go into work around 7 (ugh... though with the current Mom situation, that might actually be a good thing!)... later!