Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons...

☁ Hikago peeps: Favor? Can we get some other topics going on the support thread? Please? ANYTHING. It's really super awkward right now and I think it might be preventing other people from posting anything. It is sad making. :(

☁ I put in for vacation time next month- a whole week and a half. Happy birthday to ME! It will be delicious. :3 I haven't really figured out what I'm going to DO for a week and a half, but that's part of the appeal, isn't it? WHATEVER I WANT. :D

☁ This whole favoritism game a couple of people are playing is getting really old really fast. Let's put it this way- if a guy that barely works has noticed, it's a problem. Henry got elected to cover register for a few minutes so I could do my photo stuff at the end of the night. We were both kind of "Bzuh?" about it because he was not the only person available, and little miss perfect wasn't doing anything. Henry was like, "well, she has senority," with an eyeroll, because of course she's barely been there at all compared to the rest of us. To which I responded, "Jeremy wants to fuck her, so she gets to do whatever she wants."   "Well said." XDDD

☁ Why is cologne so expensive? Seriously. It's kind of ridiculous. On the upside- new cologne. More of the Adidas Moves, which is my happy smell, and then I got Usher He, which I -love- but I'm not sure how it's going to work with my body chemistry, so we'll see.

☁ Finished off Hetalia Axis Powers finally. I'd kept putting it off, but I only had 10 episodes left, so might as well finish it, right? Overall? It had it's moments, but eh. I can take it or leave it, really. *shrug*

☁ I started Suikoden III for a bit. I'm reminded quite vividly why I didn't get terribly far into it the first time: the camera is awkward, movement is awkward, graphics are awkward, battles make no freaking sense...  it doesn't feel like a Suikoden game, and I don't mean that as a compliment. I'm trying to give it a chance, especially since I'm still in chapter 1, but. *sigh*

☁ FUCK. I've started to work on the BG playlist, which will be a work in progress for a few days (it's day 2 and I'm in J. XD)... I just got bunnied. I won't say whether it's or not it's something I can actually use for BG (I've got to keep SOME secrets ^_~), but either way it's with a character that I am absolutely NOT comfortable writing. Fuck fuck fuck.

☁ Speaking of bunnies, I had an old evil bunny rear it's ugly head at me yet again other day while Pye and I were discussing BG. She kept trying to tell me that bunnies were cute. The following conversation ensued:

Ver: Pye, it's *******. It's not cute, it's a disaster waiting to happen. >_<
Pye: okay yes, it is
Ver: XDDD
Pye: >_> I mean. it will be troubling

...that's comforting. -_- Sad thing is, the disaster fic is probably the best idea I've got. I have a short list, but everything is half baked at best. *facepalm*

☁ LJ: You suck. Just saying. FB seems to be having issues as well. The latter I don't care so much about, but LJ being down for two days is a giant pain in the ass. Grrr.

☁ My hands have been a bit dry the last week or so, which isn't normal for me. I think it's the heat, which finally broke, but it's been SO terribly hot here- pushing 100 (that's 37.8 for you celcius using folks). I know that's not that much for this time of year in some places, but in upstate NY, that's INSANELY HOT. The heat's supposed to come back later this week though, yaaaaaay. -_- At any rate, I grabbed a little tube of cocoa butter, so hopefully that will help. And hopefully I can ignore the fact that the smell of the stuff reminds me of a bad summer job I had right after high school. Whoops.

☁ I seem to have lost my keys. I have my spare set, so it's not like I'm locked out of anything, but it's still not good. When I came home from work yesterday I realized I didn't have them, but I can't find them at work, either. I hope I didn't drop them somewhere, but that's looking more and more likely. UGH. >_<

☁ For anybody that didn't hear, Borders is closing ALL of their stores now. I can't say that it's a surprise at this point, but it DOES suck. I mean... that's half the reason to go to the mall by me- and it's the only bookstore there. So much for my entertainment while Kelly spends ages in Victoria Secret. Boo. On that note, though, I should probably try to get over there tomorrow (*cough* later today *cough*) to see what they have left as far as clearance stuff... may be able to score some deals. If not, well, at least I tried. Might check out jewelry because I'm CONSTANTLY losing earrings or having them fall apart on me. There's also a new store that had some really cool looking dreamcatchers. The only potential problem there is. Um. Reaching them. Because I'm a midget. <_< And I hate hate HATE asking for help for things like that. Meh. We'll see.

☁ Had a song ping me, so I'm writing a little bit again. It sucks, but it's something. Also I finished making up the rest of the 101 in 1001 list that starts on the 30th. Hopefully this time I'll do more of the list. ^_^;;;

( Weight related, cut for those not interested. XD )

☁ Suikoden:
( Short this time, I've still been procrastinating finishing it. )

☁ ( Drunken antics. Aren't I too old for this? )

Also, I know it might seem like I'm going out a lot, but that's really just because I don't post that much. XD It's every few weeks, generally. We've gone out twice since Pride weekend. So honestly, not that often. I just don't want people to be worried, you know? I swear I'm not turning into an alcoholic. ^_^;;;

☁ The fan next to my bed died. :( Which means I have to replace it, because I run hot all the time and I can't sleep properly when I'm overheated. Hence me being up at 7am. UGH.

☁ Apparently everyone at work thinks Mary and I are dating, which is funny bordering on hysterical. She's hot, yes, but I would NEVER date her and we both know it. I know her too well- she's a chronic cheater and that's something I'm completely unwilling to put up with in a relationship. Still. Funny. People continue to make up significant others for me out of my friends even in adulthood. XD

☁ There's the most god awful HP fic showing up on my flist (through a comm, not actually someone I'm friends with). The mechanics aren't TOO bad, but the mains are so blindingly OOC that it makes me want to stab things. And yet... I keep reading it as it gets posted. What the hell is wrong with me?

☁ Saw this in a store and thought it was really cool- apparently there are all different versions of it too. The one in the mall was cheaper though. Also, this pendant is totally awesome and I plan on getting one when I get my first biweekly paycheck next week. Especially since one of the stone options is Tiger's Eye. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

☁ More Suikoden stuff:
( Nevermind that there's like... two people that have any interest in this. Oh well. That's what cuts are for. XD )

☁ Suikoden II:
-Jowy: *SOB* I think I know what he has in mind, but. He is Wrong. I know he's wrong because this is Suikoden and the Hero always wins in the end, goddammit. You should give up and run away because you're postponing the inevitable, my ass. *growls*
-A case for frequent saving- in the middle of a random battle, the game froze. Due to game events, I hadn't been able to save in quite a while... plus I stupidly just hadn't when I had the chance. I had to do from the Greenhill Ghost incident to successfully escaping with Teresa twice. GAH. >_<
-That being said, I was reminded quite vividly of why Flik is Awesome. You know he just did something seriously impressive if even Luc admitted that it wasn't bad.
-Kind of funny, the whole time Nina was going after Flik, I was thinking, Viktor would never let Flik live this down if he knew. I'm so glad he got to see it. Viktor's immense amusement and Flik's reaction of RAGE was totally worth doing pretty much half the Greenhill arc again. <3
-Also Nanami freaking about the ghost and trying to include Pilika in the freakouts, while Pilika is all "?" was freaking hysterical.
-I was randomly thinking, for the characters that were also in the first game (with the exception of Viki, because I don't think she really even notices things like war going on around her. XD)... I have to wonder if most of them aren't thinking something like, "Another teenager with a true rune in his hand. How the hell do I keep ending up following these kids around?"
-Last one, I promise. I understand that with 108 playable characters, I'm not going to like all of them. But Sid? Really, Konami? The whole time you're recruiting him, he's being all creepy and the pickpocket kid with wings whose name I can't remember at the moment (Chaco?) was all "NOOOOoooooooooOOO!" and "Don't touch me!"
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It's incredibly disturbing that the Hero knowingly recruits a guy who's probably going to molest this kid. Just saying.

☁ Obviously with all of the Suikoden talk, I haven't really been watching too much of anything at the moment. Should probably stop that. I have a manga rec too that I should probably try to get to at some point. I don't read manga very often because when I do I tend to inhale a whole bunch at once and I burn myself out for a while. It's been about a month since the last time, though. Probably due. :P

☁ Not much of anything is happening in LJ-land today. *pokes it*

☁ I forgot to mention that the New York Post on Sunday had a fabulous Rapture related headline- "WORLD ENDS! Heaven looks exactly like New York City" I totally started cracking up when I saw that on a customer's paper. Customer looked at me like I was nuts, but it was totally worth it. Brilliant. <3

☁ Did I mention that I found a new video game/book/movie/music organization site? Well, I did. Yes, I realize that when you go to the site, it talks about buying and selling, but you can just have "collections" too. You don't have to sell anything if you don't want to. On the upside, if you do decide to sell anything, you can do that really easily from there too. (Though they do take a percentage, but most sites like that do.) I only have some DS games on there so far- it's kind of neat because the way they set it up, it's almost like you're shopping through your own stuff, which is kind of neat. ^_^ Of course, you can buy on the site as well as sell, which could be dangerous. But we'll ignore that.

☁ Stef had me watch Once Upon a Mattress, which was cracky and kind of hysterical. Zooey Deschanel's eyes are kind of weird though, aren't they? It seems like she's always like O_O, at least in this movie, and it was a bit off putting. Though Google shows plenty of pictures where she looks normal, so I think it's just a thing she does. She's a pretty girl, but seriously, this? Creepy.

☁ Sobering fact I just learned: in over HALF of the country, 29 states in fact, you can legally be refused service in a restaurant because of your sexual orientation. Just. There are no words. New York is thankfully not one of them, but Texas is. Which isn't actually surprising, but it's disheartening. The list: Alabama, Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, Colorado, Florida, Georgia, Idaho, Indiana, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Michigan, Mississippi, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, North Carolina, Ohio, Oklahoma, Pennsylvania, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, Virginia, West Virginia, and Wyoming.

Many of those aren't a surprise. The southern states especially, and to a lesser degree, the Midwestern ones. But PA? Really? I don't really think a state that boasts "The City of Brotherly Love" really has any room to discriminate against gay people, but whatever. It's just disappointing that in 2011, so much of the country is still hell-bent on making our lives miserable.

☁ Related: This is disgusting. It's not up to doctors to make judgements about who their patients are. They're supposed to DO THEIR JOB. Funny how the two religious people didn't seem to care, but the doctors did. This isn't the first time we've heard something like this, of course, but the fact that this KEEPS HAPPENING is proof that we need marriage rights. What we have isn't good enough, because they can ignore it when you have all of the legal documentation that you're supposed to need. Civil unions are not enough. We need marriage or this kind of despicable behavior is just going to continue.

( Suikoden rambling, for those that care~ )

☁ I sent out that check yesterday morning, so... no taking it back now, eh? ^_^;;;;;;; I'm SO freaked. It's just a non-credit class, but... it's been nine years since I've been in school. Even if this IS just a trial run, it's still scary. :/ *incredibly nervous!*

☁ So I saw a current picture of my father. God, time has not been kind to him. I mean, I know he's older now than when I remember him from- the man is going to be 55 this year, and he was never a particularly handsome guy to begin with- but wow, he looks like HELL. He looks at least 10 years older than he actually is. Just... wow.

Also he made a Facebook account, and friend requested both of my sisters but not me. I kind of understand why he didn't- Kelly told him I didn't want to have anything to do with this- but dammit, it would've been nice if he had at least TRIED. Is it really so wrong to want him to show some kind of effort after all this time? Honestly, I'm pretty conflicted about him at this point. It would be nice to be able to have a relationship with my father... but I can't forgive him, and I certainly can't trust him. So what kind of relationship would that really be anyway?

☁ I set up DW to import stuff- I know DW isn't doing that right now to not be a burden on LJ, but this way I can just forget about it and DW will import the stuff when things are better with LJ. It's not like it's a rush or anything. They'll do it when they do it. And this way I don't have to remember to import everything later. ^_^ That being said, trying to put stuff in the DW comm is incredibly frustrating- the bases post, for example, refuses to post right no matter what I do. There's random html tags everywhere and the cuts refuse to work. GAH. >_< At least that only seems to be on that one post? I deleted it, in any case. I'll fool around with it some other time. Maybe.

☁ Recruiting in Tierkreis. Which is kind of annoying, because a lot of it involves traveling in the same areas over and over again. Oh yeah, and there's random battles in those areas. It's a good thing I love this series, because otherwise this kind of stuff would totally turn me off. On the other hand, it's a good opportunity to level up the more severely underlevelled characters? :D

☁ Stuck in Suikoden II. Stupid Neclord Abomination monster thing keeps killing me. >( Doesn't help that Freed Y is freaking USELESS and you're forced to have him in your party. *growls* I'm actually half considering going around and leveling up some and coming back to it... it's really, really early in the game for that already. GROAN.

☁ Got bunnied at work. The good news is that it'll work for BG and I'm positive I can get it over the 1k word minimum. The bad news is. Um. All I can really say without giving it away is that I'm not sure I want to go there. *kicks bunny* It's an idea I would LOVE to mess around with, but... :/ I guess we'll see. So far it's the best idea I've got, but hopefully something else will come up.

☁ I was going through some music trying to come up with a BG playlist (which is incredibly difficult this time, urgh), and this song came up. As always with songs, not 100% accurate, but mostly. Appropriate song is appropriate. I'm working on it. :)

- Had the best freaking shopping trip EVER yesterday. My sister and I went to the mall because I had to get my hair cut... again... and while we were looking around, I noticed that there was a new video game store, so of course I had to go in. I've mentioned before that I'm a masochist, right? ^_^;;; Anyway, after some looking around, I discovered- get this- SUIKODEN II. For those of you not in the know, this is a VERY rare, out of print game. I've never actually seen it in person before today because it's next to impossible to get unless you go online. And you're going to pay dearly for it, believe you me. The lowest I have ever seen it posted for is around $120 used, and no, that's not a typo. More often than not it's $200 and up. I've been looking for a physical copy of this game that wouldn't require the promise of a firstborn child for about eight years, no lie.

...this store had it for $89.99.

Needless to say, it came home with me. It's coming out of my savings, I don't even care, because holy HELL I actually found it. Okay, I care a little, but I know that I shouldn't because there's no way I could've passed that up. I realize that it's still a lot for a video game. Especially for a used game that was released 12 years ago. But this one is special, and I refuse to feel bad about spending so much on it. That being said, I won't be buying any games for a while to make up for it. ^_^;;; On the upside, I was in Borders two different times and walked away empty handed each time. So that's a good thing. :D

(With demand as high as it is, if Konami ever got a clue and releases the PSP Suikoden I/Suikoden II compilation outside of Japan, they'd make a freaking fortune. Just saying.)

- In addition, bought a cute pair of heart shaped rainbow earrings. It's been a long time since I've worn any rainbow jewelry... should be interesting. They're small enough that they're subtle, so it shouldn't cause any issues I don't think. At least, I never had any issues before when I was wearing that stuff all the time. Okay... except for one asshole I worked with, but he doesn't work there anymore, and besides that... I'm mostly out at work, so any problems would've come up by now. You know?

By the way, Border's GLTB section blows. It's just this tiny two foot section, and the bottom three or four shelves have like... five books on them, tops. It's sad, it really is.

- Also we did Ruby Tuesday's for dinner, since I've never actually been there, and while the food wasn't anything to particularly write home about, they had the yummiest regular Long Island Iced Tea I've ever tasted. Mmm. <3

-Okay, I know most of you don't care, but I need to talk about this last episode of Glee for a little bit. Skip if you'd rather, plzthnx.

Thought 1: asjdkslajdsl I've been reading Blaine/Kurt fic furiously the last day or so. I've shipped them since Blaine first showed up, but this is the first time that I've come away from an episode going "Holy shit, I NEED FIC." Seriously, if those two don't get together at some point, I'm going to die.

Thought 2: I've spent the last several weeks catching Kelly up on the show. The advantage of that, of course, is that I'd already seen everything, so I knew what to expect already and knew when to walk away and do something else for a few minutes during potential awkwardness. (She also ships Blaine/Kurt with me and we fangirl squee together, which is kind of fun.) What I didn't expect? CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT. Holy crap. In the interest of not being a jackass and spoiling stuff, I won't say what happened, but... let's just say that it figures that this is the first totally new episode that we've watched together. They actually ADDRESSED the elephant in the room that I thought the show would ignore until cancellation. I'm still in shock.

YAY. Days off are good. <3 Staying in and recharging ones batteries? Even better. ^_^

1. I think I'm mostly better with the exception of a lingering sore throat. Yay. Well, and headaches that don't seem to be going away, but that could be a combination of factors. My hair is too long, for one. Yes... I do get migraines if my hair gets too long. Ugh. I also need to get my eyes checked. May need a new prescription. Also overdue for the girl bit, so that may be playing a hand in it too.

2. Got linked to this really cool site- The Backloggery. Basically it's like MAL for video games. The idea is to keep track of what games you have, what you've finished, what you're still working on- so that you can go through your backlog and finish games that you already own. A fantastic way to not only keep track of things, but to remind yourself why you don't need that new game right now- you already have xx games unfinished! However, I didn't need to know exactly how many games I have....... and I haven't even started putting in ds, advance, or snes games. *headdesk*

On that note, I've picked up Suikoden IV again, since I've had that almost finished for... well, forever. And I'm reminded quite vividly why I hate levelling up. *sigh* It's so BORING. And where I'm at level wise, it takes freaking FOREVER to go up just one level. And I can't go anywhere fun to level up- I'm stuck where I am, so basically, I have to go up and down these stairs from hell fifty billion times to go up one level. I'M SO SICK OF THESE FUCKING STAIRS! *growls* Can't I just magic myself to level 70? Pleeeeeeeeease? I also really, really hate the final boss. There is no reason a freaking TREE should be kicking my ass like this at level 63. Granted, I missed the final hammer and so can only sharpen weapons to level 12 instead of 16, but COME ON.

3. I have been successfully keeping my checkbook balanced since Friday. Score! This has two purposes. One, I'll actually... *gasp* KNOW what's in my account instead of a vague "Well, I've got to have at least this much..." Two, it's a way of tracking my spending so I can see EXACTLY where my money's going. And trim accordingly. ^_^ For now, my only reaction is, holy crap I use my bank card A LOT. XDDD

4. Started watching Merlin. First episode down......... eh, I dunno. I'll keep watching it for now, but there are several things that bother me. What doesn't bother me? For whatever reason, it brings out the snarky comments, which is highly entertaining. We'll see what happens. *shrug*

5. Apparently Aki's friend pegged me as gay the first time I met her. *sigh* Well, it's not the first time that's happened when I've met someone. Which sort of baffles me. I'm... more on the androgynous side, yeah, but I'm not butch by any stretch of the imagination. And it's not like when I first realized I was gay and so wore something rainbow-colored all the time- that stuff has been in the back of my jewelry box for several years now. Do I have a sign on my forehead that says "DYKE" or something? Jeez. XD I'm just curious.

My stomach is doing some weird vocalizations here... maybe I should be a little bit worried...

If picking up Chain of Memories didn't officially break my "no more new games until you finish the ones you have" resolution, I definitely broke it today because Game Crazy is evil. EVIL, I tell you! I went in there for the sole purpose of making sure that they'll have the Kingdom Hearts II strategy guides when the game comes out next week (mainly because Marc said that he'd send me the money for me to get it for him, so I wanted to make sure that they'd HAVE them first). Well, the guy working was busy with another customer at the time, so I glanced at the PS2 section for a minute. What do I see pretty much right away, because my eyes are trained to spot shit like that? They actually *have* Suikoden III. I've been looking for this game for probably 2-3 years, and I saw it in EB Games a couple of months ago, but it was 30 bucks and I didn't have the money then. And I keep hearing that the price on it is skyrocketing up to the 60's and 70's, even. Well... I checked out the price just because I had to... $12. No joke. I think I just about died right then. So... because it was a great deal and I have absolutely NO self control when it comes to video games, it came home with me. Fuck it. Apparently you can also pre-order the KHII strategy guides, so I pre-ordered two. The special one for me (hardcover, concept art, possibly a DVD... coolness), and a regular one for Marc. Hmm. Oh, I also saw videos of a couple of scenes from the Atlantica world: SCARY. Very scary. I'm so not looking forward to dealing with that world now, because they seem to have turned it into this fucked up "all the characters are going to sing like they're in a musical and you have to time the buttons to the music in a really screwed up way" thing. SO not cool. And Sora sounds so much older, I know I'm going to have to spend some time just getting used to that. Although... hello, it's logic. Haley Joel Osment is no longer a child. His voice has changed. Therefore, Sora's voice has changed. *duh*

Speaking of KH, I FINALLY beat Riku (the second battle) and sealed Hollow Bastion as of yesterday. Thank God. I was beginning to lose my mind. Of course, it could be argued (and has been) that I never really had one to begin with...

I seriously need to go do a load of laundry, as I have absolutely no clean clothes. What the hell else is new. *shrug* Okay, off to do that. I just need to un-glue my ass from the chair. Meh.

Waiting... why is it that it feels like I'm always fucking waiting for something? Anything? Everything? Right now it's a cd I'm burning and the clothes in the washer, in general it's for my life to kick into gear... but it's always SOMETHING. Why is that?

I just now noticed that there's a little line on top of the entry box that says "Autosaved draft at..." and then updates itself every ten seconds. Is that new, or am I really that oblivious to have never noticed that before?

Found yet another good Harry/Draco fic today (well, good so far, anyway)... I've really got to stop this. The pairing is really starting to become an obsession, and... JKR is never going to make it happen except for maybe in an alternate universe, and I'll just be disappointed when Harry and Ginny get married and have a gazillion babies, even though I knew it was coming. Kinda like how I was pissed that Lupin is with Tonks even though I was convinced that he and Sirius were together all through the fifth book (maybe the fourth too, who knows). *Kicks self* Maybe I should just get back into my little Suikoden Tir/Gremio thing and just forget about the other. Maybe. It'd be a lot easier if Harry and Draco weren't so fucking perfect together. Grrr. *Kicks self again*

My CD is finally done, so maybe I'll go read or something. I still have another hour and ten minutes roughly for my clothes, so yeah... should go do something.