verloren1983 | Entries tagged with getting skinny

First thing's first- I've been basically ignoring DW lately, so if you've posted anything here and nowhere else that I follow in the last... oh, I don't know, probably month or so that I should know, you might want to tell me. I started trying to catch up and gave up. Apologies. School completely ate me. XD

I'm not going to try to do a whole update since I last posted- it's basically a lot of freaking out and paper writing and finals and whatnot. Nothing terribly interesting. I don't know how it all went because grades aren't due until Monday, so we'll see how that goes. :P It was kind of funny, though- I had two finals this semester, right? Philosophy and Human Sexuality. I was out of BOTH finals in roughly fifteen minutes. Seriously. My total final-taking time was about a half hour. Nice way to end the semester, I guess.

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Anyway, the library closes really soon and I have two books that I've checked out (The Hunger Games and Struck By Lightning, if anyone's curious), plus I'm hungry and have a caffeine headache, so I'm going to get going. Later! I should be able to be around a bit more now, at least over the summer anyway. :P

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23. Your dream job
Uh, I would settle for something I didn't completely hate and paid a decent amount, to be totally honest. I would LOVE to be able to write for a living in some capacity. I would also like to be able to wear jeans and sneakers to work, though the chances of that are even less than somebody paying me to write. XD Something like video game journalism is right up my alley (research/review side, not so much on the interview and talking to people in person side), but that's SUPER hard to break into. I don't know, maybe something like getting involved in social media would be more realistic, like the people that post as the company to Facebook and stuff? I have no idea, I just want to be able to pay my freaking bills and not have to sweat money all the time, okay? Preferably doing something that doesn't make me fantasize about a ginormous meteor hitting the Earth and killing EVERYTHING. That's my dream. XD

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19. What do you collect?
Uh, DVD's, books, games, stuff like that. Nothing terribly interesting there.

- May or may not be considering signing up for a gym near my house. It's right there, and there's no contract, it's a month to month thing, and it's $10 a month. I don't know if I'll actually go, though? But I need to do SOMETHING, and it's seriously right there, and the hours are very accommodating. Hmm. :/

- Couldn't sleep last night until way late (believe me, I tried)... but I woke up at 10, which is a vast improvement from what it's been lately. Tomorrow's goal is 8! :D

- Watched "Mirror, Mirror" today. I'd heard it was awful, but I thought it was fun. Some interesting twists, and they made it clear that you weren't supposed to take it seriously. My biggest complaint would actually be Julia Roberts, who half the time tried to affect a terrible British accent and half the time slipped, which brought it right out of character for me. Bleh. If she couldn't pull off a decent accent at least most of the time, she should've just stuck with the regular one, jeez. But anyway. It was pretty decent anyway.

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☁ I'm still sleep deprived, but I've actually gotten more than a couple of hours sleep and am feeling noticeably more sane, which is good. My sleep deprivation was pretty severe and I think that had a lot to do with my meltdown Saturday night going into Sunday morning. Still not where I should be in either sleep or mood, BUT I'm getting sleep when I can and I've just been trying to not give myself a hard time about things at the moment. Oh, and, yanno, I'm trying really hard to at least pretend to be somewhat normal emotionally. It feels a bit like I'm forcing positivity, but I'll take it over the absolute mess that I was Sunday. Anyway. MOVING ON.

☁ Finished both Planetes and Kuroko no Basket. Planetes is fucking fabulous and everyone should watch it, though it's a little multiple personality? The first half is mostly episodic and silly, the second half has an actual overarching serious plot and is basically the complete opposite of the first. When I started this- hell, even 10 episodes into it- I didn't think I would end up liking it as much as I did. Final MAL score- 9. Kuroko... okay, so I haven't COMPLETELY changed my mind about it, however, it did start to grow on me just a little. Most of that had to do with Nigou. Apparently if you add a cute animal to a mediocre show, it improves my overall view of it, even when said animal isn't even in all the episodes after it's introduced. Yeah. Also I came out of it shipping Hyuuga/Riko, which has very little fic- like there are 18 tagged with it on AO3, and for most of those, they are either a side pairing or part of a threesome. Sob. Will I watch season 2? Eh, yeah, probably, but I'm also a masochist. Final MAL score- 6.

Also, remember how I said I was alternating episodes on those? I don't think I'll do that again. It had its benefits, sure. It pushed me through Kuroko when I didn't feel like watching it, because I had to get through it to see another episode of Planetes. But it just seemed to take so freaking LONG to get through these, and having to switch gears from one to the other all the time was just. Eh. Apparently my usual way of marathoning stuff I like until burn myself out works better for me. :P

☁ So now I've just started watching Taishou Yakyu Musume, for two reasons- one, it's only 12 episodes, and two, I've been told it's cute and fluffy. Cute and fluffy is good. *nodnod* Seems cute. I also watched the first ep of Free!. I wasn't going to because I generally don't watch things in progress, it pisses me off, but eh. Seems interesting so far. They've got my attention for the moment anyway. I don't have anything else to say on those, since I've only seen one episode of each.

☁ That being said, if anybody has any recs for anything that's cute/fluffy and relatively short (preferably 26 episodes or less, but I will make exceptions for things like Chi's Sweet Home that only have about 3 minute episodes XD), I will take them. I've seen Chi, obviously, and Bottle Fairy and A Little Snow Fairy Sugar and you know what, it's probably easier if I just give you my MAL. XD It doesn't have to be anything that's already on my list, either.

☁ Oh. And I've lost just over 7 pounds. Certainly not going to complain about that. :3 (Edit: I should probably add that this has been over the last two weeks, not over the last few days. And I do tend to lose more quickly in the beginning and then slow down later, so this isn't an alarming amount to me.)

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Yes, I know, it's been ages. I think most of you have seen me around, so you know I'm still alive, at least. I initially had an excuse with finals, but uh, that was a while ago, so... basically since then it's just been good old fashioned laziness. Yep. ^_^;;; So let's get this over with, shall we? XD

( Long as per usual, but these are for me anyway, so whatever XD )

So we'll see how much of that actually happens by the end of the summer. ^_~ Knowing me... ah, let's get real, I'll be lucky if I can cross anything off my list. But again, we'll see! Now, I'm going to make myself finish this episode of Kuroko (ugh *whine*) and get in the shower and maybe like... do stuff, I dunno. Maybe. My head hurts like fuck, so I might just sleep or something, who knows. XD

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I've been around, just... not commenting on much of anything. Haven't really been in the mood or something. Also, I'm working on meme questions- I'm just really bad at this game. XD I'll finish them eventually?

( You guys know the drill. Lengthy random crap behind the cut. )

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☁ The meme thing went to hell pretty quickly, big shock. I'll catch up on that later so I'm not spamming you all.

☁ BG: Did a partial canon review- the only thing it did was ping my Hikaru/Akira fangirly sense, which most definitely was NOT the intention. Dammit. >_< (Needless to say, I haven't started. I'm hoping to get something going so I don't have to resort to the default. *cough* <_<)

☁ Note to self: Mint extract is not interchangeable with peppermint extract. I bought mint extract in order to make a mint flavored frosting for brownies... only to discover upon re-reading the recipe that it actually calls for peppermint extract despite being called "Chocolate Chip Mint Brownies". Now, all variations of mint are disgusting to me, so I really have NO idea what the difference is between the two. Some research turned up that mint extract creates a kind of toothpaste taste. Not something you actually want to consume. Basically, if you want to have something edible, you need to get peppermint. Good to know for future reference.

☁ On a related note, I've officially made frosting for the first time. It was super easy, though I'm not a fan of food coloring and powdered sugar gets freaking EVERYWHERE even if you're careful, so I'd still rather buy it in a can given the option. I can't honestly tell you whether it's any good or not (eew)... but what I can tell you is that despite the recipe being specifically for the pan size I was using, it was about twice as much as I needed. I put it on SUPER THICK so it's a bit better, but I still have about a cup and a half of frosting left.

☁ Also baking related: How fucking awesome are these? A whole lot of work and even more food coloring, but awesome. Might be cool to do it with two or three colors, too- someones favorite colors for their birthday or something.

☁ I've gone back to not really being hungry... not good. Seriously: I've had roughly half of what I should've had for a minimum and am just not hungry. As it was, about half of what I did have was ust because I went, "holy crap, I should really eat something." I know this kind of thing always passes, but it's still unnerving.

☁ Freaking brilliant. Just saying. Warning for language, but it's nothing worse than what you guys have seen here on occasion with the singular exception of c**t- I -hate- that word, but it's used here to make a point, so I'm okay with that.

....holy crap, how did it get that late? On that note, I really super need to go to bed. Meh.

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- Got my hair cut again after putting it off for a few weeks. It's the kind of short I've been trying to get and failing at (seriously, she used clippers on a lot of it XD) My mother's response to the haircut? "Why don't you just shave it off? You might as well at this point." ............................
*growl* Fuck you. Seriously. NOBODY ASKED YOUR GOD DAMN OPINION.

- Scored jeans at LB for 40% off, they're not flare or boot-cut, AND they're a size lower than what I got last time I bought jeans. Woo! I have no idea how I managed that, being that I haven't lost any weight and I'm not working out, so it's not like I've lost fat and gained muscle all of a sudden. Oh well. I'm certainly not going to complain. :D

- Also found volume 12 of Junjou Romantica, which I've been looking for. So! That one's totally caught up. \o/

- Level grinding in FFIII. What makes it suck even more than usual is that I'm kind of stuck where I am right now, due to story events, so I'm basically having to run up and down these stairs ad nauseum. UGH. Hopefully I can stop after one more level up and not get totally slaughtered by the boss.

- Apparently about a month ago, Konami put up a post on their Facebook group "What Konami game franchise would you love to see brought back?" I didn't read all 924 comments, but seriously? I did go 100 comments back, and all but TWO were along the lines of "SUIKODEN VI, DAMMIT!" *dies laughing* You think maybe they got the hint? Someone commented "Looks like Suikoden fans have made their own army now. :D" *dies more*

- Awesome video of Tom Felton on Conan- there was Harry/Draco discussion, and pictures! So funny, and he was so freaking cute when he literally turned PINK when they showed a couple of Harry/Draco photo manips. On the other hand, it did feel a bit strange having fandom acknowledged out of the blue like that, and on such a popular platform. And to think the actors actually read fanfiction and see fanart? Kind of like... er... what? O_o I don't know. It's a little too close to home for comfort. A great clip and interview, but just... made me feel a little like a bug under a microscope lens, if that makes any sense.

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☁ LJ: You suck. Just saying. FB seems to be having issues as well. The latter I don't care so much about, but LJ being down for two days is a giant pain in the ass. Grrr.

☁ My hands have been a bit dry the last week or so, which isn't normal for me. I think it's the heat, which finally broke, but it's been SO terribly hot here- pushing 100 (that's 37.8 for you celcius using folks). I know that's not that much for this time of year in some places, but in upstate NY, that's INSANELY HOT. The heat's supposed to come back later this week though, yaaaaaay. -_- At any rate, I grabbed a little tube of cocoa butter, so hopefully that will help. And hopefully I can ignore the fact that the smell of the stuff reminds me of a bad summer job I had right after high school. Whoops.

☁ I seem to have lost my keys. I have my spare set, so it's not like I'm locked out of anything, but it's still not good. When I came home from work yesterday I realized I didn't have them, but I can't find them at work, either. I hope I didn't drop them somewhere, but that's looking more and more likely. UGH. >_<

☁ For anybody that didn't hear, Borders is closing ALL of their stores now. I can't say that it's a surprise at this point, but it DOES suck. I mean... that's half the reason to go to the mall by me- and it's the only bookstore there. So much for my entertainment while Kelly spends ages in Victoria Secret. Boo. On that note, though, I should probably try to get over there tomorrow (*cough* later today *cough*) to see what they have left as far as clearance stuff... may be able to score some deals. If not, well, at least I tried. Might check out jewelry because I'm CONSTANTLY losing earrings or having them fall apart on me. There's also a new store that had some really cool looking dreamcatchers. The only potential problem there is. Um. Reaching them. Because I'm a midget. <_< And I hate hate HATE asking for help for things like that. Meh. We'll see.

☁ Had a song ping me, so I'm writing a little bit again. It sucks, but it's something. Also I finished making up the rest of the 101 in 1001 list that starts on the 30th. Hopefully this time I'll do more of the list. ^_^;;;

( Weight related, cut for those not interested. XD )

☁ Suikoden:
( Short this time, I've still been procrastinating finishing it. )

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☁ Finished Hana Kimi. SO CUTE. *_* Now I can concentrate on other things.

( Cut for bra/size talk~ )

☁ I own shorts for the first time in my adult life. Granted, they're to my knees so they're not particularly short, but still. Kind of strange. I'm not thrilled with the idea of wearing shorts, but it beats being downtown in the middle of June with a zillion people in JEANS. And dresses are just. So not me. XD I also found sandals that I don't totally hate and FIT for the first time in a few years. Mmm, Earth shoes. So comfy. <3

☁ This is totally awesome. Not only did a MtF transgirl run for prom queen- SHE WON. I can't even imagine having that kind of bravery in high shool. Wow. She looks absolutely stunning in the photo, too. Good for her! (As you might expect, don't read the comments, you'll lose all faith in humanity.)

☁ Also, a Chinese woman became the first Chinese person to ever win a Grand Slam singles title. Not that I have any interest in tennis whatsoever aside from the animated cracky physics defying kind, but still pretty cool! :D

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☁ I signed up for that class- which is both exciting and terrifying all at the same time. I was an idiot and hit the wrong button on the payment, though, so I'll have to send them a check. Annoying, but not a huge deal, thankfully.

☁ Asked for a couple of extra days off near the end of the month- a little four day mini-vacation. I desperately need it. Maybe it'll let me decompress a bit. I'm hoping to get some cleaning done somewhere in there, too.

☁ OH, speaking of work, I have to share this. The uniform shirts for work are smaller than standard shirts- you have to go up at least one size. So I've been wearing a 3x ever since they rolled these things out, right? It finally occurred to me the other day that I should probably get at least one smaller shirt, because the old ones? Are halfway to my knees now. It's a little ridiculous. I got Kerry to give me a new shirt, which turned out to be an XL. Which fucking FIT. It's tighter around the middle than I'm entirely comfortable with, but that's how the 3x used to be too (and I had refused to go up to a 4, heh.) And also I got told "It looks fine, stop it." XDDD

☁ In other news, my father called Kelly on Sunday. She'd written him a letter back in August, which I'd honestly forgotten about, so he called and left a voicemail. Weird. The whole thing is just... very weird to me. I'm happy for her- she's nervous, but if it's a relationship she wants to pursue, she should. As long as no one tries to get me involved, if this is what she wants, then good for her. I feel kind of... strangely detached from it, I guess? Though I suppose it's not so strange because it wasn't me he called. So I don't really get to have feelings about that. I just... don't even think about him that much anymore. He hasn't been a part of my life for a very long time- he barely registers as a blip on my radar now. I won't say that I don't care about anything relating to him at all- if I didn't care, then I would be able to forgive him for everything, because why would it matter? But I can't. I understand why he left. God, do I understand why he left. But I can't forgive the way he just disappeared the way he did. How he left Kelly and I with our mother KNOWING what she was like and just leaving us to fend for ourselves. He was a COWARD and abandoned us in hell... so no, I can't forgive that. While I wouldn't wish anything like death on him, I hope it's something that he thinks about every day. I hope he regrets it every. Single. Day.

☁ Put in a reserve for Hikaru at an RP that will be opening in a few days called Camp Candy. (Just the name is perfect for him, at any rate! :3) He'd probably be the easiest to start with, so I'm going to do that and go from there. The best part is that they allow AU versions of characters, so I think I can bring SW!Al there if I choose to. Later. After I figure out whether the RP is working for me or not. I've never joined an LJ RP all by myself without knowing anybody there before. I'm kind of nervous. XD

☁ Go shoeless today: One Day Without Shoes

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☁ Note to self: Edy's Slow Churned Light in the Caramel Delight isn't as good as Haagen Dazs' Dulce de Leche- but it's an acceptable substitute. Less calories for more, too- the Dulce de Leche is 290 for 4 oz, whereas the Caramel Delight is 190 for 5.8 oz. Sweet deal!

☁ Saw Tangled- it was cute, standard Disney fare, but it wasn't AMAZING!!! like I'd heard it was. A little disappointing on that score. For sheer entertainment value, I'd still rather watch the (somewhat) older stuff. Give me Mulan, Pocahantas, Hercules, The Lion King, Lilo and Stitch. (*cough* Historical issues aside for some of that <_< ). Disney does their best work when breaking their "helpless princess" mold. I just wish they'd do it more often.

...maybe I'm just getting old, I thought Princess and the Frog was "meh" too. XDDD

☁ Went to Juicy Burger with my sister for the first time on Wednesday. I've been hearing for FOREVER that they were ZOMGSOGOOD. I'll give credit where it's due, they make a mean chicken sandwich- which is grilled, by the way. They don't put mayo on it unless you ask. Plus it has two big slices of tomato and a bunch of lettuce. The worst thing there is the bun, so I can't feel terrible about it. SO GOOD. The fries, however, left a lot to be desired. Very greasy and they definitely could've been cooked a bit longer. Probably won't get those again. I don't mind splurging on fries sometimes- I love me some french fries- but they should at least be worth it, damn. XP

☁ Been listening to this song pretty much on repeat since yesterday... but I'm not going to tell you guys what it is, because it's pinging me a bit for the EVIL BG BUNNY and I don't want to make myself even more obvious than I probably would be if I end up including something with that. If I submit it for BG. Ehehe. ^_^;;;

Also if I end up doing some kind of weird Mulan/Hikago crossover thing at some point, I'm totally blaming my playlist. Just saying. >(

☁ Random stupid question to the flist: What's the difference between a crossover and a fusion? *headtilts* I've seen people refer to one or the other exclusively, but I've never been able to get a solid answer as to what exactly the difference is.

☁ I have some of the best friends EVER. Seriously, I love you guys, you're awesome. I'm so lucky. ♥

☁ Kelly's boyfriend and his parents got her a Kindle for her birthday. I am unreasonably jealous. XD I told her I'd pull some books together for her out of my collection, but I'd have to convert most of them, so we'll see how that goes. ^_^;;; On the upside, this will give me a chance to play with it before I purchase one for myself. Eventually. When I've earned it. :3

☁ Speaking of Kelly's birthday... my baby sister is freaking 25. HOW THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN? O_o

☁ I think I might FINALLY be losing in my chest. My bras are fitting weirdly again, mostly in the cup area. I'm kind of afraid to get measured though, because they NEVER give me good news. Maybe the next time I go get my hair cut. Possibly.

☁ I was reading something in a magazine at work today about how a lot of people have a vitamin D deficiency and don't know it- and how it can cause tiredness and lack of energy. It said that 100% of overweight women have NO vitamin D left in their system by the time March rolls around. Hmmmmmm. That could explain why I've been feeling so crappy and exhausted the last couple of months? Worth a shot, right? Apparently 2,000 IU is recommended for adults, but 5,000 IU if you're overweight (because fat sucks up vitamin D and so reduces how much your body actually gets to begin with, oh joy), and most people don't get anywhere close to that. When the store brand vitamins go on sale at work, I'll probably pick some up. Try it for a few months and see if I feel any better- the article said it can take 1-3 months before you start seeing a change. I mean god, at this point it can't hurt.

☁ Also learned today about supplements: Studies apparently suggest that Omega 3's could be as good as anti-depressants for some people. Hrm. Something else to look into potentially. God, I'm getting old. I'm already taking a multi-vitamin and cinnamon (supposed to assist weight loss and metabolism), though the cinnamon a lot more reliably than the multi, but still. Oh, and I try to remember to take Magnesium during my period because a doctor told Stef that the whole "my stomach rebels against everything I eat" thing during that time of the month could be a deficiency there, but most of the time I forget (so I have yet to figure out if it actually works or not). Edit: I forgot about the fiber gummies. Yes, I'm old and take extra fiber. My stomach is and always has been a finicky bitch, okay? XD Now we're talking about adding MORE vitamins to that. God. Can we backtrack a few years when I never even gave this stuff a second thought? ......on the other hand, I was also about 45 pounds heavier. Never mind. ^_^;;;

Current Mood: exhausted

- Messed around with my profile, because it's been bugging me for a while now. It's still too long, because it's me and I never shut up, but it's actually... kind of organized now. O_o

- I can haz gift fic~ The prompt actually came from a conversation we'd had about how friendship would just sneak up on Akira and Hikaru- all of a sudden Waya would make a comment about them being friends or something, and Hikaru would be all "Wait, what?" So yeah. Secret friends fic. <3

- Some drama with LJ randomly deciding it didn't like my credit card anymore (boo), but it's all better now. Yay.

- God, I really need to start walking again. The small amount of endurance I'd built up is completely SHOT now. Before, I'd started running a little bit on the way to work- not a lot, but a little. I tried that today, and god, I made it about five seconds before my body started doing that "Hey, you'd better stop, moron" warning thing. And my legs ACHED for the rest of my walk to work. Ugh. That's just pathetic, especially if I'm going to be even WALKING a 5k next month.

(Oops, gotta go, I'll see you guys later.)

Current Mood: rushed

1. BG reveals are up. This was... well, it certainly wasn't my best round, but it wasn't my worst, either. Which is kind of sad. *shrug* That's what happens when I wait until the last minute. I meant to comment on everything too, but I just... didn't get around to it, and when I got home from work tonight I really didn't feel like reading. I'll get to it. Maybe over the next couple of days.

2. Still haven't gotten an e-mail back about the apartment. Bah.

3. Finished Kuroshitsuji II. I can honestly say that I definitely liked the first season better, to be honest. I kind of feel like they should've just left it at season 1. Just... eh. It felt like the whole point of season two was fanservice and to milk the series more. But mostly the fanservice. Which I wouldn't mind, except the first season wrapped up so nicely that the second confused things unnecessarily. Plus as I said before, shota is definitely not my thing and they were pretty heavy handed on the Claude/Alois, even if it was one-sided sometimes. Seems I'm not the only one- season two gets a lower score on MAL than the first, and there's a significant difference between their listed ranks. I should probably read the manga at some point.

4. I haven't quite decided what I'm watching next- on one hand, I should probably work on the stuff that I've had on hold forever (Bleach, FMA Brotherhood, Hellsing, Hetalia, Naruto... XD) On the other hand, Lish has been trying to sell Fairy Tail to me. Heh. ^_^;;;

5. On a related note, SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I just found out that Hourou Musuko has started airing! *flail* Must. Find. Subs!!!!!

6. It's almost 3am and I'm roughly 300 calories below where I should be as a MINIMUM- but I'm not only not hungry, but nothing here even sounds remotely appealing. And I really don't have the money to be shopping until Thursday. I'd make macaroni and cheese, but by the time that would be done, I'd be ready to go to bed. Meh. Maybe I should drink some soda or something. Mmm, empty calories. Probably I should just leave it alone- it'll balance itself out over the next few days, I'm sure, and it's not something I'm in the habit of doing. Really, what I want? I've been craving fish of all things the last few days. And when I say fish, I mean the breaded and fried crap. I don't even like fish all that much- it's okay sometimes, but it's not something I usually seek out. Weird.

Edit: ( Cut for slight TMI of the female kind. )

Current Mood: lazy

I keep writing things up in notepad as I think of them and then leaving it for days at a time without posting it, so it just keeps getting longer and longer. Bah.

( Cut for a couple of images. Nothing huge, but still. ^_^ )

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☁ I transferred a good chunk of money into my savings account. I still left a decent amount in checking for groceries and this week's portion of rent and whatnot... honestly, probably more than I actually need, but then I do need to go get my hair cut this week. We'll see- if I have a bunch left over at the end of the month, I'll put in more.

☁ I'm probably going to start putting $50 in savings every week again. I got out of the habit somewhere along the line. That's bad. Not only does it keep my spending in check (because otherwise my brain will go "Ooooh, I have extra money, I'm going to get a bunch of things that I've been wanting and couldn't afford!" XD), but it helps me save for the bigger things I really, really want. Also a cushion to fall back on would be nice. If I was to be laid off tomorrow, I would be so royally screwed money-wise, and I'd rather that not happen. Plus I need to work on making sure I have money for deposit/first month's rent, that kind of thing. AND saving for that pesky reward system I have set up for my weight loss, which requires me to purchase shiny things as I hit specific milestones. I haven't had to worry about these milestones for some time now, since I've been more or less maintaining my loss, but I'm trying to get things going again. So. :D

☁ Speaking of weight, as of this morning the bathroom scale puts me below a number that shall remain nameless that I haven't seemed to be able to break for the last couple of months. I had been there, but gained about four pounds back. And now they are mostly gone again. :D :D :D :D :D (The Wii Fit scale, of course, is an entirely different thing, as always. Bah.)

☁ Also I've decided that I really, really want an e-reader. Honestly? It's part of the reason I shoved that money into savings. If it's in savings, I don't see it, and if I don't see it, it doesn't exist. That means I don't go to the Amazon website and order a Kindle just because I want one. Though staring at this PDF in all it's black text/white background glory and trying to read is making it really, really tempting. >_<

☁ That being said, I had decided a few weeks ago that I was going to start keeping a list of what I was reading again. I used to, and then I just stopped, somehow. Probably because I was reading a lot less. *cough* However! In 2010 I read a TON and didn't keep track, so this year I'm making a list. My goal for the year is 50 books read (re-reads don't count, but manga does), which considering how fast I read is a freaking JOKE, but whatever. Got to start somewhere, right? I've read four already, since the first, and working on a fifth. I'll grant you that none of these were particularly difficult reading, either technically or emotionally, but still. Considering work and sleep and the fact that I have to take numerous breaks because reading on my laptop for extended periods KILLS my eyes... yeah, I'm pretty damn proud of that. ^_^

☁ As far as writing is concerned... there is now yet another bunny in my head that I'm not sure I want to write. Ugh. I feel like it's been so long that I couldn't possibly remember how to do it properly. Or do the characters justice. Then I think that I probably need a canon review, and then some part of my brain goes "Jeez, wouldn't this be easier with your OWN characters?" And... yeah, it's just this continuing downward spiral. XD I should probably quit whining about it and just freaking WRITE something, possible OOC issues be damned. At least get me going again, you know? At one point I had decided that I would write at least 100 words a day. Maybe I'll try that again. I can do 100 words. 100 words of WHAT is more the question.

Current Mood: bored

I have felt like a whining whiny thing in the last several entries- yes, moreso than usual- so! A list of good things that have been happening! Or at least... a list of not-so-bad things! :D :D :D

1. The holidays are over and something resembling sanity has returned. Thank fucking GOD. I feel vaguely human again. ^_^

2. I also have the MONIES from the holidays sitting in the bank. :D (Realistically, I should probably put a good portion of that into my savings account so I don't do anything stupid with it, heh)

3. Yes, I work retail and they ALWAYS cut hours everywhere they can after the holidays. My hours, however, have not been touched. :D

4. Speaking of cutting hours, June, one of my coworkers that everyone HATES, has been cut down to one day a week now instead of two. That day? Tuesday. Guess who doesn't work Tuesdays? Guess who doesn't have to deal with June and her bullshit for the forseeable future? :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D This, guys, will make my work environment so much more pleasant, you have no idea. The mondays I would work with her were hell- and this would be the last day of my work week, so it was pretty much an "icing on the cake" kind of thing. Or in really bad weeks, a "the straw that broke the camel's back" kind of thing.

JOY. Seriously, guys, this is the best thing that's happened to me at work in a long time. *happy dances, throws rainbows and sparkly things everywhere*

5. I figured out that if I lose a minimum of five pounds a month- which is TOTALLY doable and reasonable as long as I quit slacking- I can be at or below my initial goal weight by this time next year. Assuming I stay on track with that, if I visit Erin in October like I did in 2010... the next time I see her, I will be roughly FIFTEEN POUNDS FROM GOAL. Wouldn't THAT be fucking amazing?

So overall, not all is bad, huh? :D

Current Mood: amused

☁ Reminder- Holiday Card Post HERE~!

☁ Worked for Thanksgiving, so nothing particularly special. They did bring in Boston Market though, so we had turkey and potatoes and gravy. Mmmmmmm. It was delicious. Totally worth working for, seriously.

I saw my Aunt Linda for a few minutes before I left for work... she loves my hair, apparently, and she went "look at how skinny you're getting!" XD She's a liar, I'm nowhere even close to skinny, but I guess I'll take the compliment. :P

☁ Speaking of work, it's kicking my ass again. Scott's father died, so I ended up going in on Wednesday... another six day work week, hooray! -_- Plus there was Thanksgiving and Black Friday and today was absolute HELL. Let's just say that the morning shift did nothing and we were left with all of their work plus our own. UGH. We totally busted our asses. I would so call in tomorrow if I thought I could get away with it. I'm just EXHAUSTED. Is Christmas over yet?

☁ I ended up spending a small fortune for the Black Friday sales... I really need to learn to stay the hell off of Amazon that week. Most of what I got was DVD's and various Wii things. Went a little nuts, but I didn't get more than half of what I had originally tabbed as a possibility, so I'm taking that as a plus. Before sales tax, it was about $180, but considering the amount of stuff I actually purchased? That's awesome. Also it really wasn't that much worse than last year.

Also hopped over to Threadless since they were apparently having a sale. They didn't have one of the shirts that I -really- wanted (this one), but I did get two cute ones (this and this). Including shipping that was $24, which definitely isn't bad at all either. XL in the men's- we'll see how that goes. If they're a little small that's okay, because hopefully I'll shrink into them at some point.

So overall I'm pretty happy, even though I apparently am a tool and forgot a few things. Oh well. I have some stuff bookmarked that I will hopefully remember the next time I go to order something from Amazon. Which probably won't be until after Christmas anyway.

☁ Haagen-Dazs' "dulce de leche" flavor is my new favorite thing. SO GOOD. Thank god they come in little tiny versions.

☁ I'm seriously considering getting a mattress in a box. God. Yes, I'm that desperate for a new mattress, but the other factor is that this way the delivery is then not going to be a huge production. Hopefully. And getting it set up is really easy, according to reviews. This is... probably another "after Christmas" thing. I probably would've gotten it with my Amazon order, but it was actually on the Walmart site and not on Amazon like I'd thought it was. Whoops. No wonder I couldn't find it. XDDD

☁ More and more TSA stories, some pretty horrifying like actual insertion through clothes, fondling through clothes, sexual harassment, the fact that menstrual pads are apparently a threat to security... the truly bad thing about this is that someone is going to have to sue, or TSA is going to have to try to arrest someone for refusal, and it's going to have to go to the courts. That's how our system works. The government pulls something stupid and then the Supreme Court has to say "Uh, no, you can't do that." But it has to GET to the Supreme Court first. That's the really fucked up part about this, is that something really bad is going to have to happen in order for this to stop... and even then, it's not immediate. It could take YEARS unless TSA gets their heads out of their asses first.

.............I think we all know the chances of THAT one happening.

☁ People are nuts: Guy hacks his mother to death with a sword and then says he was just killing the demon inside of her- warning, the story's pretty graphic. The guy sounds schizophrenic as hell, in which case you have to wonder how no one saw this coming. In this other one, a woman tries to cut in line and then threatens to shoot people when she's understandably called on it.

Man, it's enough to make you want to lock yourself in your house. XD

Current Mood: exhausted

( God, I went on forever. Cut to save your flist from the flood. XD )

Current Mood: amused

...holy crap, didn't I post anything before this? Oh, right, I lost it after lappy decided to overheat. Bah.>_< So let's run through some stuff, yeah?

☁Regarding LJ's recent fail: FAIL, LJ. COMPLETE FAIL. This kind of goes without saying, and I don't think anybody would actually be dumb enough to do this, but if anybody does the facebook/twitter link thing to anything on my journal- public or locked- you'll find yourself off my friendslist. Yes, I have a few LJ people on Facebook, but overall, these circles are separate FOR A REASON- just like I don't have my LJ linked to my facebook for a reason. I complain about people on my facebook here WAAAAY too much to want them to actually know about my LJ, okay?

☁FFXIII- Kait talked me through Odin and so I'm unstuck, at... Palompolum now. Am hating Hope a little less. Kind of wanted him to kill Snow. Need to play that more. :/

☁Work driving me crazy. I really, really need a vacation. So badly it hurts. Doesn't help that I've been totally exhausted lately, I'm getting over a cold, so... yeah. Fun stuff. Of course, that's also why I haven't really written lately... ^_^;;;

☁Have glasses. They're less rectangular looking than I remember them being, which is good. It's also totally possible that I just wasn't SEEING them correctly originally. XD Either way, they're not bad, and I have some sunglass clippies for them, which is awesome. Especially since when the sun sets at work, the light is directly in my face. People look at me weird for having sunglasses on for that little bit, but hey, I'm rocking it. :P

☁Still doing the maintaining thing weight-wise, but I've been snacking way too much lately even when I'm already full. I'm trying to curb this- I bought a shiny new electric toothbrush today, and when I feel I'm done eating for the day, I'm going to brush my teeth and hopefully that will keep me from running to get a snack every five minutes because my teeth are nice and *~clean~*. It's been working for a good 3 hours now, so... ^_^

☁Plane tickets are purchased- I'll definitely be going to Texas in October~ I even bought a new bathing suit for the occasion. The good news is that it's a 12-14 and it FITS! \o/ The bad news is that it doesn't fit my boobs. Not even close. D: So... I'll keep it and maybe it'll fit next year. Right? :D In the meantime... I guess I need to find another suit. I'm hoping I can find the one I had before so I can at least see if that still fits, but so far it's not turning up.

.......and clearly I need to go to bed if I'm misspelling words like "occasion". *stares at self*

Current Mood: exhausted

☁ Okay, yeah, I ended up ordering some bras anyway, since LB had a buy 2 get 2 free sale... and I really need decent bras to wear to work anyway. The ones I've designated for work are... really crappy, even more so now that they're REALLY not the right size. Besides, I never use my store credit card anyway- gotta use the damn thing every once in a while, right? :P

☁ I lied about the

queermail thing too- put up that post a little over a week ago. Whoops. Ah, well. ^_^;;; Post is here, for my own reference or if anybody wants to look at it or something.

☁ Officially back at SW with Al. It's nice. <3 I wasn't sure about how coming back would be- I'll be honest here and admit that there was a secret in RP!S in the last few weeks about being nervous about picking up a game they idled out of... yeah, that was so me. XD But I've missed playing Al and playing with those people, so I think it'll all work out. Only problem is I used Brotherhood screencaps for some icons, so he's all grownup looking now.... which means the old icon set won't work. Need to find more icons. :/ Also RP related is that my LJ Login is getting really ridiculous, so I'm trying to go through and delete some of the old journals I don't use anymore. The old Al one is gone, and I need to decide which of the other ones I'm not going to keep. I might just keep the other ones and just take them off the LJ Login, though. ^_^;;;

☁ Reading Junjou Romantica and realizing that Hiroki is a lot like me personality-wise. Some of the things he says are just like... "Holy crap, I'm in a yaoi manga." That being said, I think Misaki is still my favorite character, but the manga seems to have changed my favorite couple. It's Egoist now instead of Romantica.

☁ Ugh, it's so hot. SO HOT. Weatherbug says it's 99.1- and that's BEFORE the humidity. Heat index is 106. *dies* I haven't left the house since Monday. It's just... guh. And it's supposed to be just as hot tomorrow. You think it'll be really super obvious if I call in sick at work? Not that this will help terribly much, really. The heat wave is sticking around for a while longer. Dammit, mother nature, this is upstate New York, not Florida! Get your shit together!

☁ I think I'm a little addicted to Cake Mania 3 at the moment, heh. <_< Doesn't help that Final Fantasy XIII is pissing me off so much. Lightning keeps. Freaking. Dying. *growls* I'd actually be playing it now, but my controller is acting up even after I changed the batteries. *growls louder*

☁ So it's looking like I'll probably be going to see Erin in October. I really need the vacation now, but there's no way in HELL I'm going to Texas in July. Not happening. Anyway, unless someone's told her, she doesn't know that I've been losing weight. I think it would really be a lot of fun to try to lose as much weight as I can before that (I'm aiming to be down 60 pounds from start weight, which is just over 22 pounds away from today's weigh-in)... and shock the hell out of her at the airport. *snicker* Little bit evil, but fun. We shall see how all of that pans out. :3

Current Mood: hot

1. So I finally got around to actually sitting down and reading The Lovely Bones, which I've been meaning to do for MONTHS. Even with continually stopping to do something else distracting, it was a quick read. Verdict? Beautifully written, but depressing as hell. When I first saw the movie, I thought that they spent waaay too much time focused on the heaven bit and not enough on the living people bit. The book only reinforces that opinion, really. Heaven, death, is not the point. Life is the point. Horrible things happen, but life continues. Maybe not the way it was before, but it does, it has to for those of us that are left behind. What other choice do we have?

...now, of course, I need to decide what to read next in my pile of "been meaning to read" books. Hmm.

2. FMA manga is done. I... can live with the ending. I don't want to say much more to avoid potentially spoiling people, but... yeah. Roy's ending is a little too neat, though. I think that would be my sole complaint about how things worked out.

3. Speaking of manga, RAWR, where is the Hourou Musuko update? *pokes the mangaka with a stick*

4. Thinking about picking up SW again... though I don't know if it would be with Al. Probably. I miss playing him. Not that I was ever that active, heh. Character squatting FTW? On the upside, it would be a chance to create a not-sucky username for him. The only problem there is that I suck at coming up with clever usernames. Pfft. Also I'm not sure how re-apping would work. *groan* I hate writing apps.

5. Haven't been wearing my claddagh ring recently... it's weird. I have my reasons for it (mostly, I'm just not sure how to wear it at the moment), but it's just... I've been wearing the damn thing so long now that I feel a little naked without it. Problem there is that I don't own any other rings to replace it. Damn my fat fingers. XD

6. Possible TMI territory, but eh. Don't like bra-talk, don't read any further. :P

The band on my bras have been seeming loose, so I borrowed a tape measure and did some measuring. The Good News: My band size IS smaller- I've gone from a 42 to a 38. \o/ The Bad News: My cup size has only gone down an inch... so not nearly enough in comparison to my band size. There's a 10 inch difference between the cup and the band now instead of 7. Which means that I'm not even ON Lane Bryant's chart anymore. The highest they go is 9, which is an H. SOB.

Really, that just means that I need to go get measured properly... at some point. My old bras are still fitting more or less okay, so I'm not terribly worried about it at the moment. But GUH. This is the biggest thing I was afraid of with the losing weight thing, and now it's HAPPENING. If I end up with freakish measurements, I'm NOT going to be a happy camper. You hear that, body? CUT IT OUT. >|

Okay, I have to go get laundry out of the dryer and whatnot, so I'll shut up and stop spamming everyone about stupid stuff. For now. ^^;;;

Current Mood: hungry

Fail, Ver. Epic fail. Way to not post for a month. >_< I am still alive, just kind of... retreating internally, really, thinking about things... and concentrating on other things. Let's update, shall we?

1. I got my hair cut about... eh, three weeks ago. It's REALLY short. Really, really short. I've never had it this short. O_o I've been told it suits me, though, and the reactions were fun to begin with because everyone was like "WOAH." One of the supervisors at work saw me from a bit of a distance and didn't know who I was! XD I've only gotten two bad responses so far- one, predictably, from my mother who hates it... and one from a guy at work who made a dick comment about how it was a guy's haircut. Pffft. I mean, in all fairness, it CAN be. If I push the bangs back, it looks VERY butch. But I don't wear it like that at work, and the bangs definitely soften it. So I can have it both ways and I kind of love that. All in all... I think I might keep it. I think I'm still getting used to it because it's a HUGE adjustment, but I like it, and I like how easy it is. And I know it looks okay on me because the reactions from even people I don't know (customers at work) has been positive to the point of being overwhelming.

2. Still continuing on the weight loss thing. I've lost 16 pounds now, also considering that I'm bloated from my body hating me. (It's particularly bad this time around- I was so nauseaus yesterday I had probably about half the calories I should've eaten. Bad, I know, but I felt like I was going to throw up without even eating anything. No need to encourage things along. Felt just as nauseous today, but doing a little better on the food front. Still not what I need, but better.) I actually ran... well, jogged for six minutes the other day. That's a huge deal. That would've been impossible for me before. So there's improvement! I'm not seeing any changes besides the weight loss and the exercise thing, but it'll happen. ^^ Can't wait till my pants start falling off~ But first is hitting and holding under my first goal, which should be soon. Then I'll be able to get Final Fantasy XIII~ :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

3.

blind_go ... I probably should've just defaulted. Seriously. NOT my strongest showing this time around. You guys will see once reveals come up. *sigh* Serves me right, I guess, waiting until the day of deadline to really sit down and work on it. >_<

4. Coworker thinks I should get tested for endometriosis. The only problem with that is that it kind of requires surgery for a diagnosis, and on top of that, apparently most insurance won't even cover it unless you've tried to get pregnant and failed. Because, apparently, the horrifically painful periods aren't bad enough to warrant a diagnosis. Would I be willing to get surgery for something like that? Probably not, especially since it's a passing suspicion really, but it still pisses me off that it's not even an option. So, you know, whatever. That's so not happening. Something to keep in the back of my mind, I guess?

5.Started going through my books today in search of things that I'm willing to part with... because I do NOT have the space for all these books. Sigh. I have seven so far, but that's only the top two shelves of my big bookcase- that's not even including all of the other places I have books stashed. I know there's other ones too, so it should be at least 10. Maybe even closer to 20. This is... kind of painful, but I need to do it. At least start. There's books all over my room, so it's not something that's going to be funished until I actually clean the damn thing. Double sigh. The only question is, what do I -do- with them?

6. More fandomish stuff: I started watching Glee, because I kept hearing about it. My god. It's a TRAINWRECK. That's the only reason I'm still watching the damn thing- it's like when you see a car accident on the side of the road and you can't look away. D: Also, I think we've established before that I'm a masochist. XD I never really understood the big deal about autotuning until I watched this. It's horrible. It ruins the music for me. Bah. Which wouldn't be so bad if pretty much every character wasn't horribly written. All of them are either flaming assholes or completely two dimensional. Often both. *cough*Kurt*cough* So the show itself is bad on top of ruined music... NOT a good combination. People love this show WHY? DOES NOT COMPUTE. O_o

Also finally saw Sherlock Holmes, which I really liked. I came out of it NOT shipping Holmes/Watson, though. I see where people get that from, but... it actually screamed BROMANCE to me as opposed to OMG OTP FOREVER. Eh. Which is actually how Kirk/Spock in Star Trek Reboot hit me too. I would read fic if I came across it. But I don't ship it.

...does that mean my yaoi fangirl card gets taken away now? D:

Current Mood: nauseous

Pffft, I thought I'd done an entry more recently than that. I guess not. :P

Not a terrible lot going on- I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, which I'm working on a post explaining what's been going on in my head there. Probably why I'd thought I had done a more recent entry. XD

I received my income tax refund... eh... last week? So far I haven't done much with it except splurge on a 2TB external hard drive (it was only $50 more than the 1TB, what? XD). I... can't even fathom that much space, but I'm sure at some point I'll have it full. Just not for a really, really long time. It took me forever to fill my 500GB. XD Also on the list of things to get: mattress, FFXIII probably, possibly a netbook and a case to travel with the thing. Really though, it depends on how much the mattress ends up costing me. ^^;;;

Started reading Hourou Musuko last night.... finished what's out this afternoon. So yeah, 84 chapters in less than 24 hours. ^^;;;; I absolutely inhaled it and I need more. The adorableness is what hooked me, and now I'm just so in love with the characters, especially the two main characters. It's just... guh. Is the next chapter out yet? It's getting an anime too, I'll be interested to see that.

Also started doing some switch outs in my diet- water for soda (though I haven't been doing too well on the drinking on my days off, boo), grilled chicken instead of fried, that sort of thing. And using the Wii Fit more. I've lost 8 pounds and I'm not really doing that much... probably going to plateau at some point and I'll have to work out more, but for now, this is okay. ^^ I'm mostly just happy that I've lost the 8 pounds I gained while Erin was here. It seems to be working for me so far, so I'll just keep doing what I'm doing though. At least till it stops working. XD

Oops, gotta go. I'll hopefully have episode 2 of the Hikaru no Go bases up soon too- they've been uploaded to Photobucket, I just need to take the time to actually post them. \o

Current Mood: rushed

Fuck, it's cold. >_< I'm over at Stef's house currently, and... hell, why do I always forget how cold it always is here? *headdesk*

( This got unexpectedly long... sparing you all with a cut! )

Okay. If I'm going to get something to eat and shower before we've got to leave so I can get to work on time, I'd better go. Later guys~!

Current Mood: cold

( Slight TMI... )

2. I got hit on by an old guy the other day. *shudders* Ugh. Why is it always babies or perverted old men? XD

3. I've officially started buying healthier food. It's something I've been needing to do, really. We'll see how long that continues. First the food, then the ungluing the ass from the chair thing. Joined sparkpeople with the intent of actually using it- I know I'll forget to track stuff, because I'm like that, but there's lots of other stuff on there. And it's free, yay!

4. Eye appointment in a little more than an hour and a half. I kinda don't feel like going. Of course I'm going to, though, and a shower might change my mind a little bit.

5. I've been reading a lot of manga lately. ^_^ 3-7 of Loveless (WHY ISN'T 8 OUT YET, DAMMIT!)... well okay, that's it right now, but that's just in the last couple of days. ^_^;;; And only at work. On the other hand, the nintendogs have been neglected in favor of this. Meh. I've also got 5-9 of Fullmetal Alchemist and 1-2 of Prince of Tennis sitting on my bookshelves that I haven't even touched yet. And then there's a bunch of regular books that are the same- bought them, haven't picked them up. I should work on that. I can't keep buying books when I haven't even read the ones I've got. ^_^;;;

6. The first two episodes of Bleach were... weird. I finally watched it, and I'm like... "Okay, this is special..." XD We'll see how the next few episodes go. I'm a little bit intrigued now.

7. A co-worker is pregnant. I'm happy for her, because I know she and her husband have been trying. ^_^ I work with both of them, actually. Kevin's the one that told me. He amused me, though- he was telling me how Jess is blaming him for everything now. He was like "What? I did my thirty seconds." XDDDDDDDD Well... at least he's honest about it, I guess. XD

8. Computer's getting pissy. I think I'll turn it off when I go take a shower and go to my appointment.

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