verloren1983 | Gizmo!

(Yeah, I made a new icon and just had to show it off!)

My computer is acting up at the moment. My desktop background keeps going "POOF!"... into thin air. And it won't let me put it back up or change it to something else. I've logged out and back in again, restarted the computer twice (this last time it was off for about three hours)... I have absolutely no idea what to do now. Grrr. Maybe it's not a big deal and I'm overreacting, as nothing else seems to be wrong with the computer, but... I can't help but worry that this is just a symptom of a bigger problem.

Mom called in tonight. Like that's a fucking surprise. I'm so sick of this whole thing... not being able to journal is a huge pain in the ass. Normally I'd just go into the livingroom and do a voice post, but guess what? Erin's sleeping on the freaking couch. Yeah, there goes that idea. Fuck.

You know what I just realized? Both of my OTP's have one thing in common: light and dark (figuratively, literally, or both). I mean, okay: Harry/Draco in Harry Potter. Harry has black hair, Draco has blond hair. Plus there's the whole "light side, dark side" bit. Same idea with Tir/Gremio in Suikoden. They're both on the same side of things, but we've still got the light & dark bit. Tir has black hair. Gremio has blond hair. Also, the blonds seem to be more... stereotypical. Feminine. Submissive for a lack of a better word, though Draco is anything but submissivein a lot of ways. Strange how that works. Even the pairing I'm starting not to mind (Sora/Riku in Kingdom Hearts... *half of brain shudders*), though it doesn't go by that exact formula, it's still similar. Sora has darker hair, Riku has lighter hair. Sora represents the side of light and Riku represents the darkness. The only major difference with this pairing is that I think Riku would totally be a top. No questions asked. He might let Sora top every once in a blue moon (I can see that happening, as Sora's a bad ass in his own right), but I don't think it's something he'd enjoy. Hmm. I think that I spend entirely too much time thinking about the sex lives of imaginary people.

On that note, I believe that my threats toward my muse are starting to work a little. I had a baby plot bunny for one of my original stories... not the bunny I need to snap myself out of the writer's block I'm in on a certain chapter, but... it's something, at least. Be grateful for what you've got and all that.

I should probably get to bed at some point. Meh. I'm wicked thirsty, though, I think I'm going to go get a drink first. Yeah. Anyway, later!

Quote of the Day: "You start to sense that slowly you're becoming someone else..." (Find Yourself)