...Must take a break from the AkiHika hotness... *fans self*

[verloren1983]

(Yes, more blind_go. Uh... hopefully my need to whine will disappate as time goes on, because even I'm getting sick of listening to myself.)

I was a little stuck, which is why I didn't write anything yesterday... but I was on my way out the door in order to take the garbage out and a bunny popped into my head (*hugs the bunny*), so of course I dropped everything, literally, and scribbled in a notebook for ten minutes. Crisis averted... for now.

I also had to write the word "cock" today. *blushes* Ohmygod. I stopped just before actually writing it and wibbled about it for a good minute or so. And to have it there, in my own handwriting, is just... eep. This is SO embarrassing! Can't I just like... back out of this whole thing? *sees the death glare and shivers* Uh... guess not. Problem is, even though I have other Hikago bunnies running around in my brain, this is the only one that I can possibly stretch out into 5k. I'm just SO nervous/freaked out about writing porn. Seriously... it's the SMUT that's going to kill me with this challenge, not the 5,000 word minimum.

Random fact: I write better/easier when it's actual pen to paper as opposed to using a computer. I have no idea why. I also tend to scribble things in the margins while I'm writing. Sometimes they're stupid little doodles (because I can't draw to save my life), sometimes they're dialogue bits to use later... and sometimes they're just voicing frustration, like earlier when I was attempting to write but couldn't concentrate because of a nasty headache.

My computer mouse is acting weird, and I don't know what's wrong with it. It has brand new batteries... unfortunately, I don't know where my extra one is, so I can't hook that one up instead. *pouts*

By the way, I think I'm reading a few too many fics with Fuji in them... I seem to be slowly acquiring a Fuji muse, though he's still hiding in the background where I can't see him, but yet he's influencing my Hikago fic. It makes me extremely nervous. I'd like him out in the open where I can see him (and what he's doing), plsthnx, so I can better figure out exactly WHAT HE'S UP TO. It can't possibly be anything good. He made Hikaru just a little bit sadistic and gave Akira a bit of a violent streak in All That Matters... and now he's making Akira far more daring than he probably would be on his own. Honestly... how could the line "You'll just have to be quiet then, now won't you?" come from anybody BUT Fuji? (Well, okay, Draco- but he has no interest in interfering with the sex lives of Muggles unless he's shrinking somebody's dick or something) He likes these sort of games, apparently, messing around with my writing. Damn Fuji. (I can SO picture him just smirking at me right now, and thinking, "You haven't seen ANYTHING yet." ......ohgod.) *headdesk* I am in very deep trouble.

I also got a bit of dialogue for a Sora/Riku fic stuck in my head today (the bunnies have been out in full force... sorta weird...), but I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it, if anything. I'm not even sure if Riku's going to let me have it be something other than angst... *kicks the Riku muse* Fuck it, I don't feel like dealing with him and his emo "I don't deserve to be happy" bullshit right now. I'm not even going to bother trying to write that one up until blind_go is over.

Okay, Cris. You've done enough bitching, now put some laundry in the washer and get back to writing your porn. XD

(BLIND GO WORD COUNT: 1719 and counting, hopefully)

Comments

[sivullinen.livejournal.com]

I also had to write the word "cock" today. *blushes* Ohmygod. I stopped just before actually writing it and wibbled about it for a good minute or so. And to have it there, in my own handwriting, is just... eep. This is SO embarrassing!
I wonder if this is the reason for all cringe-worthy euphemisms you see in fanfiction? :D

But, yeah. I can feel your pain. *shudders*

I'm seriously starting to consider adding some smut to my own fic because then there would be as much need for as much plot, but...

Can't I just like... back out of this whole thing? *sees the death glare and shivers* Uh... guess not.
YES, YOU REALLY CAN'T. I'M CERTAIN THAT IF YOU'RE NOT DOING IT THEN I CAN'T DO IT EITHER.

Random fact: I write better/easier when it's actual pen to paper as opposed to using a computer.
Ooh, so you can actually... still use a pen? O_O *is getting way too used to keyboard* *has terrible handwriting*

I seem to be slowly acquiring a Fuji muse, though he's still hiding in the background where I can't see him, but yet he's influencing my Hikago fic. It makes me extremely nervous. I'd like him out in the open where I can see him (and what he's doing), plsthnx, so I can better figure out exactly WHAT HE'S UP TO. It can't possibly be anything good. He made Hikaru just a little bit sadistic and gave Akira a bit of a violent streak in All That Matters... and now he's making Akira far more daring than he probably would be on his own. Honestly... how could the line "You'll just have to be quiet then, now won't you?" come from anybody BUT Fuji? He likes these sort of games, apparently, messing around with my writing. Damn Fuji. (I can SO picture him just smirking at me right now, and thinking, "You haven't seen ANYTHING yet." ......ohgod.) *headdesk* I am in very deep trouble.
*starts laughing* *wipes tears from eyes* Oh my... I can imagine that so well... Hilarious :D

The result should be interesting ;)

[verloren1983.livejournal.com]

I wonder if this is the reason for all cringe-worthy euphemisms you see in fanfiction? :D
...the only bad one I can think of at the moment is "member", but that's probably because I hate it with a passion...

I'm seriously starting to consider adding some smut to my own fic because then there would be as much need for as much plot
*squee* You don't have to, of course, and don't think I'm trying to pressure you into it or anything, but that would be so totally awesome.

See... I actually LIKE my handwriting. ^_^ Though the weird part is that when I'm writing a story, after a while my handwriting tends to change. I kind of think that it's the handwriting of the CHARACTER, which is sort of creepy, yet sort of cool too. But it hasn't happened with any fanfic yet. *pouts* Maybe because all my fanfics are in the 3rd person?

The Fuji problem. Hmm. I'm trying to get him to go away (he's laughing at me as I type that), or at least lure him out of his hiding spot with some wasabi sushi... I don't want him interfering. Interesting, yes... but VERY OOC and I'm trying to stay away from that as much as I can. The boys need to figure this out on their own... (dammit, Fuji, there will NOT be handcuffs involved! It's their first time, for god sakes! And no, you're not allowed to "show them how it's done", either!).... uh, yeah. >_< I think my headache's coming back...

[sivullinen.livejournal.com]

(dammit, Fuji, there will NOT be handcuffs involved! It's their first time, for god sakes! And no, you're not allowed to "show them how it's done", either!)
OMG, this makes me think of all the possible HIDDEN SIDES of AKIRA. Because c'mon, I bet he could have some weird fetishes! Okay, he most definitely has a go fetish. But even weirder than that are possible (and amusing), too.

when I'm writing a story, after a while my handwriting tends to change. I kind of think that it's the handwriting of the CHARACTER, which is sort of creepy, yet sort of cool too.
TOTALLY COOL :O You really are channeling these fictional characters... ;)

[verloren1983.livejournal.com]

OMG, this makes me think of all the possible HIDDEN SIDES of AKIRA. Because c'mon, I bet he could have some weird fetishes!
Eeep! *hides* Okay, okay, NOT GOOD. Maybe I shouldn't have been trying to lure Fuji out, because now I'm getting the full effect of his evil "up to something" look. I hate evil muses.

I'm sure Akira could very well have some weird stuff going on in his head... I just don't think he's going to pull any of that stuff out the first time. (he'd probably like the idea of the handcuffs, though) And let's not forget the Hikaru fetish, and the stalking fetish...

[sivullinen.livejournal.com]

OMG YOUR ICON FTW.

I just don't think he's going to pull any of that stuff out the first time.
Yeah, I suppose he's way too nervous about it all to do anything weird :D Unless of course he has gotten his image of sex from weird magazines or something. Please let's not go there... *whimpers*

[verloren1983.livejournal.com]

(Heh. I love Kaga.)

No, no, we're definitely not going there. Bad place.

Oh wow. I really am going insane. I'm actually having full blown conversations with the muses now.

Cris: You are NOT going to talk to Akira!
Fuji: *smiles*
Cris: *attempts a death glare and fails miserably*
Fuji: You have to sleep sometime, you know.
Cris: *headdesk* Why do I even bother?
Fuji: THAT'S the spirit.
Cris: *headdesk again*
Fuji: You're going to hurt yourself if you keep doing that.
Cris: I'm going to HAVE to hurt myself if you go and corrupt Akira.
Fuji: I'm not going to corrupt him, just make a few suggestions.
Cris: ...
Fuji: What?
Cris: ...there's no way anything you suggest could be GOOD, Fuji.
Fuji: Hmm. Says you.
Cris: I'm the WRITER, dammit! It's my head! I'm supposed to have the control here!
Fuji: *eyes open*
Cris: *shudders*
Fuji: I wonder why everyone does that... ~Oh Touya-kun!~
Hikaru (in background): *glomps Akira* MINE!
Akira (in background): You're suffocating me, Shindou.
Fuji: Slightly dangerous, but it can--
Cris: *jumps on Fuji and clamps a hand over his mouth*
Hikaru (in background): ...huh?
Akira (in background): I don't think I want to know.

This made me wonder...

[sivullinen.livejournal.com]

Why all the Hikago/Tenipuri crossovers we get are just about Ryoma and Tezuka??

Re: This made me wonder...

[verloren1983.livejournal.com]

I seem to remember reading one that had Ryoma, Eiji, and Momo in it, but I can't remember what it was or where I found it. (it's probably in my monstrous 'to put on rec list' somewhere)... I think it was a WIP and hadn't been updated in forever, though.

...I don't know. *shrugs* Seems like Eiji and Fuji would be more fun. Eiji and Hikaru would be instant best friends and giggling and acting like complete spazzes. Akira would try to calm them down at first, but then just get jealous and sulk... and Fuji would have fun watching everybody and then whisper naughty things in Akira's ear once he got bored...

Meh. My brain is getting all crack!fic on me, I need to go to bed. >_

Re: This made me wonder...

[sivullinen.livejournal.com]

Seems like Eiji and Fuji would be more fun. Eiji and Hikaru would be instant best friends and giggling and acting like complete spazzes. Akira would try to calm them down at first, but then just get jealous and sulk... and Fuji would have fun watching everybody and then whisper naughty things in Akira's ear once he got bored...

And Eiji would insult go because it's boo-ring and Hikaru wouldn't let that insult slide. Fuji would probably ask for a game shidougo but then completely ace it (though that would have to be against someone other than Akira or Hikaru). Akira would be just "um..." all the time because of his amazing people skills.

I so wish someone would write crack like that :D

Re: This made me wonder...

[verloren1983.livejournal.com]

And Eiji would insult go because it's boo-ring Oh yeah. I always seem to forget about that side of Eiji's personality... I just remember the bouncy and adorable part. So it usually comes as a big surprise to me when Eiji says something mean on purpose...

Fuji would probably ask for a game shidougo but then completely ace it (though that would have to be against someone other than Akira or Hikaru).
OCHI! Send him to the bathroom, Fuji! (oh god, that just sounds so WRONG)...it would figure, though, that Fuji would own at something like Go. And it would be great to see an amateur beat the crap out of Ochi.

I so wish someone would write crack like that :D I know, right? That would be so much fun.