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I'm up doing laundry for a while (yes, I'm aware that it's 6am and it's snowing and windy and fucking cold outside, I need clothes that badly and I know myself well enough that if I can't count on actually waking up on time to do it before work. So 6am it is. XD), so I've decided I'm going to spam you all. Fun, right? I don't post enough anyway, so whatever. :P
1. I've been wanting to watch Prince of Tennis again, but couldn't justify spending the time rewatching that when I have SO many other new things I should be watching instead. However, I had a brilliant beyond brilliant idea today: I started working out again yesterday, though I didn't today because my legs are sore (ow)... I can watch PoT episodes while I'm doing the free step, which I usually do for a half hour. Fucking BRILLIANT, I tell you. ^_^ Now I just have to pull out Ochibi and get those episodes on the laptop. At least the first ones. :D
2. Watched Yogi's First Christmas for the first time since I was a kid- still fairly amusing. Kind of gag-worthy near the end, but most Christmas movies are. Just comes with the territory.
3. In good news, looks like we might actually get "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" thrown out. YAY! Although... there goes my excuse to not join up if there's ever a draft that they include women in. :P
4. I actually forgot to tell you guys this when I wrote last- I have yet another reason why I hate Facebook sometimes, because of the awkwardness it causes. So... this friend from high school, one of my best friends in fact, friended me about six months ago or so. Keeping in mind that the friendship didn't exactly end well, as he decided once he graduated that he didn't know any of us anymore. I tried keeping in touch with him for quite some time, but after not getting any responses back, eventually I just gave up. Anyway. After some waffling I accepted, figuring he'd never have the balls to message me anyway. He seems to be one of those people that friend-whores- I mean GOD, he friended KELLY and he'd always hated her. She gave him good reason (she was a complete brat to him), but that's besides the point.
Well. Last Monday I came home from work to discover that he'd actually fucking private messaged me. I still can't believe it. It'll be ten years in May since we last spoke. TEN YEARS. He was all "Hi, how are you doing", like people do, and then proceeded to update me on what he's been doing since graduation. Then he THANKED me for the card I sent him for graduation, and told me how impressed he was then with what I wrote and is still impressed now (I was in Wisconsin at that point, nowhere near my friends, so I wrote up cards for everybody for graduation.) I never got a response back then, but now he thanks me ten years later?! What the fuck is that? It's not like I even remember what I wrote, it was A GOD DAMN DECADE AGO! Then he tells me that if I'm curious what I wrote then, he can e-mail me a scanned copy of it, and what's my e-mail address by the way?
What. The. Ever. Loving. FUCK.
Nevermind that it's kind of weird that he either still HAS the damn thing, either scanned or physically, even though I never got so much as a "kiss my ass" in response until now. What the HELL makes him think I even want to talk to him at this point? I know I've said it several times, but it's worth repeating- it's been TEN YEARS. And that includes probably close to a year of me trying to keep some kind of contact through e-mail and getting snubbed (Yes, I realize he was probably busy with school, but he could've typed out even a few lines of SOMETHING at some point. I mean god, I still HAVE the e-mail I had then, even if it's mostly a junk mail box now. It's not like I missed it or something.).
At the end he said he'd like to know what I'm up to, but he understands if I don't have time, blah blah blah. It's not about the time, David, it's about me deciding whether I want to even get into this or not. Aside from that, there's a degree of embarrassment there. I never went to school because of lack of money, and haven't managed to get my ass back. I've worked a shitty retail job for the last eight years, which is not something I'm proud of. Some coworkers and I were actually discussing that the other day- it seems like this place just sucks you in. You go in thinking it's a temporary thing, you're just going to be there a few months or a year or whatever the plan is while you get your shit together- and then however many years later, you're still there somehow and you don't even know how the hell that happened. Anyway. SO not the point. It's kind of mortifying, especially after he was praising my writing skills in the message, you know? Though on the other hand, I -have- a job, which unfortunately isn't something everyone can say right now. So there's that. I don't know, I'll probably procrastinate messaging him back until I just don't do it, like I did with the last person that messaged me, because I'm socially retarded. Not to mention that there's clearly... still anger there on my part. ^_^;;; Meh.
Okay. This has gotten long enough and I plan on doing a couple of meme-type things, so there will be another entry shortly. \o
1. I've been wanting to watch Prince of Tennis again, but couldn't justify spending the time rewatching that when I have SO many other new things I should be watching instead. However, I had a brilliant beyond brilliant idea today: I started working out again yesterday, though I didn't today because my legs are sore (ow)... I can watch PoT episodes while I'm doing the free step, which I usually do for a half hour. Fucking BRILLIANT, I tell you. ^_^ Now I just have to pull out Ochibi and get those episodes on the laptop. At least the first ones. :D
2. Watched Yogi's First Christmas for the first time since I was a kid- still fairly amusing. Kind of gag-worthy near the end, but most Christmas movies are. Just comes with the territory.
3. In good news, looks like we might actually get "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" thrown out. YAY! Although... there goes my excuse to not join up if there's ever a draft that they include women in. :P
4. I actually forgot to tell you guys this when I wrote last- I have yet another reason why I hate Facebook sometimes, because of the awkwardness it causes. So... this friend from high school, one of my best friends in fact, friended me about six months ago or so. Keeping in mind that the friendship didn't exactly end well, as he decided once he graduated that he didn't know any of us anymore. I tried keeping in touch with him for quite some time, but after not getting any responses back, eventually I just gave up. Anyway. After some waffling I accepted, figuring he'd never have the balls to message me anyway. He seems to be one of those people that friend-whores- I mean GOD, he friended KELLY and he'd always hated her. She gave him good reason (she was a complete brat to him), but that's besides the point.
Well. Last Monday I came home from work to discover that he'd actually fucking private messaged me. I still can't believe it. It'll be ten years in May since we last spoke. TEN YEARS. He was all "Hi, how are you doing", like people do, and then proceeded to update me on what he's been doing since graduation. Then he THANKED me for the card I sent him for graduation, and told me how impressed he was then with what I wrote and is still impressed now (I was in Wisconsin at that point, nowhere near my friends, so I wrote up cards for everybody for graduation.) I never got a response back then, but now he thanks me ten years later?! What the fuck is that? It's not like I even remember what I wrote, it was A GOD DAMN DECADE AGO! Then he tells me that if I'm curious what I wrote then, he can e-mail me a scanned copy of it, and what's my e-mail address by the way?
What. The. Ever. Loving. FUCK.
Nevermind that it's kind of weird that he either still HAS the damn thing, either scanned or physically, even though I never got so much as a "kiss my ass" in response until now. What the HELL makes him think I even want to talk to him at this point? I know I've said it several times, but it's worth repeating- it's been TEN YEARS. And that includes probably close to a year of me trying to keep some kind of contact through e-mail and getting snubbed (Yes, I realize he was probably busy with school, but he could've typed out even a few lines of SOMETHING at some point. I mean god, I still HAVE the e-mail I had then, even if it's mostly a junk mail box now. It's not like I missed it or something.).
At the end he said he'd like to know what I'm up to, but he understands if I don't have time, blah blah blah. It's not about the time, David, it's about me deciding whether I want to even get into this or not. Aside from that, there's a degree of embarrassment there. I never went to school because of lack of money, and haven't managed to get my ass back. I've worked a shitty retail job for the last eight years, which is not something I'm proud of. Some coworkers and I were actually discussing that the other day- it seems like this place just sucks you in. You go in thinking it's a temporary thing, you're just going to be there a few months or a year or whatever the plan is while you get your shit together- and then however many years later, you're still there somehow and you don't even know how the hell that happened. Anyway. SO not the point. It's kind of mortifying, especially after he was praising my writing skills in the message, you know? Though on the other hand, I -have- a job, which unfortunately isn't something everyone can say right now. So there's that. I don't know, I'll probably procrastinate messaging him back until I just don't do it, like I did with the last person that messaged me, because I'm socially retarded. Not to mention that there's clearly... still anger there on my part. ^_^;;; Meh.
Okay. This has gotten long enough and I plan on doing a couple of meme-type things, so there will be another entry shortly. \o
