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(Yes, more blind_go. Uh... hopefully my need to whine will disappate as time goes on, because even I'm getting sick of listening to myself.)
I was a little stuck, which is why I didn't write anything yesterday... but I was on my way out the door in order to take the garbage out and a bunny popped into my head (*hugs the bunny*), so of course I dropped everything, literally, and scribbled in a notebook for ten minutes. Crisis averted... for now.
I also had to write the word "cock" today. *blushes* Ohmygod. I stopped just before actually writing it and wibbled about it for a good minute or so. And to have it there, in my own handwriting, is just... eep. This is SO embarrassing! Can't I just like... back out of this whole thing? *sees the death glare and shivers* Uh... guess not. Problem is, even though I have other Hikago bunnies running around in my brain, this is the only one that I can possibly stretch out into 5k. I'm just SO nervous/freaked out about writing porn. Seriously... it's the SMUT that's going to kill me with this challenge, not the 5,000 word minimum.
Random fact: I write better/easier when it's actual pen to paper as opposed to using a computer. I have no idea why. I also tend to scribble things in the margins while I'm writing. Sometimes they're stupid little doodles (because I can't draw to save my life), sometimes they're dialogue bits to use later... and sometimes they're just voicing frustration, like earlier when I was attempting to write but couldn't concentrate because of a nasty headache.
My computer mouse is acting weird, and I don't know what's wrong with it. It has brand new batteries... unfortunately, I don't know where my extra one is, so I can't hook that one up instead. *pouts*
By the way, I think I'm reading a few too many fics with Fuji in them... I seem to be slowly acquiring a Fuji muse, though he's still hiding in the background where I can't see him, but yet he's influencing my Hikago fic. It makes me extremely nervous. I'd like him out in the open where I can see him (and what he's doing), plsthnx, so I can better figure out exactly WHAT HE'S UP TO. It can't possibly be anything good. He made Hikaru just a little bit sadistic and gave Akira a bit of a violent streak in All That Matters... and now he's making Akira far more daring than he probably would be on his own. Honestly... how could the line "You'll just have to be quiet then, now won't you?" come from anybody BUT Fuji? (Well, okay, Draco- but he has no interest in interfering with the sex lives of Muggles unless he's shrinking somebody's dick or something) He likes these sort of games, apparently, messing around with my writing. Damn Fuji. (I can SO picture him just smirking at me right now, and thinking, "You haven't seen ANYTHING yet." ......ohgod.) *headdesk* I am in very deep trouble.
I also got a bit of dialogue for a Sora/Riku fic stuck in my head today (the bunnies have been out in full force... sorta weird...), but I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it, if anything. I'm not even sure if Riku's going to let me have it be something other than angst... *kicks the Riku muse* Fuck it, I don't feel like dealing with him and his emo "I don't deserve to be happy" bullshit right now. I'm not even going to bother trying to write that one up until blind_go is over.
Okay, Cris. You've done enough bitching, now put some laundry in the washer and get back to writing your porn. XD
(BLIND GO WORD COUNT: 1719 and counting, hopefully)
I was a little stuck, which is why I didn't write anything yesterday... but I was on my way out the door in order to take the garbage out and a bunny popped into my head (*hugs the bunny*), so of course I dropped everything, literally, and scribbled in a notebook for ten minutes. Crisis averted... for now.
I also had to write the word "cock" today. *blushes* Ohmygod. I stopped just before actually writing it and wibbled about it for a good minute or so. And to have it there, in my own handwriting, is just... eep. This is SO embarrassing! Can't I just like... back out of this whole thing? *sees the death glare and shivers* Uh... guess not. Problem is, even though I have other Hikago bunnies running around in my brain, this is the only one that I can possibly stretch out into 5k. I'm just SO nervous/freaked out about writing porn. Seriously... it's the SMUT that's going to kill me with this challenge, not the 5,000 word minimum.
Random fact: I write better/easier when it's actual pen to paper as opposed to using a computer. I have no idea why. I also tend to scribble things in the margins while I'm writing. Sometimes they're stupid little doodles (because I can't draw to save my life), sometimes they're dialogue bits to use later... and sometimes they're just voicing frustration, like earlier when I was attempting to write but couldn't concentrate because of a nasty headache.
My computer mouse is acting weird, and I don't know what's wrong with it. It has brand new batteries... unfortunately, I don't know where my extra one is, so I can't hook that one up instead. *pouts*
By the way, I think I'm reading a few too many fics with Fuji in them... I seem to be slowly acquiring a Fuji muse, though he's still hiding in the background where I can't see him, but yet he's influencing my Hikago fic. It makes me extremely nervous. I'd like him out in the open where I can see him (and what he's doing), plsthnx, so I can better figure out exactly WHAT HE'S UP TO. It can't possibly be anything good. He made Hikaru just a little bit sadistic and gave Akira a bit of a violent streak in All That Matters... and now he's making Akira far more daring than he probably would be on his own. Honestly... how could the line "You'll just have to be quiet then, now won't you?" come from anybody BUT Fuji? (Well, okay, Draco- but he has no interest in interfering with the sex lives of Muggles unless he's shrinking somebody's dick or something) He likes these sort of games, apparently, messing around with my writing. Damn Fuji. (I can SO picture him just smirking at me right now, and thinking, "You haven't seen ANYTHING yet." ......ohgod.) *headdesk* I am in very deep trouble.
I also got a bit of dialogue for a Sora/Riku fic stuck in my head today (the bunnies have been out in full force... sorta weird...), but I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it, if anything. I'm not even sure if Riku's going to let me have it be something other than angst... *kicks the Riku muse* Fuck it, I don't feel like dealing with him and his emo "I don't deserve to be happy" bullshit right now. I'm not even going to bother trying to write that one up until blind_go is over.
Okay, Cris. You've done enough bitching, now put some laundry in the washer and get back to writing your porn. XD
(BLIND GO WORD COUNT: 1719 and counting, hopefully)
