Ooooh, Death Note

Huh. I've been trying to work on the blind go fic- trying being the key word here- and just haven't been able to concentrate at ALL. So I thought, take a break and get my mind off of it for a little while... I pulled up the first episode of Death Note on youtube and watched it, because I've been meaning to watch it and just haven't. AJDKSAHFJK. So brilliant. Creepy as hell, and I really can't stand Light as of this point, but my god. Amazing. The idea is incredibly interesting, and I can't believe that the artist is the guy who drew Hikaru No Go. I mean... the styles are just so... not alike at all. And this is so DARK. This is obviously drastically different from every other anime I've ever seen... why did I put off watching this for so long?

Stef is back from her trip to Spain, so she came over tonight and showed me her three albums worth of pictures. There was some cool stuff in there... but it sucks because she really didn't have a good time. She was with her mother, her aunt, and her teenage cousin... none of which she particularly likes. Pretty much the entire trip was spent in the car. Apparently. I feel so bad...

Okay. Must give myself a couple of minutes to whine here. AJDKSAHFJK. I am about THIS CLOSE to just pitching the entire fic and defaulting, it's pissing me off that much. And it's horrible. And I'm so stressed out about this whole thing even though I know that I just need a couple of good days like I had last Tuesday when I wrote some 700 odd words, because it's not like I don't know the general direction of where the fic is going, or like I haven't started it or anything. I've got almost 4k, and that's practically almost done. I know that. But... AJDKSAHFJK. I'm so frustrated with this whole damn thing. It's my own issues at work here, I know that. It has nothing to do with the actual FIC and everything to do with the fact that my brain is really sort of screwed up. And I'm not going to default because I'm determined to finish this- no matter how awful it is. I just... I don't know.

Gah. I'm sorry, I'm apparently in some kind of mood. I think I need sleep. Okay- so nap. Then fic. On paper, because I do better that way usually. I'm hoping I'll feel better after some sleep.

Thank You's, Memes, and Cris Tries To Be "Serious"

I've already responded to everybody from the last post, but I'm just going to repeat emphatically: thank you for the encouragement. I appreciate it so, so much, you have no idea. (On that note, I need to remember that people actually read this thing now. It's not just me and my hermit self anymore. Must remember to set these things on "private.") 

I do feel much better about the fic now than I did at 2 a.m., which is definitely a good thing. I've even gotten some writing done today! Granted, nowhere near as much as I would've liked... but it's still early yet. The point is that I'm past the most difficult part, I think. THANK GOD. 

On a more serious note, I will never stop being shocked and disgusted at the horrific things humans are capable of doing to each other. It's beyond my understanding. I can't possibly fathom how anybody could even begin to think that doing something like this is okay. I understand that this man was quite obviously mentally ill- and that this fact takes away any logic I might try to put into all this- but I can't help but wonder how, and why, and what the hell is WRONG with people today. But mostly why.

( Alright! Complete change of subject! How about... a couple of random memes? )