verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
I've been called a Hikago BNF twice recently- once by someone I don't even know, but who apparently knows me. Can I tell you how weird that is? It's fucking weird. I'd ask if that meant that I need to start throwing random hissy fits and collecting minions to do my evil bidding, but the same things that probably make me a BNF also make at least half the of currently active fandom BNF's, so that probably won't fly. XD Guess I'll have to be a nice one. Come on, what fun is that?

(The minions would be nice, though, not gonna lie.)

Really regretting not asking for Hikaru/Waya for the Hikago exchange, because I've been hit by "ZOMG WANT THAT" really hard lately completely at random, and there's just not that much of it. Then again, asking for it wouldn't have necessarily meant I would've gotten it, either. Oh well.  Hopefully other people will write it and I'll be able to enjoy. ^_~ (Or, yanno, if people want to write it in the meantime, I certainly won't object. :P)

Speaking of the Hikago exchange: the good news is that I've reached the minimum word requirement, at least according to Open Office. The bad news is that it's nowhere close to done. What happened to my ability to write short fic? ARGH. (Well, okay, admittedly it would go faster if I wasn't going about it sideways, but that's what kind of has to happen with what was asked for, soooooo I'm doing my best to actually do what my recipient wants. ^_^;;; )

Pride was today. \o/ It was pretty fun, hung out with some people, though also overwhelming for someone as introverted as I am. I'm totally freaking EXHAUSTED now and it's honestly probably going to take me at least a week of avoiding IRL interaction to recover psychologically. (Notably, there was a table for a mental health organization or whatever- I grabbed a booklet on anxiety disorders. Heh. ^_^;;; ) On the upside, I got a really cute purple tank top with a rainbow butterfly on it. It's rainbowy but not in your face rainbowy. I'll have to try to remember to take a picture of it later. :D Also, Melissa Etheridge came over and did a song a cappella just for the hell of it since she was in the area for a concert anyway, which was awesome. In case you've ever wondered- she's amazing live. So now you know. ^_~ I also managed some free stuff, including a rainbow button with "Atheist" on it, some random stickers, and a few books. (For the curious-  Woman in Sexist Society: Studies in Power and Powerlessness, Two To Conquer by Marion Zimmer Bradley, and Boys Will Be Boys: Breaking the Link Between Masculinity and Violence.) I actually left about a half hour early and didn't go to any of the after parties- I thought about it, but the bottom line was that I was totally fried. So were the people I was with, so I would've had to go solo, which I'm not comfortable with anyway. It's just as well.

It's been a very rainy June so far, so naturally, there have been lots of mosquitoes out and I've been getting freaking EATEN ALIVE. Seriously, there are 8 bites just on my right foot alone. ;~; I've been trying to keep benadryl on the worst places which helps, but it still sucks and I'm still a mess. SO ITCHY. And I've been growing out my nails a little bit, so I'm doing a lot more damage by scratching than I normally would. One of the reasons I hate summer- bugs love me. Ver blood is apparently delicious. (And no, before anybody asks, things like Off that are supposed to keep bugs away have never worked for me, even when I was a kid. I would be outside with my family after everyone was coated with the stuff and I would literally be the only one getting bitten. Ugh ugh ugh.

And in other news, my diploma arrived in the mail yesterday! Wee! So now that's safely tucked away in its folder. Pretty cool. ^_^

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Saturday, May 31st, 2014 02:23 pm
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The promised five questions from [personal profile] chagrined ! If you want questions, let me know and I'll come up with something. Probably. XD

1. What is your favorite baseball moment in Oofuri?
Oh man, I don't even know. I love when Tajima is telling everyone when to steal, does that count? XD

2. What types of porn do you most like to write?
Hmm. I had to think about this one a bit. I think one of the things I most like to write is when there's some kind of back and forth exchange going on- whether it's struggling for control (*cough*HikaruandAkira*cough*) or talking or whatever. Consent is an absolute must for me, which is probably why you often see repeated checking in with my fic, sometimes even to the point of annoying the character being asked. Um...  I like writing blow job fic, for some reason? And I love writing penetrative sex. It's awesome (probably because *cough* that's how I feel about it in general? XD), even though yes, I know that not everyone likes it or does it and I try to represent that as well. I think that sort of answered the question?

3. What's a pairing you ship but have never written a fic for?
Uh..... Ogata/Isumi? I just have a hard time writing Ogata in general, really. It's why I rarely write him, and when I do, it's just a cameo. XD

4. What's the best vacation you've ever gone on?
When I went to go visit my older sister in Texas in... what, 2010? I went with my younger sister, and even though we were kept busy with all sorts of things (museum/beach/concert/etcetcetc), it was a lot of fun. I actually got to swim in the ocean! :D And I discovered the fun of multiplayer Super Mario Wii. :P

5. Do you have any entertaining injury stories?
I wasn't one of those kids that played rough- I was the kid in the corner with a book- so I don't really have many injury stories at all. I've never broken anything. The only thing I can think of is the time I sprained my ankle. This was YEARS ago. My younger sister and I were walking home from someplace, I don't remember where. It was winter. We saw a plow coming up behind us and didn't want to get a bunch of snow shoved on us, as plows tend to do on sidewalks, plus we were dumbasses, so we started rushing to get to a driveway or something to get out of the way. Well, I slipped and fell, and it turned out that I sprained my ankle badly enough that the doctor said it would've been better if I'd just straight up broken it. So yeah, that was fun.

I guess there was also the time that I was ridiculously drunk and went to lean back and accidentally banged my head on a coffee table REALLY hard. I woke up the next morning with the migraine from hell and so many bruises, I didn't even know what the hell had happened. I'm still not sure, and I'm not entirely sure I want to know. O_O

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Sunday, April 27th, 2014 08:52 pm
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Sorry, guys. RL ate me. XD (And will continue to eat me for another few weeks, not gonna lie.) As always, you're better off checking tumblr (same name) these days if you want updates more than once every month or two. <_< I actually hadn't realize it had been that long. Anyway, so let's take care of the updatey stuff really quickly, shall we?

A little rambly, but not too bad, considering )

(Edited because I forgot something.)

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Friday, March 28th, 2014 02:47 pm
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More media/fandom, because apparently the thing to do is to start a bunch of random stuff instead of doing actual work!

★ Did I ever mention on here that I signed up for shipswap? Well, in any event, I signed up for shipswap because I'm clearly INSANE and Liz is a dirty enabler. Naturally, I got matched up on the fandom I felt least comfortable with. Ungh. I have something of an idea, but haven't written much yet, it's still forming in my head. And I think I'll have to rewrite most of what I've written anyway, because the pairing I intended to write is... not the one my brain seems interested in doing all of a sudden. It uses some of the same idea, but since one of the main characters is different, obviously the fic will be different. Fuck.

★ Aaaand then there's blind_go, which I still have no idea what I'm doing for that. I've basically given it up as a lost cause at this point. The thing is, there ARE bunnies in the queue that would probably make the word limit, it's just having the time/energy to deal with them. >_<

★ Finished the anime of Oofuri. Thoughts, though not many because the second season was short:
-Still not shipping Abe/Mihashi. It's better where I maybe wouldn't mind reading fic of it (maybe), but meeeeeeh. Actually, that one word pretty much covers that ship for me. Meh. That may change as I get further along in the story with the manga, but as of right now, I don't see it happening- it's probably a safe bet that if I don't ship it even a little after two seasons, I'm probably not going to ship it. (LMAO, now watch me be wrong, since I've said that. XD)
-Incredibly disappointed that the fanboy only showed up briefly in the first episode of the second season. I WANTED MORE SHIPFUEL, DAMMIT. XD No, really, it's okay, I'll live. XD Honestly, what I've walked away shipping the most is Tajima/Mihashi. I dunno, BFF's are one of the things I tend to ship the hardest, and they hit that button SO MUCH. Even if it's totally casual and they're just fooling around, so it's not an endgame ship for me. I don't ship it to the point of wanting to write fic for it, but I'm not going to rule that out entirely, either. We'll see- but I'm certainly not going to promise anything.
-My first reaction upon finishing the last episode- "that's it?" I was so annoyed that they ended it there. XD Luckily for me there's the manga, which I'm working on downloading.
Aaaaand that's it for gay baseball for the time being. ^_^;;; I'm going to be honest and say it's probably going to be a while before I start the manga- partially because I'm otherwise busy, partially because I'm still downloading it, and partially because I'm on a video kick and not a manga kick- but I'll get to it. Mostly because I want that part where Tajima and Mihashi share porn and stuff, not gonna lie. XD

★ I've now watched the first two episodes of Game of Thrones, because it keeps coming up in conversation lately and so it's annoying to have to keep saying that I haven't seen it. I... think I'm too squeamish for this show. Fucking hell. I keep having to pause it or mute it and look away because I just. Urgh. I love Tyrion, like King whatshisface (see, me being bad with names isn't just an anime thing! XD)- though admittedly that might be because I like the actor- am so far neutral about Snow and um... climber kid (Bran?), and pretty much hate everyone else. I think I might grow to like the blonde chick with the creepy brother, though. We'll see. I'm trying to withhold overall judgment until finishing the first season, and then we'll see where I sit on everything and I'll decide if I want to continue watching it.

★ Started Nobuta wo Produce over again. I only ever got about an episode and a half through it before, so being that I've seen eight, I'm doing way better this time. It's... completely ridiculous, but generally not in a bad way except that literally all of the adults except one are fucking useless morons (and even then, she's nuts). Also the whole thing where Akira falls in love with Nobuta feels incredibly forced- he is SO crushing on Shuji it's not even funny. It's so obvious with how he's constantly touching him, even right from the beginning (and he doesn't do that with anyone else). I'm not really sure why everyone wants Shuji when he's scary skinny like that. O_o Seriously, he's skeletal, it's disturbing. Shuji is also a complete dick. XD Akira is irritating, but gets less so as the episodes go on. I only have two more, so we'll see. I'm honestly of two minds on this- sometimes I really enjoy it, and then sometimes I'm like, "fuck this show." XD

★ Also started Teen Wolf. It's um. *cough* It's as good as expected? <_< The only positive is that Scott is ridiculously adorkable (dumb as a rock, but adorkable)... otherwise, it has me facepalming from the stupidity approximately every five seconds. I'm still giving it a chance, but so far, I'm not holding my breath that I'll watch it for more than a season.

Okay, that's more than plenty for the time being, and I should probably get some reading done for English Lit anyway. (It's an actual STORY. Akira shock! XD)
verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
(Kept meaning to post this and then getting distracted by people/assignments/whatever. Oops. Anyway, for the December posting meme- [personal profile] degrees )

Talk about your writing process!
You mean besides that it's a mess? XD It's not so much a process as "Ver makes everything up as she goes along." Alright, well, I'll try and pull something together here.
 
When I get a bunny, regardless of whether it's something that was brought on by music or something else, usually it's just a small snippet of something. An idea for a part of a scene if I'm lucky, but usually I'm not and it's a line or two of dialogue. Unfortunately, what the bunny started out as gives no indication of how long it's going to end up being- "The Devil You Know," which is somewhere in the ballpark of 10k words and is my longest fic to date by FAR, started off in my head as just a scene of Hikaru and Akira seeing each other at a club. That's IT. Even the simple ones can grow completely out of control.  The bunnies just start multiplying on their own, I don't know how they do that when there's only one of them to begin with. Apparently plot bunnies reproduce asexually? I don't know.
 
As far as actual writing goes, I tend to write things as they come to me, which is usually not in any coherent order. The initial bunny is somewhere in the middle? Okay fine, I guess I'm writing that first. The next bit is the end? Alrighty then. I don't generally use filler text, either, unless there's something important I'm intending on putting there that I may forget about later. I mostly work in Notepad, so what this means is that if you looked at a story I'm working on, you probably wouldn't know what was happening half the time. It's just a jumble of seemingly random paragraphs, large spaces, and some short dialogue sequences. (The large spaces typically mean that I'm making a separation between what comes before it and after it- there's a scene change, but I'm not done writing the previous scene yet.) It's kind of a mess, to be honest. Sometimes I work in yWriter and that makes it a bit easier as far as keeping the bits separated. I tend to use Notepad because regardless of what kind of machine I'm on, everything can open a txt file. Even my phone. :P I know at this point it's outlived its usefulness, because everything I use will also open ODT/RTF files, but ehhhhhh.

So basically, what ends up happening is I have to figure out how all the pieces I have fit together. This happens along the way, it's not like I write all the pieces and am then staring at it trying to get it to go together like a puzzle. It's like... I'm making a quilt, and I have some of the squares made up already and know where I want them, but I'm also making things as I go. Often, I find that scenes naturally go together without a lot of effort on my part, but every once in a while I have to kind of nudge things along in the right direction. You can usually tell when I do this. XD

Also, I reblogged something on Tumblr yesterday that really applies to this post.

(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)




Writing Habits

Saturday, December 28th, 2013 11:14 pm
verloren1983: (Cute)
(for the December posting meme- [personal profile] februaryfour )

Writing habits, do you have them?
I have to admit, not-writing is more of a habit than writing, these days. XD Hmm, let's see. While I will still write on whatever's convenient at the time, these days it's almost exclusively on the computer. Which is both a good thing (no re-writing into notepad necessary, plus not losing the paper) and a bad thing? I find that switching it up usually has a good effect on ideas, so I should probably do that more. I'm trying to think of things here that won't trample on a later question about my writing process. XD I absolutely CAN NOT write porn if there's someone else in the room. Procrastination is a huge writing habit. Um... I like to have music on when I write. It inspires me, sets a mood... however, this also can be bad, because if a song comes on that brings on a completely different mood than before, it can inspire a new bunny/direction for the fic. That happened to me just recently, actually. BE CAREFUL WITH MUSIC. That being said, I do tend to have particular songs permanently connected in my mind with particular fics. Not all of them, mind, but some. It's usually the song or songs that helped inspire/shape the bunny to begin with, but not always. Some fics even have multiple songs- there's a fic in my bunny folder that has Happy by Saving Jane, Mr. Know It All by Kelly Clarkson, and Dirty Little Secret by All American Rejects- yes, it's a very happy fic, how could you tell? XD. There's another one that comes directly from It Gets Better by Tondrick Hall and can't POSSIBLY end well. Oops.

Speaking of oops, this whole thing basically ended up being about music. Heh. ^_^;;;


(Oh yeah, if you have a question/topic/whatever for me, the original post is here!)


verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
It's been a while again since I've written, so I figured I'd check in and let those of you who don't follow me in other places know that yes, I'm still alive. See? Alive. :D So what's been happening? A lot of work, a lot of procrastination. I spent the morning sorting out the (admittedly, all over the place) fantasy section of my e-book folder instead of trying to write a story that's due Tuesday. You know, the normal. Oops. XD I also don't have internet at home right now, which complicates matters. This got really ridiculously long, mostly because of the school sections, so I'm just going to section the school stuff off for you guys by cuts. Which I don't normally bother with, but, well... you'll see. XD

☁ In case you're in Hikago fandom and didn't see my spamming, there's a new blind_go mini round out- GO SIGN UP. NOW.

☁ The new Phoenix Wright came out a couple of weeks ago. I feel so behind- I only just barely started case 4. I have Thoughts on it, which are partially good and partially ragey, but I'll hold off on getting too into those until I actually finish the game. So far... it's not that different from the others, concept wise. I can basically boil everything down to a short list of "things I've learned from the Ace Attorney games"
1. Prosecutors get away with EVERYTHING.
2. Don't become friends with a lawyer ever- you'll eventually end up dead or falsely accused of a crime, probably murder.
3. LGBTQ people are ridiculous/offensive/disgusting/only good for comedic relief/figments of your imagination/terrible people/any combination of the above, depending on the particular plot device service they're providing at the time.

☁ Midterms grades were fine- 4.0 for the semester so far. As usual, I just need to keep it there. ajdklsajd.

Wibbling About the Future- Transfer Schools )

Wibbling About the Future- Classes )

Wibbling About the Future- Minors )

Wibbling About the Future- Jobs )

And last but not least... the Salem trip )

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Sunday, September 8th, 2013 12:19 pm
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☁ ID's are out and fics are due for BG in about 2 weeks. Um. It might be time to think about writing something? XD To be honest, I do have an idea I've been kicking around, but it's something that I'm thinking about writing it as a short story for Creative Writing, since I have my first story due at the same time as BG. So I'm not sure if that's really a good idea. But I might not do it anyway, because the story is supposed to be 3-5 pages DOUBLE SPACED and that's basically nothing, so I don't know that I have enough space to do what I want with it for the assignment anyway. Meh. :/

☁ I actually did another one of those reviews! I recently replayed 400 Days to fix a couple of the stupid things I did in the first playthrough, so I wrote about that a bit. It is here. The cool/exciting but scary thing is that I've done two of these reviews and I already have two followers on that blog. O_o Oh. And by the way, if you've even sort of been thinking about trying The Walking Dead, it's on sale on Steam till tomorrow. It's normally $25 for the first five episodes and then $5 for the 400 Days DLC- right now it's 6.24 for the main game and 2.49 for 400 Days. I'm not actually sure how the PC version compares to the xbox version, but either way it's a steal. Just sayin'.

☁ We haven't even had a meeting for Pride Alliance yet and the drama is already starting. Ungh. First of all, we don't have a room yet. So not only do we not have a place to GO, I can't make any flyers to get new people in until that happens. Ungh. Shouldn't that have been done, I dunno, before the start of the semester? Maybe that's just me. THEN there's the logo stuff. I don't know if I ever talked to you guys about that, but basically, last year this guy made a logo for us. Not only was the file really low quality (seriously, anytime we used it at any size that was readable, it was all pixellated and it drove me up the WALL)... the guy who made it was a complete tool and there was drama there. Oh yeah, and Marcus made jokes about it looking like we were a gay communist group, so you can imagine what the logo looked like. XD It's also important to note that the logo had a rainbow gradient to it, we'll come back to that in a bit.

So this year I want a new logo for the flyers. I was like, okay, I'll mock up a couple of things and I'll show you guys what I've got. Meanwhile, The Tool is going, "I still have the logo from last year." Uh, no. So I posted two potential logos- one is a heart with a rainbow gradient, and the other is a standard rainbow with clouds. Nothing groundbreaking here, I wanted it to be fairly simple and recognizeable. Apparently people last year didn't know what the hell the logo was supposed to be, so. Anyway. I saw The Tool at lunch the other day and he was saying that the logos I made weren't inclusive. He felt excluded by the use of the rainbow. I'm like... what? YOU DID THE SAME FUCKING THING. So okay, it's fine if YOU use a rainbow, but if I do it, it's exclusionary? WHAT? I think part of it is that he has a gigantic ego and I'm not feeding it, so he's pissed. God forbid we not use the logo that HE made. But he's also kind of insane (for example, he's one of those Otherkin jerkoffs), so it's totally possible that he actually BELIEVES that as a pansexual genderqueer person, if he uses a rainbow it includes everyone, but since I'm a gay semi-androgynous person, I'm only talking to gay people. Funny how that works. The rainbow is an easily recognizeable LGBTQ symbol, so that's the best to use- and we can't POSSIBLY use the colors/symbols for all of the individual groups because there's a million of them. It's a flyer, not a packet, JFC. If nothing else, though, I know that Marcus is on my side. Partially because we're friends and partially because he really does like my logos over The Tool's. :)

It's going to be a long fucking year, you guys.

☁ Also, I've started watching United States of Tara and LOVE it. I'm almost done with the first season and I just started it yesterday afternoon. (Of course, it helps that it's a half hour show and not hour long episodes, but still. XD)

Anyway. I have to see about fooding and then studying a bit for a Stats test I have tomorrow, and hopefully writing SOMETHING for a bit. Later~ ^_^

31 Days Meme, Day 22

Thursday, August 22nd, 2013 03:37 pm
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22. The best thing to happen this year
First place for a story I wrote at the last freaking minute. I still don't actually believe that one.

More random... )

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18. The meaning behind your blog name
I have this as a line in the sticky note on both journals, but whatever. So. This was around... senior year of high school or maybe the year after that? So I was 18 or 19, and trying to figure out a new username that my family didn't know. I know this is going to shock you all, but when I was a teenager I was an angst bunny. XD And being the angst bunny that I was, I took one of my most prominent feelings at the time- that I was lost- and put it into a translator to see what came up. I decided that the Dutch "verloren" sounded the coolest, so that was my new username (I discovered later that it also means the same in German). I've often had to add some version of my birth year to it because usually just verloren is taken.

Honestly? I've thought about changing it. I really have. But for one thing, it's too much work to change my username or get a new account EVERYWHERE, and also... this is the name everyone knows. I half suspect that even if I changed it, everyone would still call me "Ver" anyway. So then the point is what, exactly? XD


☁ Watched ParaNorman today. I wasn't really expecting to like it, but it was cute. ^_^

☁ The 1am thing yesterday didn't happen- I'm hoping for today- but it was in the interest of a good cause, hopefully. I uh, kind of realized yesterday that I have NO online presence as a writer, at least nothing that's semi-professional (and by semi-professional, I mean not fanfic or a personal journal like this, at least. My standards are not terribly high for "semi-professional." XD). So. I figured that I should probably work on that. It can't HURT, at any rate. I apparently made a Wordpress account at some point, so I used that to make a new blog and put up a post on it. Here we go. Mainly it's going to be video game reviews, I think, and gaming topics in general, because that's a pretty reliable source of material. And because my dream job basically involves me wearing jeans and a t-shirt to work and getting paid to play games and write about them. XD Not that there aren't a million gaming blogs already, BUT this will be a kind of online sample that I can use. Probably. If I don't stop poking at the writing, anyway. I'm hoping for a once a week schedule, but we'll see. I think by now we all know how things with me and planning go. XD

31 Days Meme, Day 17

Saturday, August 17th, 2013 10:24 pm
verloren1983: (*Blush*)
17. What is your most proud moment?
I think this is another stupid question. Once you get past... oh, I don't know, high school, you realize that life is a series of moments, a series of decisions, and you can't reasonably pick out one single one that you're most proud of or most ashamed of or would most like to change or whatever the question is, because everything is interconnected. So questions like this kind of piss me off. As far as answering the question... this whole last year was a part of my proudest moments- those are the decisions that led me to finally go back to school and do well.

Mostly random stuff )

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Thursday, August 1st, 2013 06:08 pm
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
☁ Turned in BG. Managed to pull off two fics, somehow, I don't even know how that happened. It was originally all part of the same idea, sort of, but... eh, it's complicated. Anyway. I was Vanessa and wrote two Hikaru and Waya fics- one pointless gen and the other smut. *shrug* I was terribly obvious and didn't bother to hide it. I was hoping that the pairing would throw people off at least a little, but uh, I guess not. XD Guessing didn't turn out too bad, though! 5 out of a possible 8, which is my best showing BY FAR- I have been known to get zero right, after all. Of course, if I'd actually looked a little more closely at some of the hints posted later on, I would've realized that a couple of my guesses were obviously wrong, but whatever. XD

☁ Somehow got talked into trying Naruto again, but of course I was only 7 eps into it to begin with and that was ages ago, so I just started it over. It's. I dunno. Kind of obnoxious. I can see why I didn't really feel a push to continue it before.

☁ The book cataloging is getting ridiculous. I've been taking a break, so there's still everything on my bookshelf at this point plus what's in the closet and whatever else I find that I'm not seeing right now- but the manga should be done, anyway, minus the first 13 of Hikago. I'm up to a total of 174 books and not even close to done (we won't even discuss how much of that is manga). I think I have a problem, you guys. XD Also recently I had decided to try and organize my ebook folder, because that's a huge clusterfuck, and all I can really say about that is... holy GOD, why did I do that to myself? I don't even know how it got like that.

☁ Money stuff for school is mostly taken care of, I'm waiting for the last grant form to go through, but it's nothing that's a huge deal right this split second. Like I can pay my bill and stuff without it, anyway. Re: school stuff, now all I have to do is get my certificate of residence (I'd like to do that tomorrow, tbh), pay my bill (by the 15th, but would like to do it next week to get it done and over with), get my books, and figure out exactly where my classes are and how tight I'm pushing my transport time on a couple. So that's coming along nicely.

☁ As far as RL circumstances... not a lot has changed, for good or for bad, at this point. I've been taking a bit of a hiatus on the cleaning because I've basically felt like shit the last week (yay for being female- not), plus being distracted with other things, see next cloud bullet, but I'm hoping to get back on track in the next couple of days.

☁ So remember how my laptop was overheating and I wasn't sure if it was the heat or something else? It was something else. -_- After some investigation, I discovered that the fan was no longer working. I'm not comfortable taking apart the laptop, since I can't get to the fan without pulling apart the ENTIRE thing (which is stupid but whatever), and it's not worth paying Best Buy $200 bucks to put a new fan in a four year old laptop, soooooo as much as I didn't want to spend the money and didn't want Windows 8... I didn't have a whole lot of choice in the matter. I bought a new one. XD I have named it Phoenix. :3 It was less than the previous one, under 400 before tax, so that wasn't bad. I've been super good about money over the summer, so I'm not going to beat myself up over spending the money or anything. Specs wise, I just wanted something that was at least as good as what I already had for relatively cheap, which was actually more difficult than you might think? Go figure. Sooooo I have another Toshiba- because fuck, I beat Haru all to hell and it still lasted four years, and above all else I did not want a Lenovo (very bad previous experience with IBM, and Kelly having to replace her Lenovo laptop TWICE since March does not help my opinion of them. I told her not to get a damn Lenovo. But nooooo, she didn't want to listen to me. Pfft.) Anyway. I still hate Windows 8, but I knew that already. Classic Shell makes it bearable, fyi if anybody on the flist ends up having to deal with this OS, though I still keep triggering stuff to pop up by accident. Grrr. The keyboard is pissing me off, at least until I get used to it. So there are minor frustrations with it, but that's true of any new device, especially with something like a laptop. Mostly I love it. It does what I need it to do (including connecting to the internet without a problem, which I was nervous about after the netbook), zips along speedily, and so far has handled everything I've thrown at it with grace. (It IS worth noting, though, that the "max temp" on Phoenix is significantly lower than it was on Haru- Haru's was 212, on Phoenix it's 194. Go figure.)

I think my favorite thing about it, though, is that it's a definite upgrade. I've said before that my laptop was hardly state of the art when I got it (and neither is this)- but you know that rating system Windows has? Old lappy was something like 3.3 or 3.5. This is 4.8. In both cases, the score is based off of the graphics card and everything else is AT LEAST a full point higher. When I turned on the Sims to double check that my saves would work, I was like, holy shit, they look like that? O_O It runs so much smoother now, without all the jerkiness and lag, and there's so much more detail. Like wow. Amazing.


Okay, I need to shut up and just post this already, so. Next time~!

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Saturday, July 20th, 2013 06:46 pm
verloren1983: (Cookies)
☁ BG- It's um, going. Sort of. There is a not even half baked idea, and there are words, at least? We'll see. <_<

☁ It's been BRUTALLY hot and humid for the last week or so, but thankfully it's about 15 degrees cooler today and the humidity is supposed to FINALLY break overnight, last I heard. Thank god. Seriously, the other day it was fucking 97 with a heat index of 106. And yes, I know to some people that's not a big deal, but I live in freaking upstate NY. IT'S A BIG DEAL HERE. When it's hotter here than in Miami? Or AUSTIN? There's something wrong. I saw a thing on facebook the other day where somebody was like, "I think NY weather is broken" and that about covers it. It was seriously hellish. Kelly went up to the boyfriend's house last night (she even tilted her fan towards me before she left, heh), so I took the opportunity to strip down to my underwear and slept that way. I woke up feeling nice and cool, it was GLORIOUS.

☁ Speaking of heat, my laptop has... not been dealing with it well. Like it turned itself off several times the other day because it was overheating. I'm not entirely sure whether it's the heat/humidity or whether it's something more serious, like the laptop is dying, but in the meantime I'm attempting to find my cooling mat and taking "keep temperature down" measures- blew out the vents/fan/everything I can get to, energy consumption is set to power saver, the battery has been taken out, have the vents pointed at my fan, and I'm trying to run as few things as reasonably possible. Right this split second it's running around 150, which is pretty normal, but again, that's with all that stuff going on AND it's cooler today, soooooo I dunno. I really don't want to buy a new laptop. :/ (Mostly I don't want Windows 8) It wouldn't be AS big of a deal, considering I have the netbook, but home internet hasn't worked on the netbook ever since the cable company changed our router box. :/ I copied a bunch of stuff to the external HD anyway, in any event.

☁ It's mostly been too hot to clean really, but I did get the giant pile of crap in front of the closet cleared out, so I can actually- gasp- get in it now. Shocking, I know. In theory, that should make it easier, but now that I don't have a clear directional goal (like "get to the closet"), I'm feeling a little lost. But I guess... as long as I keep chipping away at it, it doesn't matter, really.

☁ Anime: Not a whole lot happening there. I knew I'd burn myself out eventually, because that's what I -do-, and it seems like that's what's happened. I'm still watching the new stuff as it comes out (Free is still fun, Brothers Conflict is still terrible, Silver Spoon I haven't really made up my mind about yet), and I managed to watch another ep of Tsuritama (it's still weird), but that's really about it. But this is normal. I'll cycle through some other media for a while before I come back to inhaling anime again. ^_^

☁ I did watch a couple of episodes of Doctor Who, so I'm now a few episodes into series 5 now. After seeing a few episodes with 11... I think I like him. :D Also of interest- as 11, Matt Smith is incredibly dorky looking. And not in a good way. He's apparently had a haircut, and he doesn't even look like the same person. Turns out he's totally adorable in a cute nerdy sort of way! O_O *was not expecting that*

☁ Oh, and I played The Walking Dead special 400 Days thing (I don't know if I mentioned it here, but I purchased the download for my xbox, but I won't do that again for season 2- I just don't have the hard drive space on that machine. I'll have to wait on season 2 until they put a disk out. Sadface.) My overall reaction was that I wish they'd picked one or two characters and stuck with them, instead of introducing five in such a short time span. You didn't really get to know anybody, really- though I like what I saw of Wyatt and Russell. Of course, those were the two that decided to opt out at the end. Argh. >_< So I actually have to go through it again... which is okay, because I did some stupid ass shit with Wyatt anyway. Seriously. There's a point where you have the option to try and drag this half-dead guy back to your car or leave him to get eaten by walkers, and for some ungodly reason I was like, yeah, let's drag him. Kelly was watching me play and was like, ".....what are you DOING?" "I DON'T KNOW, OKAY?" Which I guess... is one of the most interesting things about the game, really, since they give you no time to think about your decisions- you just have to go on your gut instinct. I tend to not always think things through to potential consequences, and my decisions definitely tend to lean more towards mercy and helping whoever I can when possible. I'd give examples, but spoilers. :P Which... yeah, can result in some really stupid choices as far as keeping myself/my group alive and safe. Whoops? XD

And on that note, I may or may not lie down for a bit because I have a migraine that doesn't want to go away (usually only napping cures those), and then it's some grownup stuff like laundry and figuring out what to make for dinner, and cleaning. Hopefully working on/finishing this thing for BG. Maybe. XD



verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
Okay. So I know I owe you guys a legit update entry at some point, but I did want to make sure that I documented this one thing before I inevitably forgot to.  ^_^; So when I got that e-mail that said I'd won that writing award, it came with an invitation to a ceremony for the people being published where everyone would read their stories.  I said I would, because really, how often am I really going to be able to do that? In the moment, I thought it was pretty cool. I didn't consider my social phobia until later. Whoops?

This got longer than I planned... )

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Saturday, March 30th, 2013 10:34 am
verloren1983: (Squee)
Break, Vegetarianism, and Writing, Oh My! )
Alright, I think this is PLENTY long enough for the time being- I should really run a couple of errands anyway before it gets too much later, and then work on research paper stuff. Elizabeth I, and then either Dissociative Identity Disorder or Antisocial Personality Disorder, whichever one I eventually decide on. XD

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Wednesday, March 13th, 2013 03:20 pm
verloren1983: (Chi)

...you know, I keep trying to post more, and I'll type something up, but then I don't post it and I wait so long that I have to rewrite half of it because it's no longer valid. Whoops. XD

Blah blah blah )

So basically, things are generally going pretty well at the moment. I'll probably be singing another tune in a month when I'm trying to write four different research papers, but eh. XD


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Tuesday, February 26th, 2013 08:34 pm
verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
Random: Anybody want to read a short ( <1k) original fic and tell me whether or not it's a self indulgent piece of crap? Since apparently I can't tell. XD
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
Okay, first things first- I did post something yesterday. It wasn't for NaBloPoMo like I've been doing, I forgot to do that, but I did post something privately, and that's what counts to me. I'm not doing it for a prize or anything, just for me, so basically you're just going to have to trust me. ^_~ Actually, for the curious, it was fic. I've been doing that lately- when I'm too lazy to go get my flash drive, I'll put stuff on livejournal so I can access it from a different computer later, edit it as I please, come back home and have the latest version right there for me. It's usually fic, but sometimes school stuff- I have notes on William Faulkner for short story, for example. Which I need to stop doing, really, because my LJ is getting ridiculous with all this extra stuff. Anyway. So what's up there for yesterday is actually the fic I ended up finishing off and posting today. Yes, I finished fic! Amazing, right? It's not the best thing I've ever written, that's for damn sure, but it's something. It even works for [community profile] cottoncandy_bingo , which I've been neglecting and just realized that it's due at the end of December. Whoops. ^_^;;;

Not a whole lot happened today, just art history, short story, and pride alliance. Only one person showed up to pride alliance that wasn't in the executive committee. Which makes me nervous because we have the information table for Transgender Day of Remembrance next week. Sigh. Oh, and Treasurer and Co-Chair fought for half of it. They butt heads, because they're both attention whores that can't shut up. It was a long meeting. -_- At least Secretary wasn't there. He's a nice enough kid, don't get me wrong- he has Asperger's, and I think he has a mild mental retardation on top of that. So he just talks A LOT, and very loudly, and takes ages making any sort of point (if there even is one), and I just... does it make me a terrible person to admit that I don't have the patience for that? I think it does. XD I could never be a special ed teacher. I have all the respect in the world for that, but I just can't deal. Ungh. Oh, and have I mentioned that we keep getting kicked out of our club room by another club? The other advisor is SUPER RUDE and is always like, "We've been in this room for 20 years! blahblahblah." Yeah, well, they didn't reserve the room, so it's ours this year. Go away. Only problem is that OUR advisor is never there when this goes down, so we always end up folding, because what else are we supposed to do when this woman is being a complete bitch to us? It's going to be a looooooooong year, you guys.

I'm so tired. Definitely have to go to bed earlier than I did last night- I did laundry yesterday and my clothes just didn't want to dry, so I ended up going to bed around 1am. Waaaaaay too late for me. I'm a zombie. x_x

NaBloPoMo Day 10

Saturday, November 10th, 2012 11:33 pm
verloren1983: (Cookies)
Yes, I forgot about the entry again today, how could you tell? XD

-Obviously, internet has returned as of very late last night. I kind of thought it would end up like that, buuuuut better safe than sorry, right? Or something like that. Of course, it would help tremendously if I wouldn't blank on doing online stuff.

-While I did go get my school check yesterday, I didn't go to the bank this morning in favor of sitting in bed reading. Whoops. XD

-Also, I would really appreciate it if the muses would actually stick around long enough for me to finish a story before switching around on me. I've had Kaga in my head, which is great for something I already had in the queue. Today? Waya shoved him out of the way. -_- I'm like, HELL, you guys, seriously? And of course the Waya bunny is something I've been sitting on and haven't started yet. This is one of the many reasons I can never finish anything, ugh.

-Persona 4 is still pissing me off. I worked on a boss for an hour, was ALMOST done with him, and he killed me. Ungh. I actually threw the controller in a minor temper tantrum. ^_^; (There's a rug in the living room, the controller is fine.) I ended up going, fine, screw you, I'm going to work on social link stuff then. And I did. I may or may not work on it tomorrow, I don't know, I'm getting pretty :/ about the whole thing, to be honest.

Aaaaand I have to wrap this up. Tomorrow! \o

NaBloPoMo Day 2

Friday, November 2nd, 2012 11:11 pm
verloren1983: (Chi)
I did NOT forget about posting again. <_<

....somehow I feel like this is going to be a pattern. XD

So today was actually not that bad. I had a test in Sociology, but it was no big deal at all- since most of us were sitting there before the start of class, he handed out tests early, and it only took a couple of minutes- note that on test days, when you're done with the test, you leave. The class starts at 3. I was literally done and on my way out the door at 2:58, no lie. So I was able to get home around 4:30 instead of the usual 5:30 for Fridays, which was pretty nice. :D

Also, I get the most awful bunnies on the bus. Just saying.

I feel like there was something else to talk about, but I'm toast at this point, so I will try and remember tomorrow. :P Night all!

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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2012 02:46 pm
verloren1983: (Cookies)
Okay, first things first- I'm alive. Some of you know that I've been in chat/available on AIM/commenting on things every once in a while. I'm here. I'm reading. I'm just not writing much outside of school work these days, and that apparently includes journals. Whoops. On the upside, this means you get a more general overview instead of a play-by-play. Which is good, because chances are you missed my angsting about basically every test ever, ESPECIALLY the Art History midterm which I was absolutely convinced I failed. I was completely prepared to drop the class. (C, btw- I'm starting to think that he's a very generous grader. XD)

Seriously, I've had some version or other of this in my journal since September 9th. I need to just start posting stuff as it comes up, god. )

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Sunday, August 26th, 2012 11:08 am
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
Apparently "soon-ish" means a month later. Whoops. ^_^;

Blah blah blah )

Cotton Candy Bingo!

Tuesday, August 7th, 2012 06:05 pm
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
I'll put up a "real" entry soonish, I promise- I just wanted to post this before I went and forgot about it. I went and signed up for [community profile] cottoncandy_bingo (so everyone else should too, just because :P) and got my bingo card. I've never done any kind of bingo challenge, so this should be interesting.

My card under the cut )
I have no idea what I'm going to do with it yet, but eh. Adding to this is the fact that it can be fandom or original, and just about any kind of media. We'll see what happens. ^_^;

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Friday, February 10th, 2012 02:17 am
verloren1983: (Smile)
Real entry coming eventually, but in the meantime, I have seven topics from [personal profile] troisroyaumes  to talk about, so here we go!

Seven Topics Meme! )

Comment if you want topics and I'll try to come up with things that aren't totally stupid. :D

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Monday, December 26th, 2011 07:02 am
verloren1983: (AkiHika Snow Cuddle)
First things first- late, I know, but...



Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Joyous Kwanzaa, Merry Yule, Happy birth of the Flying Spaghetti Monster, whatever floats your boat. :D

☁ Scott, my immediate supervisor at work, always gets us chocolate for Christmas- one of those assorted mixes that you actually only eat a couple out of, but that's not the point- so Mary and I decided to get him something this year. It's only fair, after all, and he's had a rough year. I'm sure he's glad to see 2011 go- both of his parents passed (separately) AND he's getting a divorce. Anyway. We made him a card and gave him a $25 Barnes and Noble card, since we know he loves to read. I thought he was going to cry. ;~; It was pretty cool though, have to say. I love giving presents. :D

☁ Needless to say, I worked for Christmas, but it wasn't TOO bad overall. I'd stayed up WAY too late reading a longfic though, so I was working on like... three hours sleep. Whoops. ^_^;;; I crashed when I got home, but I need to go back to bed soon to avoid a repeat performance. Woke up, microwaved some Christmas dinner I'd gotten previously (ham steak, mashed potatoes, broccoli, and I made some rolls the night before.). There's even still a whole plate full for tomorrow, plus a slice of pecan pie that I decided was in my best interest to not eat. :D As far as other holiday plans go, I will meet up with Stef at some point and we will exchange gift cards. I also got her a mini pillow pet in the bumblebee version. (Her nickname in junior high was Bee, so it's a little inside joke thing. Plus, how freaking cute is this thing, seriously? I'm half considering getting a different animal for myself. SO ADORABLE.). Kelly and I are planning on doing a "sister day" sometime soon, which is in lieu of presents, depending on when we can coordinate our schedules. I'm not sure what we're doing exactly, aside from  DEFINITELY seeing the new Sherlock Holmes movie, but eh. :P

☁ Speaking of fic, I've been reminded of a holiday bunny
that I keep avoiding. Someone should probably tell me to not write it. XD

Mario nails- HOW COOL IS THAT? :D :D :D

Okay, I just got hit with "ZOMG NEED SLEEP NAO", so I'm going to call it a night. Later, all! \o

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Friday, December 9th, 2011 02:35 pm
verloren1983: (*Blush*)
I've been pretty MIA lately- sorry about that. With my sister visiting and family stuff and being sick and all of this crap, it's been kind of difficult to really sit down and get anything done. My already limited attention span has been pretty much zero lately. (I haven't even bothered attempting to read that last Eragon book, if that tells you anything. XD) I'm still sick, but it seems to be getting better, so. Things should be winding down back to normal. Hopefully. As normal as December gets, anyway.

WANT. ;_; Money is a major concern, but hopefully they'll come up with a payment plan that I can live with. WHO IS GOING WITH ME, DAMMIT?

Anyone have any experience with Zoya nail polish? I've been staring at the website for several days now and I can't decide whether it would be worth trying or not. They're expensive. :/ On the other hand, I did just spend $6 on a super glittery blue polish that I'm totally in love with (and actually kept on for about two days, which is a miracle), so really... it's not THAT much more, in the big scheme of things.

I can has an AO3 account! I will probably not keep up with it, because I have a hard time posting crap to my freaking main writing journal much less anything else, BUT... it's another backup and maybe I will? ^_^;;; That and it will give my stuff some more exposure, since I'm uncomfortable pimping myself out in the comms when I post something. So... you know. I only have a few things up there so far though. I'm trying to not piss people off by flooding everything at once. XD

☁ Ended up making peanut butter frosting (don't ask)... ASDJKALDJSLA that shit is DELICIOUS. Now, I wouldn't use the frosting all the time, for the simple fact that I still hate making frosting. BUT. It is definitely easier than regular frosting, at least. No food coloring is needed, so that headache and mess is eliminated. Two- It came out perfectly mixed and fluffy with just a spoon and some stubbornness on my part. Read: no mixer required. Which is awesome, because while I'll use a mixer when I have to, I'd rather not. It tends to be messy. It probably could've been fluffier with the mixer, but I didn't really see the need. The only problem? Now I have all this freaking frosting in the fridge. UGH.

Speaking of food, I purchased three new things to try: sweet potato fries, pesto sauce, and garlic hummus. So far, I've tried the pesto and the fries. The pesto is good- I wouldn't want a ton of it in a dish or anything, but it's yummy. The fries though? Weeeeeeeeird. :/ I haven't decided whether I like them or not. I ended up putting a crapton of salt and Old Bay on them and it was an improvement, but I don't know. The sweetness bothers me more than I thought it would.

Rant brought to you by South Africa and condoms with teeth. Needless to say with South Africa lately, this could be triggery for rape. )

☁ I should probably do my school applications soon. *sob* SCARY!
........... Dear Self: You are being utterly ridiculous. You are applying to community colleges, not Yale. You'll be fine. No love, Ver.

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Thursday, September 22nd, 2011 03:58 am
verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
☁ Urgh LJ. >_< Issues. Though it seems better now than it did earlier today- it's loading, at least.

☁ There's a netflix-like site for video games. HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS?! It's called Gamefly. I predict that this will be either the stupidest thing I've ever done or the most brilliant thing I've ever done. Probably the former. On the upside, it means I can try out a whole bunch of stuff without spending a fortune. ^_^; And when I feel like it's not worth it anymore, I can just cancel it, no problem. The subscription is kind of expensive ($16 a month), so probably I'm going to have the account active off and on as it's warranted.

[For anyone who might be curious- Epic Mickey seems interesting, but the camera and controls are frustrating as hell. You can't tell where the hell you're going (or supposed to be going) half the time. You'll be in the middle of trying to jump and the camera will whirl around with no warning, making you fall to your death. Not cool. I put it in the mailbox this afternoon, entirely glad I didn't buy it. Good in theory, bad in execution.]

☁ I somehow managed to squeak [info]blind_go in at the last minute. (Literally. I sent the e-mail at 11:59pm, no lie.) I really should've defaulted. It's pointless and all over the freaking place and just. UGH. Haaaaate. I procrastinated until just before and you can tell (and not just by the typos). I'm honestly kind of afraid to look at the comments on it. There are three other fics in various stages of "incomplete" sitting on my desktop, too, but those just weren't going anywhere or had no hope of being done in time. One in particular wanted to be a long thing. Meh.

Haven't actually decided whether or not to put up a guessing post this time, as I'm probably horrifically obvious and I already owe SO MUCH CRAP from previous rounds and various other things it's ridiculous. Hmm. :/ Also I've read a few things, but certainly not the entire list. I just haven't felt like it. Maybe tomorrow. Or something. It's not like I don't read quickly, so it's not a huge deal.

☁ I ended up going to both Saturday festivals, the more local one in the morning. There was a vendor there who makes his own candles and this shit was SO GOOD, I swear to god. I wanted almost everything. I did limit myself to two votives and a big one. I also got a pack of 15 yummy incense sticks for $1 at another vendor. Probably would've bought more but the guy was kind of rude. I went to Irish Fest a bit later. Honestly? It was lame. ^_^;;; It seems SMALLER now, which sucks. I did get a cool dreamcatcher from a sweet Spanish lady (Irish Fest. Go figure.) and her adorable 5-ish year old daughter, and a pair of earrings. Also over the course of the day there were fried dough sticks and ribbon chips and hot dogs, none of which I should've had, but eh. I probably won't bother going next year. Too bad.

☁ Birthday was fun. Got entirely too drunk, but I was able to sleep and recover without having to haul my ass into work, so it's all good. I had dinner with Stef- apparently Olive Garden does carry out? It cut what would've been a 40 minute wait in half and we just ate at my place. Good to know. You still get salad (with their amaaaaaazing Italian dressing in a container) and bread sticks and everything. :D :D :D :D :D

I do need to start spending some money here, though... I still have $50 in gift cards for Barnes and Noble from CHRISTMAS, got another $25 for my birthday, and then Erin sent me a $50 e-gift card for Amazon (I didn't even know you could do that. O_o). Uh. Yeah. How did that even happen?

Also I'm hungry.

Thursday, September 15th, 2011 12:27 pm
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
☁ Vacation~ I have spent the last three days doing absolutely freaking nothing. Went out to Friday's with Mary on Tuesday, which was fun, and we're supposed to go out today so I can get a "birthday outfit". Because, apparently, I can't wear a regular t-shirt on my birthday, I need to wear something that I look amazing in. I'm not so sure about that one happening. We will see. :/

☁ One of the (three) books I'm currently reading is something called "An Underground Education" by Richard Zacks... fascinating stuff. Disgusting, at times, but really interesting. Some of it so far I've already known, but a lot of it I haven't. And the Mark Twain stuff is freaking hilarious. Seriously. I haven't read anything of his since I was a kid (LOVED The Adventures of Tom Sawyer, heh.)... I think it's time to revisit those sometime soon. ^_^

☁ It's now the 15th- meaning about 4 1/2 days until the [info]blind_go deadline. I think it's time to panic. WHY THE FUCK do I always do this to myself? Seriously, WHY? >_< I'm starting to think I'm going to have to take my own advice and disconnect the wireless on my laptop. That's a sad state of affairs. I was planning on getting up semi early and going to the library for a change of scenery, but uh, it's kind of pouring, so... I think I'll pass on that one for today.

☁ There are two different local festivals on Saturday, so I need to figure out which one I want to go to. Meh. (Though if I don't get anything written in the next two days, I may just skip it and stay home to write... something.)  I suppose I could go to Irish Fest first, stay for a few hours, then go to the other one (which ends at 5:30). Or vice versa. It seems like a waste of money to go to both though, and Irish Fest IS the more expensive one... I DON'T KNOW. D:

Okay, I've spent the last hour and a half screwing around instead of writing- going to get in the shower and try this again. With the wireless off. :/

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Thursday, August 18th, 2011 05:22 am
verloren1983: (Cookies)
☁ Via Lish: A very well written article that explains why throwing out religious platitudes to an Atheist while they're grieving can be offensive to them. Before I get into any of this, I should possibly clarify for some of you, since I don't generally talk about religion- I'm an Atheist. Well. More accurately, I'm an odd Atheist/Agnostic mix, meaning that while I absolutely don't believe in God or Heaven or Hell or any of that, I'm also willing to admit that there's really no way of knowing for sure, one way or another. I'm cool with other religions as long as someone's not trying to convert me or it's not being shoved down my throat. It's not something I make a big deal of because it's not something that affects my life on a daily basis. Anyway. This was so not the point. Onward!

I had a conversation with Lish about this, which I'm not going to totally rehash, but to me it basically boils down to respecting other people's beliefs. A lot of people don't understand Atheism, and for many of these, it's just not on their radar at all. It's a thoughtlessness. They assume, well, it would be comforting to ME, so it must be to THEM. Nevermind that "I'm sorry for your loss" is just as easy to say, and offering whatever assistance you can will mean more. Personally, I'm in the "it doesn't bother me that much" camp, in general, unless they go on about it forever or I hear it a thousand times in ten minutes. I get the meaning behind it, and I appreciate it, even though it doesn't help. Though the whole "god's will" thing is an exception- that IS hurtful and offensive, and I seem to remember walking away from people who have said that to me. The bottom line here: be considerate and respectful of the person grieving. That's all. And isn't that true regardless of who they pray to (or don't pray to)? (*cough* I just totally wrote "prey" instead of "pray". Nice Freudian slip there, Ver. XD)

This is too cute. I don't even like kids, and this made me want to hug him. The parents, too. He's a lucky kid to have such accepting and open-minded parents. That being said, assuming it's not something he ends up growing out of later- knowing you're gay at six? Just. Wow. O_o

☁ I read this book yesterday that is, for some reason I have yet to figure out, bringing a couple of original muses back to the foreground of my mind. I haven't thought about them, or their story, in ages. The book isn't even related to the story in any way, except one character's tendency to overthink things. WTF brain?

I don't know, maybe I should look at it again. I stopped due to a nasty case of writer's block- I got two characters in a particular situation and couldn't figure out how to get them out of it- but maybe if I approach it from a different angle? The other problem was that I found that the more I wrote, the more I -despised- my main character. The different angle I'm thinking of would solve that as well, because it would shift the main focus from the annoying little brat to someone I actually like. The only problem is that originally, the POV shifted between four different main-ish characters, with the one I call the main as the hub basically. Changing this causes a whole bunch of other issues as far as things being shown. I guess I'll have to try and figure it out at some point.

☁ I read a lot of m/m fiction. (I know that comes as a shock to you all.) It's a genre that's very hit or miss, from my experience. I've read some wonderful things. I've also read things that never should've seen the light of day. Quality of writing is all over the place- not just with things like characters, but with basics like GRAMMAR and PUNCTUATION. I swear to god, some of these editors need to be fired. Anyway. While, obviously, mistakes happen regardless of genre (nobody's perfect), I've NEVER seen this kind of lack of editing or grasp of the basics in ANY other genre.

This does have a point, I swear. I wrote a review on Goodreads of a book recently- the novel was fabulous, by the way, and I said as much- where I mentioned that my expectations had not been terribly high, due to previous experience. Another reader asked me why, and after I explained, she pretty much jumped all over me. Uh... OBVIOUSLY the quality of the book is going to depend on the quality of editing and the ability of the author, regardless of genre. I know that, I'm not a moron. It just seems that there are lesser quality editors at m/m publishers. Or, also possible, is that certain m/m publishers put quantity over quality. I AM ALLOWED TO HAVE MY OPINION, LEAVE ME ALONE, WOMAN! The best part? She hasn't even read the book in question. So now, according to her, she's going to have to read it because I held up up as an example of good writing. Great. Now if she doesn't like it (And there's a good chance she won't. Looking at the handful of books we have in common, we have VERY different tastes.), then she's going to be up my ass about how I don't know what I'm talking about or whatever. Wonderful. Why do people have to pick fights over stupid shit?
verloren1983: (Heh (Hikaru No Go))
☁ LJ: You suck. Just saying. FB seems to be having issues as well. The latter I don't care so much about, but LJ being down for two days is a giant pain in the ass. Grrr.

☁ My hands have been a bit dry the last week or so, which isn't normal for me. I think it's the heat, which finally broke, but it's been SO terribly hot here- pushing 100 (that's 37.8 for you celcius using folks). I know that's not that much for this time of year in some places, but in upstate NY, that's INSANELY HOT. The heat's supposed to come back later this week though, yaaaaaay. -_- At any rate, I grabbed a little tube of cocoa butter, so hopefully that will help. And hopefully I can ignore the fact that the smell of the stuff reminds me of a bad summer job I had right after high school. Whoops.

☁ I seem to have lost my keys. I have my spare set, so it's not like I'm locked out of anything, but it's still not good. When I came home from work yesterday I realized I didn't have them, but I can't find them at work, either. I hope I didn't drop them somewhere, but that's looking more and more likely. UGH. >_<

☁ For anybody that didn't hear, Borders is closing ALL of their stores now. I can't say that it's a surprise at this point, but it DOES suck. I mean... that's half the reason to go to the mall by me- and it's the only bookstore there. So much for my entertainment while Kelly spends ages in Victoria Secret. Boo. On that note, though, I should probably try to get over there tomorrow (*cough* later today *cough*) to see what they have left as far as clearance stuff... may be able to score some deals. If not, well, at least I tried. Might check out jewelry because I'm CONSTANTLY losing earrings or having them fall apart on me. There's also a new store that had some really cool looking dreamcatchers. The only potential problem there is. Um. Reaching them. Because I'm a midget. <_< And I hate hate HATE asking for help for things like that. Meh. We'll see.

☁ Had a song ping me, so I'm writing a little bit again. It sucks, but it's something. Also I finished making up the rest of the 101 in 1001 list that starts on the 30th. Hopefully this time I'll do more of the list. ^_^;;;

Weight related, cut for those not interested. XD )

☁ Suikoden:
Short this time, I've still been procrastinating finishing it. )
verloren1983: (*Blush*)
(This is totally fandom related. For those of you who are not interested, I'd suggest you skip this one. :D)

Read more... )

I need to go to bed- I have to at least make an attempt at doing laundry when I get up, since I've failed to do it now. Whoops. I should probably respond to comments tomorrow too before I forget like I usually do. XD

Edit: RARGH. Cutting is finally working again, but the whole thing has a white background that I most definitely did not add. WHY DO YOU HATE ME, DW? WHYYYYYYYY?

Edit 2: Fixed. *stabs at DW* STOP FUCKING WITH MY HTML, GOD DAMN IT.

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Tuesday, May 3rd, 2011 04:10 pm
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
☁ Is it just me or is LJ being really super slow today?

☁ I was remixed for Remix Madness. TWICE. They are also both better than the original fics, which is both thrilling and terrifying at the same time. So. We have Natural (The 'People Put Their Mouths There?!' Remix) and Dignity, or Lack Thereof (The Everybody Loses Remix). Both are awesome. I sadly didn't write anything for it because I've been trying to BG and failing as it is, so. Heh. ^_^;;;

☁ A word of advice: don't be an asshole to the person developing your pictures. There was this guy yesterday that insisted on using the hour machine even though he wanted his prints ZOMGRITENAO, as opposed to the instant machine that I was trying to steer him to- and then had a cow because I kept emphasizing HOUR MACHINE. "But you can do them in ten minutes!" Um, it depends on how many pictures you've got, size, and the orders that are in front of you (because obviously if I have 500 pictures that are printing for someone else, you're gonna be waiting a while. Doesn't matter if you 'only have one.' Nothing I can do about that.) And, yes, how much of a dick you are to me. If you're a gigantic asshole? You better believe I'm going to make you wait the whole hour even if you have one 4 inch print (takes about five minutes if there's nothing else in queue). DO NOT FUCK WITH ME.

He kept arguing with me about how long HE thought it should take. So guess who got to wait the whole god damned hour for his 20-something pictures? >D

(I'd like to point out here that it is well within my right to tell him the extra time. Part of my job is time management and making sure that things are done when I tell the customer that they'll be done. Expecting him to wait an hour for prints when he used the machine that is clearly labeled as a "one hour" machine is certainly not unreasonable- and in fact if I had reason, like the previous 500 print example, I could've pushed it back further. If he hadn't been an asshole, I probably would've told him 20 minutes. Getting pics printed and packaged takes extra time when it's just me, myself, and I manning the entire front store. ^_^;;; But then, since he WAS a dick, he probably would've had a cow about the 20 minutes, too.)

☁ Got invited to a walking/running 5k in June that's part of the local Pride thing. I haven't decided whether I'm going to go or not. On one hand, it would be cool, especially since I didn't end up doing the April 5k. On the other hand, I'd have to get up at 6:30am at the absolute latest to take the bus, and that STILL wouldn't get me to registration on time (it's the earliest bus, btw). I don't think I have to be there exactly at 8 though. Or I'd have to call a cab and spend god knows how much for a ride downtown. I don't know. I have a couple of weeks to decide, registration is due at the end of the month.

The parade and PrideFest are the following day... I've always wanted to go and have never been able to because I always find out about the dates too late to ask for it off... I don't know how comfortable I am going to all of that by myself though. It's not like I can beg Erin to go with me. :/ But I dunno, I still want to. It's kind of pathetic that I've never been. And at least that way I don't have to worry about losing anybody and I can take my time doing whatever I feel like. I think my biggest concern is getting lost- I have a TERRIBLE sense of direction. I could probably get lost in a paper bag. But... I could probably just print off a map and the bus schedules I would need. Worst case scenario, I have my cell phone and I call a cab to go home. Right? Could be fun. I'm actually kind of reminded of a LOLcat pic here. ^_^;;;

☁ Watching Shuffle, which a coworker keeps suggesting to me. I'm four episodes into it. It's... pretty much a typical harem type anime? The main guy is kind of a dick and I'm really trying to figure out why in hell he's got all these girls in love with him... but again, that's typical of that genre. It has its moments, though. I also watched a few episodes of the new My Little Pony show for reasons I have yet to figure out. It is, frighteningly enough, not completely terrible. O_o So we shall see.

Now. Off to make the lasagna I've been putting off for weeks because I'm lazy, WRITE, clean, at some point check whatever homework I've accumulated while I haven't been paying attention to it (ugh, this online thing is SO not working for me so far), watch some more stuff, and maybe go for a walk later if I'm feeling up to that. Since I really need to start doing that again. Oh, and I need to go to the store because apparently the second bag of broccoli I bought for previously mentioned lasagna has conveniently disappeared. And apparently the tomato sauce as well. *GROWL* Salady things probably wouldn't hurt either. Mmm. Leaves. :3
verloren1983: (fma: to new adventures!)
☁ How is it that I'm STILL finding stuff that I assume is from when I was drugged all to hell from appendix-splodey times because I don't remember downloading it? WTF, self? THAT WAS THREE YEARS AGO. The sad thing is I'm not even kidding.

☁ The new term for gay is apparently now "rainbow-y". I'm totally using that the next time I come out to someone. "I'm rainbow-y. :D" *gigglefits*

☁ I should be working on [info]blind_go . Which, by the way, I still haven't started. Instead, my brain is torturing me with completely unrelated bunnies. One is finished at a bit over 2k and the other one isn't even close to the point and it's already over 2500. *headdeskheaddeskheaddesk* To add insult to injury, I've also totally been the queen of typos lately. WTF. I'm usually more careful than that in fic. At least. I -think- I'm more careful than that in fic. XD

☁ Somehow having both "Pay credit card bill" and "Do homework assignment" on my to-do list from the other day is a little O_o inducing. XD

☁ E-mailed a different person about an apartment share. I ACTUALLY GOT AN E-MAIL BACK! \o/ She has a few people interested, though, which doesn't surprise me considering availability in my area. I also was upfront and told her I that I'm gay (not in the initial inquiry e-mail, I promise XD), as much as that makes me cringe to basically go "Hi! I'm gay!". Because that's a potential dealbreaker and I'd rather not have issues with that later. Hopefully something will actually come of this one, but I'm not going to hold my breath. If it does pan out... it's for June 1st, so that gives me time to pack and clean and get things done, even if I don't do anything before [info]blind_go  is due. (And holy SHIT that's due in a little over a week, asdjklsajdksal). I just need to get a freaking move on... needs to get done anyway.

☁ I've been staring at my icons a lot lately- particularly the ones that were done in paint before I had photoshop and are therefore absolutely TERRIBLE quality. Cue Ver expression: :/ That's probably not a good sign. Especially since a lot of them I would need to go and get screenshots of again, and. Ugh. I did, at least, redo one of the LJ ones that was bothering me the most. It's not fantastic or anything, but it's miles better than what it was. Like. I might actually use it on occasion now. XD

☁ I've also been staring at a site I previously didn't know existed, because apparently they're having a sale, and trying to figure out whether I want to purchase anything. (vague reference is vague) But then I think... I probably want to wait on that one, TBH. Especially if the apartment thing works out- I need a new mattress anyway, but it gets put to priority if I move, because I am NOT moving that piece of shit mattress anywhere but the garbage heap. Just saying.
verloren1983: (Kitty Ahhhh!)
☁ I was asked to post these, so to my absolute mortification, here you go. These icons are totally Lish's fault. Just... don't even ask. Seriously. Though I need to mess around more with the first one because I still don't like it.

       

☁ Been re-reading some old Harry/Draco fic. Hell, I missed these two. <3 It's totally not helping me write [info]blind_go , though. Pffft. I've also been DL-ing a lot of PoT doujin lately. XDDD

☁ Also fandom related: people have been posting to the kink meme, which is hysterical since it's three years old. I generally still get posts on it every once in a while, but the sudden interest is amusing. :P

☁ And speaking of Harry Potter, couple of annoyances about the new release of Deathly Hallows Part 1. The first is that Walmart had an exclusive on the special edition DVD. Really, WB? I know the studios are trying to push the Bluray, but honestly. I don't have a Bluray player. I have no intention of purchasing one- if I'm going to spend the money, I might as well save a bit more and buy a PS3 so I can play games on the damn thing. STOP TRYING TO SHOVE THE FUCKING BLURAY DOWN MY THROAT.

*ahem*

The other thing that pissed me off was actually in the deleted scenes. Now... when I saw DH1 in the theater, I was incredibly disappointed that it didn't have the scene with Harry and Dudley when the Dursley's were leaving. It was a big moment for the both of them. But guess what? It was in the special features. What the ever loving hell. I think it's WORSE, knowing that they filmed it and decided that it WASN'T IMPORTANT, as opposed to not shooting it (there could've been a number of reasons why they didn't end up shooting it, after all). Seriously. What the fuck, WB.

☁ WHAT THE HELL IS IT WITH RANDOM PEOPLE INSTANT MESSAGING ME LATELY? It's getting ridiculous.

☁ Dear Mother Nature: We had about 50 thousand feet of snow this winter- I promise you, the ground doesn't need anymore water for a while. Possibly the entire summer. You don't need to rain all freaking week. No love, Ver

☁ Class started today. So as part of my first assignment, I'm supposed to be reading at least one book about writing and/or creativity. I have a bunch on my laptop that I have yet to read (in addition to one or two physical ones whose whereabouts are currently unknown), so I decided to look through. Just on the lappy, I have enough that I could read two books a week for almost the entire length of the course. O_o And only three of the 20 are grammar centered. *headdesk* Although on the other hand, it's as good of an excuse as any to get some of those under my belt?

The other part of the assignment is to get a "writer's journal", which isn't a problem because I have a zillion empty notebooks. Unofficial assignments through the course include writing for 10 minutes a day NO MATTER WHAT and to spend at least an hour a week doing something creative besides writing (I'm thinking scrapbooking/playing in photoshop. :D)

Possibly triggery/TMI, who knows. Cut just in case. )

Hikago on the Brain~

Wednesday, March 23rd, 2011 10:09 pm
verloren1983: (Akira Bliss)
☁ I just found out today that Hikago will finish publishing in English in May! Wooooooooooooo~ Okay, I'm a few volumes behind because they never HAVE what I need when I go to the bookstore, but nevermind. Still, this is exciting. When it comes out and I get the last few volumes, it will be the second COMPLETE series I have- the other being Death Note. .......urgh, I probably look like a total Obata fangirl, don't I? ^_^;;; I HAVE OTHER THINGS, I PROMISE! *flails*

☁ I'm starting to think that I'm going to have to write the evil BG bunny and get it out of my system so I can, you know, come up with a better idea. I even put a cute bunny picture as my cell background to remind myself that I'm supposed to be bunnying- no dice. Argh. It's eating my braaaaaaaaaaain. D:

☁ That being said, I really have to pick up my re-watch of Hikago again. It got frustrating because I was doing screencaps too, so even watching one takes freaking FOREVER. Maybe if I start doing one a day? I won't be done by the time I need to be finished with BG, obviously- I was only 10 episodes in to begin with- but it would be something.

☁ I've started trying to post what I've got of the icon bases, too. I mean, it's been just over a year, holy crap. It's just... a pain in the ass to put them all in the chart. D: (though I found a way to make it a bit easier, thank GOD.) I only had the first two episodes cropped, though, out of the ten I have capped, so I'm currently chopping up episode 3. Oye. Something else to work on. But maybe doing Hikago things will kick the muses into high gear for BG? One can hope.

☁ Some new DS games I didn't know about- Okamiden, for one. A new Kingdom Hearts. You Don't Know Jack, which I remember from the original Playstation and LOVED (Even if it got to the point where nobody would play with me anymore because no one could beat me. Boo.). Some other random RPG's that look interesting too. Clearly I need to keep a half an eye on Amazon. This is what happens when I no longer get gaming magazines and there's no gaming store in the immediate vicinity. I lose all track of shiny new games. XD

☁ Because of this, I discovered that I'm having some trouble with my R4. The new stuff won't work and I'm trying to upgrade it and it's just... not going well, to say the least. *sigh* I finally got it to stop giving me this error:



after about two hours, but the damn games still won't load. Urgh. *headdesks forever*

☁ Also windows decided to freak out on me earlier. Clearly technology hates me today.

☁ Edit: Got an e-mail saying that the release date for the final book in the Eragon series has been announced- the title is Inheritance, and it's set to come out November 8th of this year. Also cover art. You know. For anyone that cares. ^_^;;;

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Saturday, March 19th, 2011 02:20 am
verloren1983: (Plot Bunnies)
☁ Stuck in Suikoden II. Stupid Neclord Abomination monster thing keeps killing me. >( Doesn't help that Freed Y is freaking USELESS and you're forced to have him in your party. *growls* I'm actually half considering going around and leveling up some and coming back to it... it's really, really early in the game for that already. GROAN.

☁ Got bunnied at work. The good news is that it'll work for BG and I'm positive I can get it over the 1k word minimum. The bad news is. Um. All I can really say without giving it away is that I'm not sure I want to go there. *kicks bunny* It's an idea I would LOVE to mess around with, but... :/ I guess we'll see. So far it's the best idea I've got, but hopefully something else will come up.

☁ I was going through some music trying to come up with a BG playlist (which is incredibly difficult this time, urgh), and this song came up. As always with songs, not 100% accurate, but mostly. Appropriate song is appropriate. I'm working on it. :)

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Monday, March 14th, 2011 03:16 am
verloren1983: (Gaming)
I really should be doing laundry, but pffft. Don't feel like it. I'm also really super tired, but rather than do the intelligent thing and go to bed, I'm just going to bore you all to tears instead. XD

- Been feeling bloaty and icky and exhausted lately, and I have no idea why. Spring is coming- that usually jazzes me up- so I don't know what's going on at the moment. Hrm.

- I realized quite unpleasantly that one of the evil plot bunnies I've been avoiding for MONTHS now (because it's wicked depressing and there's SO many things I could mess up)... could very well end up a  multi-chapter fic should I ever give in and write it. BAH. All the more reason to ignore that one. *glares at the bunny*

- Speaking of which, the bunnies have been weirdly active lately. This is good- to a point. It's not exactly helping me to post the backlog of fic, though. XD Also most of them are still things I don't want to write. Stupid bunnies. *grumbles* On the upside, the backlog of fic is decreasing, slowly but surely. Hopefully I should be finished with it sometime in the next year. >_<

- The ten year reunion for my original class is coming up. I've been invited. I didn't graduate with them, mind, but... ugh, ten years, seriously? Where did all that time go? I have no intention of GOING though. There's really... maybe a few people I would like to see, but that's about it, and I don't really think it's worth putting myself through the stress for. I'll admit that a big part of it is a high level of embarrassment on my part. I am certainly nowhere NEAR where I would like to be at this point in my life. Which yes, is kind of a sore point and I don't really feel like explaining to people how I've ended up in the gutter. It's just... bigger things were expected of me. I expected bigger things from me. So I think going to something like a reunion and having to show my general failure would just be torturing myself. If I at least had a date I could bring, that would be immensely better, but alas. Maybe by the time the 20th comes around, I'll not be completely mortified by the thought of having to explain my life to people I knew as a child.


And for Jet- Suikoden II Thoughts So Far :P )

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Saturday, February 12th, 2011 04:54 am
verloren1983: (Fail)
-Taxes: Done and sent. They didn't seem to take as long this year, which is a good thing. I'm getting back $1065 between state and federal, which is getting transferred to my savings account as soon as it hits checking and is going to almost double what's in savings by the time I get it. Yaaaaaay!

-I'm more behind on the writing journal than I thought I was. I was looking everywhere I could think of and making up a list of stuff that needs to be posted, and I found a bunch on the external hard drive that's never seen the light of day. A lot of unfinished fics and bunnies, but some finished and ready-to-go stuff, too. Weird. On that note, I'm going to be trying to update that... obviously not all at once. Maybe one or two a day or something, to make it as painless on that flist as possible. On the upside, some of it's going to be new to you guys? :D

-Found out today that Hulu has Kuroshitsuji- subbed- yay! It's been forever since I actually watched something new, anime-wise. That being said, I did watch the first episode... this one's kind of creepy, isn't it? :/

-I'm gathering up a list of fic that I owe, too. Which, sadly, apparently doesn't look that much different from the last time I posted an owed list. Guh. I NEED TO WORK ON THIS STUFF! I know I have bits and pieces of some of these somewhere- like I seem to remember having Phoenix's half written. It's just a matter of figuring out where they ARE.

What I still owe, which is entirely depressing considering how old some of these are. D: )

And on that note, it's bed time for me. Night all!

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Wednesday, February 9th, 2011 06:05 am
verloren1983: (*facepalm*)
-I should probably not mention this, but I'm going to anyway because if I have to live with it, I'm going to inflict it on you guys: I have actually posted something on the writing journal. It's completely terrible. No, it's not the previously mentioned smut fic, though there's just a touch of that in this- something in RP pinged me all of a sudden and my brain started developing an ill thought out back story to a character, and... yeah. As I said, it's horrible, but at least it's SOMETHING. Which is better than not writing at all. Right? *crickets*

*cough* Anyway, it's here, for anybody who may be a glutton for punishment. XD

-Also god, I really need to catch that journal up. It makes it look like I haven't written anything since '08, which is absolutely not true. Okay, I'll grant you that I haven't written -a lot- in the last couple of years, but still. I think that should be my next project.

-Finally made those black forest cheesecake brownies Sunday night to bring into work Monday. Oh my GOD, you guys, these things were freaking awesome, and I don't even like cheesecake. I think I like these better than the peanut butter ones- and that's saying something. However, it leaves me with a dilemna- the recipe involved frosting, which is fine, except I have a ton of it left. Frosting is only good for so long. Meh. I bought some cake mix on sale and might do cupcakes or something? Aside from possibly making the brownies again. What do you guys think of cherry frosting and a butter pecan cake with maybe some chocolate chips mixed in? ^_^;;; (What can I say, I'm a fan of taking mixes and altering them, heh.)

-Weird thing: the other day, someone drove past me as I was walking to work and beeped at me. I couldn't tell who it was (I suck at identifying people in moving vehicles, pfft), but I did see that they flipped me off. WTF? I wished it was summer just for the fact that then they probably would've had the window down and they would've shouted at me whatever the hell their problem was. Though it's probably a little twisted that I'd rather be shouted at than left going "Bzuh? O_o"

-Other weird thing: Had a couple of customers get into it in the store (basically, she was holding up the line and he politely requested that she move it along- she pitched an absolute FIT at him, to put it mildly), which was crazy enough, but then... the woman actually FOLLOWED HIM HOME. I'm not even kidding, the guy came back later and told me. Cue Ver expression: O_O!!! People are freaking PSYCHOTIC.

-I think I got Kelly to agree to watch Glee with me for the trainwrecky lulz. Should be fun breaking her brain. XD

I keep falling asleep, so probably time I put this away. \o

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Friday, January 28th, 2011 08:06 am
verloren1983: (Fail)
I went to bed and got back up again, so I figured I'd post this entry that's been sitting in notepad since yesterday. ^_^;;;

-Ugh. The first thing I've written since [livejournal.com profile] blind_go , and guess what came out? *headdesks repeatedly* No,  not one of the more serious bunnies I have sitting on my desktop. Of course not. Of COURSE I had to be pinged by a smutty suggestion. I don't think it's something I want to inflict on the internet- it's not just smut, but it's bad smut. Fandom really HAS twisted my brain, hasn't it? I swear to God I wasn't this dirty originally. D:

I did get another idea for original fic (brought on by a local news story, of all things), but it's another one of those "I'm not sure I want to write it" bits. God. Everything my brain comes up with lately is either porn or totally fucking morbid. GAH. >_<

-So cool! The fireworks one is neat too. There's a link somewhere to download a free fireplace screensaver, which I totally downloaded. It is the awesomest. :3

-Also, this was recently brought to my attention... I'm not a big fan of Kurt's character overall, but the kid that plays him seems really sweet, and his reaction to winning this award is just too cute. The cast had to prod him to get up, because he was in utter shock, and then after that it was like he kept waiting for someone to go, "Where are you going? That's not you, sit down." He's very sweet and naive. Hollywood is going to eat him alive.

-Have I ever mentioned that I hate snow? Yes? Well, then, I'm mentioning it again. I HATE SNOW. It wouldn't be so bad except we've been getting slammed this month... just storm after storm after storm. Plus it's been cold as all holy fuck up until yesterday. Seriously, guys? The low was -13 (-25 in Celcius) the other day. At least it's warmer for now- around 20 degrees. It's like a heatwave. What we've had is the kind of cold where you go outside and you can't BREATHE. The cold just steals all of the oxygen out of you. It's like your lungs suddenly shrink or something. Is it spring yet?

-Playing Professor Layton and the Curious Village finally. It's... humbling. Puzzles like this are not my strongest point, certainly, so it makes me feel a little dumb. ^_^;;; I've had to look up answers for puzzles more than I care to admit, and I figured out the "secret" of the village WAY before they told me, but it's interesting.

-I keep trying to get into The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan- I liked the Percy Jackson books, and I thought this would be like Percy Jackson with Egyptian mythology... oh how wrong I was. I can't even quite put my finger on what's wrong, aside from the little things that bother me, I just find myself drifting off to do something else all the time while I'm reading because I'm BORED. Bah. I'm determined to finish it, I'm just not sure how long it's going to take.

-Purchased a slow cooker and a cheap hand mixer in the past few weeks. Yep, definitely getting old. I figure I'd rather make little purchases here and there, rather than having to spend an obscene amount of money on all this stuff I need once I move out. Especially this one place that's in consideration- it's a lot more expensive than I'd like, which is why I haven't jumped all over it... however, it has no kitchen. Hence the slow cooker. I have an electric griddle that I purchased about a month ago, too, and of course I've had my rice cooker for a couple of years. Electric appliances that allow me to not require the use of a stove/oven are gooooooood. ^_^

That being said, I tried a recipe that was supposed to let me make cake in the crock pot- do not try this at home, kids. It was a complete disaster. The bottom burned and the top was still all cake batter. I ended up trying to pour the useable portions into a pan and sticking it in the oven. The cake is... passable. Not great. Might try it again sometime with just the oven and see if it's any better. On the upside, I can get decent macaroni and cheese out of the slow cooker. :D

-A friend that I haven't seen in some time, but am friends with on Facebook, sent me an invite to a gay ladies speed dating thing on Saturday. It's too short notice for me- if I'm to get a day off of work, I need to ask for it more than two days in advance- but it was nice that she thought of me, anyway. Although let's be honest, even if I didn't work weekends, I probably wouldn't go. I'm way too much of a social reject for that kind of thing. ^_^;;; Besides. There's trying to push myself a little out of my comfort zone and then there's throwing myself out of it completely.

Wow, 8am. Back to bed with me. <_<

Boring crap. :P

Monday, January 10th, 2011 02:34 pm
verloren1983: (My Own Little World)
☁ I transferred a good chunk of money into my savings account. I still left a decent amount in checking for groceries and this week's portion of rent and whatnot... honestly, probably more than I actually need, but then I do need to go get my hair cut this week. We'll see- if I have a bunch left over at the end of the month, I'll put in more.

☁ I'm probably going to start putting $50 in savings every week again. I got out of the habit somewhere along the line. That's bad. Not only does it keep my spending in check (because otherwise my brain will go "Ooooh, I have extra money, I'm going to get a bunch of things that I've been wanting and couldn't afford!" XD), but it helps me save for the bigger things I really, really want. Also a cushion to fall back on would be nice. If I was to be laid off tomorrow, I would be so royally screwed money-wise, and I'd rather that not happen. Plus I need to work on making sure I have money for deposit/first month's rent, that kind of thing. AND saving for that pesky reward system I have set up for my weight loss, which requires me to purchase shiny things as I hit specific milestones. I haven't had to worry about these milestones for some time now, since I've been more or less maintaining my loss, but I'm trying to get things going again. So. :D

☁ Speaking of weight, as of this morning the bathroom scale puts me below a number that shall remain nameless that I haven't seemed to be able to break for the last couple of months. I had been there, but gained about four pounds back. And now they are mostly gone again. :D :D :D :D :D (The Wii Fit scale, of course, is an entirely different thing, as always. Bah.)

☁ Also I've decided that I really, really want an e-reader. Honestly? It's part of the reason I shoved that money into savings. If it's in savings, I don't see it, and if I don't see it, it doesn't exist. That means I don't go to the Amazon website and order a Kindle just because I want one. Though staring at this PDF in all it's black text/white background glory and trying to read is making it really, really tempting. >_<

☁ That being said, I had decided a few weeks ago that I was going to start keeping a list of what I was reading again. I used to, and then I just stopped, somehow. Probably because I was reading a lot less. *cough* However! In 2010 I read a TON and didn't keep track, so this year I'm making a list. My goal for the year is 50 books read (re-reads don't count, but manga does), which considering how fast I read is a freaking JOKE, but whatever. Got to start somewhere, right? I've read four already, since the first, and working on a fifth. I'll grant you that none of these were particularly difficult reading, either technically or emotionally, but still. Considering work and sleep and the fact that I have to take numerous breaks because reading on my laptop for extended periods KILLS my eyes... yeah, I'm pretty damn proud of that. ^_^

☁ As far as writing is concerned... there is now yet another bunny in my head that I'm not sure I want to write. Ugh. I feel like it's been so long that I couldn't possibly remember how to do it properly. Or do the characters justice. Then I think that I probably need a canon review, and then some part of my brain goes "Jeez, wouldn't this be easier with your OWN characters?" And... yeah, it's just this continuing downward spiral. XD I should probably quit whining about it and just freaking WRITE something, possible OOC issues be damned. At least get me going again, you know? At one point I had decided that I would write at least 100 words a day. Maybe I'll try that again. I can do 100 words. 100 words of WHAT is more the question.

NaBloPoMo Day Nine

Tuesday, November 9th, 2010 11:45 pm
verloren1983: (Three Rules to Writing)
Day 9. How do you get ideas for your characters? Describe the process of creating them.

I wouldn't say there's a singular process, really. I've said before that songs ping me for plot ideas- that applies to characters too. Like I'll get plot bunny A that involves character B and character C, but I don't really know anything about B and C at first. It's after the original bunny that I'll sit down and develop the characters, decide what their names are, their backgrounds, who they are. Even then- some of that happens as I actually write them, you know? Characters develop all the time, and sometimes they'll tell you, "Hey, I like --" and things like that. It's nice when that does happen, though. Less work for me. ^_^;;;



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...yeah, I just realized I completely blanked on doing the AC for SW. I've been really out of it since I went on vacation and I'm not sure why. Meh. Maybe that means I should be done and not reapp. My activity has dwindled down to nothing again anyway. *sigh* I don't know, maybe I don't have the patience to really be active in an LJ RP for an extended period without someone making me. This is the second time that there's been a major issue with my activity, so as much as I love everyone there, I really need to decide whether I'm going to continue to do this to everyone. :/

That being said, let's get down to business- the meme question for the day!

Day 8. What’s your favorite genre to write? To read?


My original writing tends to fall in the YA category. There's a couple in fantasy, one mystery-ish, and several that could be labeled GBLTQ if you wanted to go there. I wouldn't say that there's a favorite genre that I like to write, really, it's just... wherever the plot bunnies happen to take me, you know?

Reading, though, mystery and fantasy are definitely favorites. I'll grant you that not even close to half of my books are actually on my bookshelf (too many, sob), but what is there? Probably about 75% fantasy. I don't have nearly enough mystery, but I'm slowly working on it, and I do have some. I love things in the GBLTQ area of things, too. Especially the teen stuff and the gay male smutty ones. Yeah, I don't know either.


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Day 7. Do you listen to music while you write? What kind? Are there any songs you like to relate/apply to your characters?

Assuming I'm at home, yes, I generally listen to music. I try to have a playlist put together that reflects the character I'm writing or the mood I'm trying to set. If I'm looking for something more generic, classical is a nice thing to have in the background. Music is just... it helps me write, it helps with IDEAS to write about. Music pings me so hard for bunnies it's not even funny... whether it's original or fanfiction. If I'm having a hard time coming up with something, usually listening to some music helps.

As far as specific songs, it's honestly been a long time for many of them and I don't remember. Brian is definitely "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen, I'm not even sure how that happened. I have a couple of boys who I think about any time either "Face Down" by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus or "Do You Remember" by The Summer Obsession come up. Other than that, I can't really think of anything at the moment.


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NaBloPoMo Day Six

Saturday, November 6th, 2010 01:41 pm
verloren1983: (NaBloPoMo)
Day 6. Where are you most comfortable writing? At what time of day? Computer or good ol’ pen and paper?

Hmm. Well, that depends. I mean, where I'm most comfortable physically is on my couch with a laptop in the middle of the night, but that's not a guarantee that I'll be able to write. Often it's at work when I have no time and I'm trying to scribble down bits of dialogue on a scrap of paper. Or I'm out, so I'm typing stuff into my phone and everybody thinks I'm crazy. But those situations certainly aren't comfortable. I write more under pressure, it seems. (Of course, "more" and "better" are two different things altogether as well.) Ideally, I'm physically comfortable, so that means my couch. I write anytime the mood strikes, which can literally be ANY time, but I prefer to sit down with things at night when no one else is around. No interruptions, no people asking what you're doing and trying to look over your shoulder. And computer versus pen and paper? That really just depends on my mood. Having a cursor blink at you in a word processing program is just as intimidating as a blank page, so, you know, it doesn't really matter either way. I usually use a computer if I can simply because it makes any editing a whole lot easier.


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Could've sworn I posted this last night, but apparently not. Whoops! ^_^;;; At least it's before midnight, right?

Day 5. By age, who is your youngest character? Oldest? How about “youngest” and “oldest” in terms of when you created them?

By age, it's going to be Brian and crew. They're at the onset. However, they're also (minus Brian) the oldest  MAIN characters, because I have them at a few different ages in my head: 12, 13, 15, and then again at 28. If that makes any sense.

As far as when I created them... youngest would be Lauren, who's in actuality 13. Oldest would be... people I don't even remember, I'm sure, but the ones I remember are from that Civil War story I told you about in one of the other meme questions. ^_^;;;


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NaBloPoMo Day Four

Thursday, November 4th, 2010 01:11 pm
verloren1983: (NaBloPoMo)
Day 4. Tell us about one of your first stories/characters!

Well, I already told you about my first story... I don't think it was my FIRST story, but it was the first one I remember, and that's what counts. So I guess I'll tell you about one of my first characters. Brian happens to be part of a story that I've re-imagined AT LEAST four times, and so he's changed quite a bit since the beginning. At first he was modeled after a crush I'd had at the time (three guesses as to what the main female character was like? XDDD), but he's grown very much beyond that. In one memorable soap opera reincarnation, he was blind, and then ended up getting some random cancer and dying. ....it doesn't really get much better for him in subsequent versions, though. Brian is just one of those characters that I seem to love to torture. Now he's extremely depressed to the point of being suicidal. Cheery, huh? He's a really good kid that has a horrific thing happen to him and it totally tears his life to shreds, and he never quite gets it back together again. He's also one of my few completely straight male major characters, so that makes him special on its own. :P



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