Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons...

Yes, I know, it's been ages. I think most of you have seen me around, so you know I'm still alive, at least. I initially had an excuse with finals, but uh, that was a while ago, so... basically since then it's just been good old fashioned laziness. Yep. ^_^;;;  So let's get this over with, shall we? XD

( Long as per usual, but these are for me anyway, so whatever XD )

So we'll see how much of that actually happens by the end of the summer. ^_~ Knowing me... ah, let's get real, I'll be lucky if I can cross anything off my list. But again, we'll see! Now, I'm going to make myself finish this episode of Kuroko (ugh *whine*) and get in the shower and maybe like... do stuff, I dunno. Maybe. My head hurts like fuck, so I might just sleep or something, who knows. XD

☁ I think I'm too old for Twitter. I'm trying to... I don't know, join the rest of civilization? Only it confuses the hell out of me. I have no idea what's going on or what I'm doing. On the other hand, it's something else I can actually access on my phone. Meh. Technology is overrated.

☁ Some technology is okay though. Apparently my library has a thing where you can take out some digital books and stuff online- they just disappear when they're due. Awesome. :D Not a terrible lot available, yet I still have 20 some odd books on my wishlist at the moment. Ehehe. ^_^;;; Should probably start working on that.

☁ In other news, I've just sat here and watched a bunch of Doctor Who. Here's the thing: I've seen a lot of Doctor Who/Torchwood secrets on fandomsecrets... I didn't really know that much about Jack, except that he's bisexual (and they make that clear pretty much right away, don't they? XD) But he's... I don't know, not what I expected. American, for one thing. A little disorienting to hear an American accent when you're expecting a British one. And he's kind of... sleazy, isn't he? I'm kind of failing to see why he's such a popular character. He's a bit of an ass. I have to wonder if this is more of fandom being in love with dick characters, or whether he gets better. Also I have four episodes left of the 9th Doctor and I don't want a new one. SOB. We go from this guy to creepy Barty Crouch Jr.? *clings to 9*

Edit: Am I the only one that wouldn't mind seeing Doctor/Rose/Jack? I don't even know if that's a common thing in DW fandom. XD I'm not seriously shipping it or anything (yet), but definitely wouldn't mind if it happened. Just saying.

☁ I feel like I should be writing- haven't done it properly in weeks- but I just don't feel like it. -_- I dunno, maybe it's going to take a little time to get my writing mojo back. I was going pretty good for a while there.

☁ Breaking out. Ugh, I so don't need this on top of the monster zit that I'm still trying to get rid of. Damn thing practically had its own heartbeat. It's a lot better, but still there. So of course then this means that I'm going to be female soon. Lovely. >_<

☁ I'm going to get on my soapbox a little bit here. Just a warning. ^_^;;;

( Lots of cuts lately. Hrm. )

*climbs off soapbox* <_<

I really, really hope that today wasn't an indicator of how the whole year will go, because seriously? I'll have to curl up in a corner somewhere and cry.

1. One of the many reasons I almost never drink: even if I have one, I feel like utter shit the next day. So I had a couple of godiva-and-milks around midnight (much more milk than godiva, I assure you XD), and sure enough, felt like shit.
2. On top of the previous, my body decided that it hates me. Pamprin wasn't touching the cramps, either. UGH.
3. Didn't have a thermacare patch for said cramps. Work was out of them, so tried a store brand, which turned out to be freaking useless. So basically, I was in a lot of pain all day.
4. Because the day wasn't shitty enough: I found out while I was at work that a friend got gaybashed last night. He's okay, but... ugh. :/ I later discovered it was a fucking bouncer at a straight bar, who apparently followed Paul out of the place and attacked him. The other bouncers had to actually pull the guy off of him. God. I'm actually kind of glad I wasn't there, because I would've flipped out and wouldn't that have been ridiculous? 4'11" me shouting at a big bouncer type guy. XDDD Still, it's scary, you know? It's not like he was in the boondocks somewhere, this is Albany. I'll grant you that Albany's certainly not a gay mecca or anything close to that, but people are pretty low-key about the gay thing here, from my experience. At least overall. You always get some assholes, but meh. The important thing is that he's okay, and he did report it. He's more upset about the fact that he has "JOE" imprinted on his face (asshole must've had one of those knuckle ring things that leaves markings) than the actual attack. Go figure.

Fail, Ver. Epic fail. Way to not post for a month. >_< I am still alive, just kind of... retreating internally, really, thinking about things... and concentrating on other things. Let's update, shall we?

1. I got my hair cut about... eh, three weeks ago. It's REALLY short. Really, really short. I've never had it this short. O_o I've been told it suits me, though, and the reactions were fun to begin with because everyone was like "WOAH." One of the supervisors at work saw me from a bit of a distance and didn't know who I was! XD I've only gotten two bad responses so far- one, predictably, from my mother who hates it... and one from a guy at work who made a dick comment about how it was a guy's haircut. Pffft. I mean, in all fairness, it CAN be. If I push the bangs back, it looks VERY butch. But I don't wear it like that at work, and the bangs definitely soften it. So I can have it both ways and I kind of love that. All in all... I think I might keep it. I think I'm still getting used to it because it's a HUGE adjustment, but I like it, and I like how easy it is. And I know it looks okay on me because the reactions from even people I don't know (customers at work) has been positive to the point of being overwhelming.

2. Still continuing on the weight loss thing. I've lost 16 pounds now, also considering that I'm bloated from my body hating me. (It's particularly bad this time around- I was so nauseaus yesterday I had probably about half the calories I should've eaten. Bad, I know, but I felt like I was going to throw up without even eating anything. No need to encourage things along. Felt just as nauseous today, but doing a little better on the food front. Still not what I need, but better.) I actually ran... well, jogged for six minutes the other day. That's a huge deal. That would've been impossible for me before. So there's improvement! I'm not seeing any changes besides the weight loss and the exercise thing, but it'll happen. ^^ Can't wait till my pants start falling off~ But first is hitting and holding under my first goal, which should be soon. Then I'll be able to get Final Fantasy XIII~ :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

3. blind_go ... I probably should've just defaulted. Seriously. NOT my strongest showing this time around. You guys will see once reveals come up. *sigh* Serves me right, I guess, waiting until the day of deadline to really sit down and work on it. >_<

4. Coworker thinks I should get tested for endometriosis. The only problem with that is that it kind of requires surgery for a diagnosis, and on top of that, apparently most insurance won't even cover it unless you've tried to get pregnant and failed. Because, apparently, the horrifically painful periods aren't bad enough to warrant a diagnosis. Would I be willing to get surgery for something like that? Probably not, especially since it's a passing suspicion really, but it still pisses me off that it's not even an option. So, you know, whatever. That's so not happening. Something to keep in the back of my mind, I guess?

5.Started going through my books today in search of things that I'm willing to part with... because I do NOT have the space for all these books. Sigh. I have seven so far, but that's only the top two shelves of my big bookcase- that's not even including all of the other places I have books stashed. I know there's other ones too, so it should be at least 10. Maybe even closer to 20. This is... kind of painful, but I need to do it. At least start. There's books all over my room, so it's not something that's going to be funished until I actually clean the damn thing. Double sigh. The only question is, what do I -do- with them?

6. More fandomish stuff: I started watching Glee, because I kept hearing about it. My god. It's a TRAINWRECK. That's the only reason I'm still watching the damn thing- it's like when you see a car accident on the side of the road and you can't look away. D: Also, I think we've established before that I'm a masochist. XD I never really understood the big deal about autotuning until I watched this. It's horrible. It ruins the music for me. Bah. Which wouldn't be so bad if pretty much every character wasn't horribly written. All of them are either flaming assholes or completely two dimensional. Often both. *cough*Kurt*cough* So the show itself is bad on top of ruined music... NOT a good combination. People love this show WHY? DOES NOT COMPUTE. O_o

Also finally saw Sherlock Holmes, which I really liked. I came out of it NOT shipping Holmes/Watson, though. I see where people get that from, but... it actually screamed BROMANCE to me as opposed to OMG OTP FOREVER. Eh. Which is actually how Kirk/Spock in Star Trek Reboot hit me too. I would read fic if I came across it. But I don't ship it.

...does that mean my yaoi fangirl card gets taken away now? D:

1. Caught up with Tales of the Abyss, finally. Now I just have to wait for the last episode to be subbed. *sigh* I was hoping to get it done tonight, but alas...

2. Also found the first four episodes of Chi's Sweet Home 2. It's still cute, though I don't like the new opening song. Can we have the old one back? T_T

3. My body hates me. I'm now officially a cycle late, and today was day 3 of cramps out of nowhere. >_< BAH. I usually only get those the first day, so I don't know what that's about. I'm 25... shouldn't my period have stopped being all multiple personality on me by now? At least I know I'm definitely not pregnant...

4. I have a bunny for blind_go . Well, sort of. It's a baby bunny. Like this:

    

No idea what direction this is going in, though. It could very well implode on itself. *sigh* Still. It's something! *cheers, works on putting a music playlist together for inspiration~*

5. Speaking of writing, Ai linked this and I think it's totally worth sharing: WRITER'S QUEST!

6. I am...... not resisting the urge to write an RP application for Inui from Prince of Tennis. I'm NOT. <_< Especially when I owe a bunch of tags as it is. >_>

Shoot me now. *headdesk*

7. Work has been fun. So fun I don't even want to talk about it. *groan* One of these days I'll make a giant TL;DR post about it. Maybe. Might just as easily decide it's not worth the effort. -_-

1. It feels so much later than 9pm. Honestly. This whole getting dark early thing SUCKS. God, I hate winter. >_<

2. I have spent all day doing absolutely nothing. It was nice, actually- four hours working on Final Fantasy X, and I finally feel like I'm getting somewhere, and I'm finally starting to like some of the characters besides Auron, Lulu, and Waka. Okay, Tidus is still a whiny bitch, but he's not AS bad as he was before. And Kimahri had me giggling more than once. <3

3.fifthmus ... I still don't know. I mean. It's only 500 words this time... I -should- be able to come up with SOMETHING semi-decent before deadline that's at least 500 words, right? I just... I dunno. I'm not really feeling the writing thing right now, and considering that I crashed and burned so badly in the last round of blind_go ... I'm hesitant to join another challenge just yet. No, I'm not looking for reassurances here, I'm just stating facts. I'll think about it.

4. I haven't taken cold medicine all day today. SCORE~! Okay, so I still have a little bit of the cold I think, but it's not enough that I feel warranted medicating myself for. And I'm sure the crappy feeling is more due to the fact that my body decided to be a girl today. UGH. I hate when it does that.

5. In addition to feeling like shit, the tub is backing up. We can't get maintenance here till tomorrow. I hope to hell it's before work, but being that Mom probably won't get around to calling until late, I won't bet on it. Which means I'll have to go to work without a shower. And I already feel disgusting because of the girl thing. *cries* Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. I really wish the people upstairs would stop throwing shit down the sink that doesn't belong there. That's what causes our tub and/or kitchen sink to back up every once in a while. Gah, plumbing. STOP THAT!

6. Some Theory of a Deadman songs came up on my music player and suddenly I want to play through Indigo Prophecy again. XDDD Whoops? Speaking of music, I found a couple of songs on my computer that I absolutely don't remember hearing before, much less downloading. The only thing I can think of is I came across them when I was all drugged up and that's why I don't remember? XD I can't even blame it on Kelly because they're most definitely in MY music folder. <_< I mean, it's music I like, so in the end it's all good, it's just... disturbing to me, that I don't remember these AT ALL.

However, this one- With Me by Sum 41- I have a sneaking suspicion that it's Wolfie's fault, or at least the fault of someone from Squarewarts. ^_^;;;

.....I'm clearly not in a great mood, so I'm just going to save myself more embarrassment and shut up. Plus firefox completely hates me today apparently. XDDD

Happy Mother's Day to the moms on my flist! <3

I don't know what Mom's doing when she's home, but she needs to stop it, because the ethernet cable for my computer keeps getting loose enough on her end that my internet doesn't work. -_- Which is a pain in the ass, let me tell you. And it's only when she's home, so I know it's something SHE'S doing. Guh.

My prepaid phone was fantastic when I wasn't really using it that much. I'd put $20 on it every three months just to keep it active and I'd be golden. Now, however... it's costing me a lot of freaking money. I don't even want to know how much, quite honestly. I haven't been keeping track. So... after my vacation, I'm probably going to end up getting a monthly plan. I can get 1300 minutes total (which should be plenty, I still don't talk on it THAT much) plus unlimited texting for about $50. It sounds like a lot, at least to me, but I'm positive I'll be saving money that way. Plus I don't need to switch carriers or get a new phone or anything. ^_^

Last night at work can be summed up in two words: complete hell. It was busier than fuck, we had no extra staff even though it was the freaking day before MOTHER'S DAY, people were being bitchy, the digital machines were being pissy, I had to mix chemicals when I never actually got trained on mixing chemicals (so the machine might've been contaminated this morning, who knows), I never got a break AND I got out almost an hour late... plus I got my period yesterday and was having hellish cramps, so was in a lot of pain all day and couldn't leave early. *sigh* And it's probably going to be the same thing all over again tonight minus the cramps. Shoot me?

Those bras I ordered came in. And... wow. The 'cute as I can get in my size' one is cute (<3), and two others I didn't bother trying on because I have that exact type of bra in a different color, but one? Wow. I like... have a waist. Sort of. The only bad part is that it makes my boobs go "Hey, look at ME!" And... you know, at my size, I most definitely don't need to be doing that. XD They garner enough attention without that. XDDD But. You know. WAIST. <3 And that bra will look amazing with this one top I have. It will be the closest I can get to being attractive. Like, ever. XD

I should probably start trying to pack in the next couple of days. Guh. That's probably number 3 in most hated parts about traveling, packing. Two is the actual travel part. One.. is leaving the place you traveled to.

Guh. It's 1:30 1:45 now. I need to get something to eat and hop in the shower. I don't wanna.

1. I should post the recent blind_go chat drabbles to the writing journal. And the kink meme stuff. I'm still working on those. *sigh* Not now, but... maybe later.

2. I think I'm working on getting sick. My throat feels funny and it hurts a little bit to swallow. Fantastic. I'm taking zinc and vitamin c when I remember, though, so maybe it won't be too bad? XDDD This... does not bode well for ihikago, however. <_< But it also might explain why I've been so god damn tired lately.

3. Katie (the morning photo person on Saturdays) apparently called in. Fucking great. I don't wanna go to work. -_- When I get in I'm going to have to start up the whole lab, do everybody's film that's been sitting there since I left last night, customers are going to be bitchy... and my lovely coworkers were probably telling people I'd have everything done by 4pm. Um... no? When the machine doesn't get booted up at its normal time, it's wicked slow: meaning, it'll be 4pm by the time I even get the machine running. Pictures... will not be done. *sigh* They apparently wanted me to go in early, but considering that it's now a little after two, I don't think that's happening. They called my phone at like.. 9am. What the hell? At 9am I'm SLEEPING. Not gonna hear the phone, I promise.

4. *back twinges* Oh jeez. I hope to hell that's not cramps. Then again, the timing on that would be astronomically bad, so knowing my body, it probably is. *sighs and takes Pamprin along with the zinc and vitamin c, packs a heating patch and pad in work bag just in case*

*Note to self: Need to buy more pads.

Okay. Well I should probably go get dressed for work and everything (ugh), but I'll see you guys later. With any luck I'll be able to get a little bit of writing done. Hope everyone else has a good day~

*EDIT** Gah, I forgot about the damn question meme -again-. FAIL. I have one question I'm still stuck on- I'll try to think about it and post the answers tonight. XD

1. Yay for levelling up and not dying! <3 And new spells! <333 And... er, yeah, Dark Ages is addicting. ^_^;;; At least I don't totally suck anymore. Like... I can go into a place and actually kill stuff using just magic without nearly dying myself. I couldn't do that before. *hearts*

2. On the TMI track... hmm. I'm glad that there's absolutely no chance of me being pregnant, because I'm late. I should've definitely had my period by Christmas... it's now two weeks later and still not here. <_< I haven't been more than a few days late in a LONG time. There was one point when I was 16 that I didn't have it for six months (and then too, I definitely wasn't pregnant)... I hope this isn't going to be like that. That SUCKED... I still got cramps and PMS and everything, just no period, so... yeah.

3. I should probably get in the shower and go to the bank, get out rent money, GET GROCERIES... but I really don't feel like it. ^_^; I should also work on cleaning my room at least a little today. It's gotten really bad again. And I'm on the last leg (I think) of the third case in Phoenix Wright, and I want to finish that. Make sure this bastard gets what he deserves. XD While I'm over there I might as well make an appointment for the eye doctor, get that over with. Man, I hate errands. .......on the other hand, I can stop and get Chinese food. <33333

4. Holy crap, weatherbug says it's 56 degrees. O_o (That's 13.5 degrees for my Celcius inclined friends.) In January. Holy freaking crap. That's just... not normal. XD Though I'm not complaining, because that means that I don't have to wear my bulky part of my coat. I can just pull it apart and use the thinner outer part. Or better yet, I might even be able to get away with just a sweatshirt. ^_^ Woot.

Alright. Really need to get in the shower if I'm going, because even though the bank doesn't close until 5, I'm not sure offhand when the doctor's office closes. I think it's 4 or 5, but I'm not completely sure and I shouldn't risk it. 

Honestly, when will I ever learn? You’d think, by now, I’d realize that going into a bookstore is a definite bad idea, especially when said bookstore is new and still as unorganized as all holy hell (I’m hoping it’ll get better, but if not I’m really not planning on going in there again. It’s just about impossible to find anything in there.)… so yeah, I spent money that I really didn’t have to begin with. On the upside I got eight books and only spent a little less than $40... Which definitely is NOT bad, considering. Though I didn’t find the one book I was looking for… again, it was VERY disorganized.

1) Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry- Mildred D. Taylor (I had to read this for sixth grade English and loved it… so when I saw it I just had to pick it up.)
2) Sea of Time- Will Huffell (It looks interesting. *shrug*)
3) Ella Enchanted- Gail Carson Levine (Ever since I saw the movie I’ve wanted to read the book)
4) The Adventures of Tom Sawyer- Mark Twain (I used to have this when I was a kid, but it got destroyed somewhere along the line… what I didn’t realize until I got home and was putting the books away, however, is that this is an “adapted” version… so I’m not sure how much of Twain’s original stuff is still intact.)
5) Uncle Tom’s Cabin- Harriet Beecher Stowe (I’ve been meaning to read this since I first heard about it at thirteen and never got around to picking it up. So here we go.)
6) The Great Gatsby- F. Scott Fitzgerald (I find the 20’s interesting, and by association this is interesting. Another book introduced to me thanks to school)
7) Ancestors of Avalon- Diana L. Paxson (Yes, another Avalon book… I’m definitely going to finish “Mists of Avalon” before I even attempt to start this, though)
8) High Druid of Shannara: Straken- Terry Brooks (Like with Tom Sawyer, I need to learn to look at the back of the book just a little, just because this is part of a trilogy. Which would irritate me to begin with because I don’t have the rest of the trilogy to continue reading, but to top it off, this is the last book in the trilogy. Damn. Which means I can’t really start reading this until I get through the first two books. Well… I could, I guess, but everything would be confusing… and where’s the fun in that?)

In other news, my little friend is here, but she’s not causing many of the usual problems, which is good. For one thing I can actually eat… and the cramps were minimal… the only bad part is, the other thing about these visits that causes problems is still there (the quite painful allergic reaction I have to the necessary hygiene products). Oh, and now I have no money, so I can’t go to the health store to see if they have something natural I can use that I might not be allergic to… which means, unfortunately, I’m just going to have to deal with it and be in pain for the next week and a half to two weeks. Great.

The bad news: I'm still sick. Oh, and my little friend decided to visit as of Monday. The good news: I'm not as sick as I was, it's mostly down to a sore throat and a little coughing now. And the cramps are gone.

Regression to age 15 beginning...
Fall Out Boy concert in a little more than twelve hours! *squee* Kelly and I will both have cameras of the film (hers) and digital (mine) variety, so if I get any decent ones I'll probably put them up at some point. The best part about this? It turns out that Kevin and Jess are working the Pepsi for this (they work the booths, you know, where they sell all the insanely priced stuff)- and Jess said that if we find them, they can give us 50% off on whatever we want. Yay! Looks like we're going to have to make a point of finding them...
Returning to appropriate age...

Sorry, I just couldn't help myself. Besides, the more I'm squeeing about that, the more chance there is of my brain finally realizing that I'm quickly running out of time and to kick into gear. I have laundry to do (because I have no clothes whatsoever). I need a shower (because I smell, and I know it). I need to pack my purse with essentials for tomorrow (today, technically... I need to do this shortly because I know I'm going to forget something major, and this way I'm leaving myself enough time to rectify that. Otherwise I'll be kicking myself in the ass for days). I need to charge batteries for my camera, and get all my photography shit together. I need to get money out for possible momento buying (I'm limiting myself to $100, which is entirely too much, but I don't plan on spending all of it... and even if I do, I don't think I'll care as long as I go home with something really cool). I need to GO THE HELL TO BED at some point. That, of course, being on the bottom of the priority list ;)

As a complete change of subject (and to further my blatant procrastination)... a semi-entry I wrote yesterday:
Strange, how watching a movie can spur time travel in your brain. I'm sitting here watching The Last Unicorn, one of my favorite movies as a kid (which still has the most gorgeous soundtrack, by the way) and suddenly I'm eight years old again, sitting on the floor of my room in front of an ancient black and white 13 inch tv. And it feels so damn real, like I'm ACTUALLY sitting there. Extremely weird.

Is it just me, or are Mommy Fortuna and the harpy bits just a little bit too scary for kids to be watching?

On a fun note, this is a bootlegged copy of the movie when fox aired it some weekend along with Pretty Piggies and Yogi's First Christmas (it was some marathon or something)... the commercials are just so entertaining. Just to give you an idea on the dating of this recording: The Pepsi Arena was still the Knickerbocker Arena. There are previews for "Parker Lewis Can't Lose", "ALF", "Perfect Strangers", "Star Trek: The Next Generation", and "The Gambler: The Adventure Continues". The Long John Silver commercial with the holiday stemware was running (I used to love that one), and of course, the "I'm Sorry" Bounty commercials. *LMAO* Kelly and I used to sing that one to each other when one of us got the other pissed, which was often.

Random Quotes from the Movie:
-"There are no happy endings because nothing ends."
-"Oh my god, I'm engaged to a Douglas Fir."
-"Do something!"
"What can I do, you think the Red Bull likes card tricks?"
-"I am a bearer, I am a dwelling, I am a messenger-"
"You are an idiot!"
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Alright, I'm off to maybe do some of those things I need to do. *ugh* I'll hopefully be back Thursday/Friday with news of the concert and pictures, as I won't be able to get on the computer Wednesday. Later!

Best line of the day: "Focus on one thing? One artistic goal? As. in. concentrate. for. more. than. 20. sec- oh look, a shiny thing. *wanders off* (From Chershirecaticus on DeviantArt)